I took a lot of medication
I've been sick since you left me
And now I'm feeling sad again
See, I went to this party
But even with the music blaring
And people all around me
I can't deny that I still feel
Really ******* lonely
This couple right beside me
Is going pretty hard
I remember when we were them
Before we had these scars
They're hotboxing the bathroom
The whole place reeks of ****
But I don't want to get messed up
I cling to sanity
I really ******* miss you
My heart is screaming loudly
And I wonder where you are right now
And if you're thinking of me
The couple right beside me
Has left now, holding hands
They're ******* in the bathroom
But they left their beer cans
I know I took a lot of pills
I know this can't be good
But ever since you left
Now one's understood
The pain I'm feeling deep inside
They all tell me "he was lame"
But truly you were perfect
No one else could be the same
I'm scared of where you are
What you're doing, and with who
I know you have no trouble
Finding girls to sleep with you
And maybe it's that thought
That finally sends me off the cliff
Or the couple in the bathroom
Who make me think "what if?"
What if we had made it?
Could that have been our life?
You mentioned a couple of times
That you could see me as your wife
But now it's all in ruins
Shards of us lay at my feet
I know I failed you
So now it's time to fail me
I don't know what I'm thinking
Suddenly I'm grabbing beers
I keep on chugging down and down
And then I hear the cheers
They don't know what I'm doing
They think it's all a game
They don't know that I hate beer
They don't even know my name
Everyone is watching
As I down another can
They don't realize that's it's over
My final race has been ran
I know I haven't got much time
Before the medicine reacts
And maybe I will die tonight
I may just hit my max
Yet that doesn't bother me
None of it really does
I stopped caring long ago
About what is and was
I hope that you sleep well
And if my life is ending
Don't think you could've helped me-
My heart was way past mending