Freedom, so sweet.
If only I could grasp you,
if only you were near.

My demons attack me,
spilling crimson blood.
I'm losing the battle,
fear consuming me.

I don't want to hurt anyone,
I really don't.
Everyone else,
deserves better than me.

Can you please go away?
Leave this war to me.
May I just go?
Or must I plead?

Over and over,
memories again.
Over and over,
on rerun.

My head turns away,
my demons to fearful to look at.
I ignore them,
just as they destroy me.

I reconstruct,
build my life again,
only to have to taken,
only to have it destroyed.

I hate this life,
but I'll wait for the next.
I'm not going to die,
no, not yet.