Every once in a while,
just every Once in a long long while,
I get a little taste...
...of happiness.

It could be talking with a new friend,
exercising again,
or finding myself in worship.

And even though
I know
I need to celebrate these...
...little victories

right now,
at this time in my life,
they really just serve to remind me
how happy I used to be

and
I am filled with a sadness
and longing
I have been fighting
for a while.