I regret everything.
75. I decide it is time to find her.
I do.
She is dead.
74.
73.
72. I think about her all the time.
72. A commercial comes on and I see a lady with blonde hair.
71.
70. My son's wife left him.
If this isn't confirmation I don't know what is.






34. it's a beautiful
33. I pay a woman to be the surrogate of my child.
I decide being a better father than mine will make life worth it.
32.
31.
30.
29. I decide to make a change.
28. I tried to **** myself but the rope broke.
27. Nothing
26.
25.
24. I couldn't
24. I wasn't listening .
24. Something about work or her mother or something
24. She declines
24.  I propose
23. She changed me I can't believe it.
22. I can't live without her.
21. She's perfect
20. I meet a girl.
19.
18.
17.
16. My father left yesterday.
My mother tries to explain love to me.
I don't think she knows what she's saying anymore
Love must not be real
15.
14.
13.
12.
11. I got an A
My father is in AA
I'm happier about the second.
10. I asked Tommy if his Dad drank and he said yes.
But I don't think he knew what I was talking about.
I can't imagine his dad wakes up in bile
and *****
and his own ****
once a week.
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4. I love being held.
I'm too old for it but I cry when I'm put down.
It don't care as long as I'm picked up.
3. Santa is the coolest he gives me gifts and presents.
And I know those are the same thing but I'm just too excited.
2.
1.
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