To the woman in the elevator who told me my Bear was a "keeper", I thought so too. I wished to keep him forever and ever and I thought that just maybe he wanted to keep me. But he didn't. He doesn't. That was the last time I would ever see him. Our last rendezvous was in that very elevator. He whispered so tenderly into my ear that he loved me between kisses and I did the very same. Nine days ago that was. Today my number is blocked on his phone for begging him not to leave me. I am afraid to tell my friends because they'll call me a ***** and a **** (jokingly, they swear) for having lost yet another love. He was however my first love. His predecessors had simply been mislabeled. And that was why, at 9:56 last night when he told me he was breaking up with me after reassuring me that he loved me "dearly" when I questioned his distance just earlier that morning, I couldn't breathe. He didn't ask me to say anything, maybe because he didn't care, maybe because he knew my ever present words had failed me. Almost like he did. I sobbed for five continuous hours. I texted boys who called me "a crazy *****", who told me they hated me. Yet he broke up with me because he feared I deserved more, when in fact I wanted nothing more than him. And just minutes before I asked him to be my premature valentine, to which his response was crushing me, making my rounded edges turn concave. And so, to the dear woman in the elevator, I am still going to believe he was a keeper until I am strong enough to let strings of curses fly. Thank you for stoking my dreams into a full blazing fire from a low crackling burn. I hope that soon I will find myself able to extinguish the raging fluttering embers completely. Sincerely, His "manic pixie dream girl"