Is it worth it, you and me?

What would have happened
If the stars didn't align
On that fateful day?

I imagine he and I
Would still be together.
Maybe we would be closer to marriage.

She might still be my best friend,
Always planning the next adventure,
Sticking around through it all.

Would I have tried to **** myself again?
He always knew what to say,
And her opinion would have rang in my ears.

Perhaps my mother and I
Would still be close.
Maybe I wouldn't have left the house.

I would have never met her.
These feelings, this confusion,
Would not exist.

But think about this:

What if he and I still didn't work out?
Perhaps I would have met someone new,
Or perhaps we just fell out of love.

What if she and I
Still didn't make it until the end?
The adventure stopped?

Perhaps I still tried to **** myself,
And it actually worked?
You were the one who got me help.

What if my mother and I
Still faded away,
And I still left home?

I would be completely alone then;
Maybe even six feet under.
Nobody would be my comfort.

Is it worth it, you and I?

We will not know until the very end.