Every tick,
my clock drips,
my eyes leak,
with heavy lids.

Yes, I was sick. . .
and they left me,
when I was weak.

The friends I thought,
were for real,
only spend time for chills.

I'm not cool,
but never a fool.
I just want this life's
better piece.

To give me someone
who never kills,
a heart so frail, as me.

A man,
a lifetime friend.
My missing puzzle piece.
That everlasting kiss!

Who could promise:
"  *In sickness and in health with me  "

But in all of these,
I know, 
God is with me.

" Always giving . . .    
. . . always watching, "

**Making a better backstory.

For all the things
I try to say,

Why do "goodbyes"
Always slay?

Cause not even once,
Did you insist,
To stay.

I said a word,
With pure,
**Dismay.

You've degraded
My meaning of love,
To something,
  S E L F   C O N F I D E N T I A L
*. . .

You are an old song
I'm still trying to remember.

Im just waiting . . .
For the right person to come.
To prove to me,
That you're really,
*Not the one.

The moment I stop guessing
Is the time I ended *caring.

I actually don't know,
If what I feel is* **valid.

There are things
I cannot admit to myself,
Lines I couldn't spell.
How far would this go,
I never know.

My heart is*  constricted,
**I      AM    C H O K E D.

I lose that side of me
Because life has its way,
Of making us forget,
How special was
Yesterday.

And later
We shall regret
The mess we've made
And that's when
We'll look back.

.A mere flashback.
And that's the most painful thing.
**JUST LOOKING BACK.

When what you want to express
But cannot tell,
Is metaphorically penned,
By the same poets,
Who loves poetry,
To find themselves.

Because what I've got inside
might not be enough,
like yours.

I realized
That I don't mean
What I'm writing here.

I lost my heart.
Somewhere in between,
Measely word games you play.

But you do not know,

How I also twist my words,
Just to portray,

That every talk is just
A commemoration of an
**April Fools Day!

I thought
I'm not the only one
But, I'm wrong.
And now I know.
So let's stop this show
I'm ready to go.

Regardless if it's you or not,
I still believe in  *destiny.

Wait for it to fade
Then one day you'll just wake up
The habit is gone

You twist those blank words,
As if everything I do
Is all **about you.

Because I see no reason

And it has become my poison.
                      
             .        .        .­       .  Lost in motion

I killed myself by treason

Maybe it's not yet my season.
*Someday, i'll make a reverse rendition.

Disappointment
turned
Relief.
My decision's alot more stiff.
Coz ur no longer my heart's thief,
But just a **hero in this *baffling mischief.

There's no pain
In hiding,
Just regrets
For crying,
And nothing's
Worth complaining
Coz our love is
Like a business venture
Stuck at *planning.

I started to save
Too many  drafts
Means,
Too many* crafts
Left unpublished,
While my heart's
At **painstake cramps.

She is spide-y
Grandma's just hiding!
I saw her making web
Criss cross, made a blanket!
But her reflexes,
Hmm, just too confusing.
Fell on the ground,
Never standing.

"  Oh! Grandma, tell me you're spidey!  "

When the clock turns 12
I'll end this fairy tale then
Run with both shoes on.

You don't take away
What little of this
I have.

I cried,
When I realized
This could be love,

Too unfounded.

Now, I believe
That love is
Like crossing a street
With confidence,
A face steadfast.

Then,

There's a sudden feeling
Of almost getting hit
By a speeding car.
And it happens
Every second.

From there,

You felt like,
Never crossing
The line again.

But still,

Ever-wanting
To reach the other side,
You remain there
Standing
Hoping you can move on.

And as,

Courage strike
You take a step
Secretly hoping
To get hit head on.
And now, FOR SURE.

But,

No matter how much
Time you take,
All you see
Is a car
Waiting before
Pedestrian lane.

"Go out, please. Go get me. ."

But.

beep! *beep! *beep!

You run ahead
Looking at that car
Who just speed ahead.

You overthink,
If he wants you safe
Or
Just playing safe.
So you cross
Again and again
Realizing
YOU'RE STILL ALIVE.

I've witnessed all heartbreaks
Now, my heart closed gates...
Cause it'll all end the same.

The greatest love story
Infront of your eyes
Sent angels singing,
Pixies of dozen hues galore!
Rainbows shone, and
Did the moon just smile?!

But after some miles,
They've parted ways
Just because
They grew so tired.
Such epitome!

To whoever holds the key to my heart
Better yet, surrender it!
Before we waste some time
Admiring
Then hurting
Regretting
And forgetting.

But for some reasons,
Put the gamble!
I've earned the years
Observing things
Now, spin the wheel!
And let's see who wins.

In life,
there's always a feeling
that you left something unfinished.

We just wake up one day
and everything has already changed
but us.

You tell one self
"someone's important!"
but you live like destiny's always on call.

It's is us who choose
How we live our days.
Injured, bleeding!
That's how we see ourselves.

But we know.
We know for sure, that after God
We are in control.
Oh, but how heart thy fear!
To hold the wheel.

In the end,
we are but the culprit
of our own misery
And endless insanity.

Life isn't all about destiny.
Don't wait and die
With nothing.

The world is like a pizza.
Circle w/ a crust.
Pepperoni rocks, tomato water
Leaves of pepper greens
Some pineapple trees
And land of cheese!
The core of pizza saver,
Mountains of Olives!

The rain of saliva's
Coming in!
And some tornado stomach
Striking free!

Please deliver the world to me!
The brochures, it's making me hungry!
When other's already got
A slice of it.
While some,
Are now tired of it.

I've already stopped
searching the world of
nowheres
and
*nothings.

Phases are cycles.
It repeats, and repeats
Till someone has to die
Not seeing it.
Or
till someone has to live
Ignoring it.
Coz phases never changes.
It repeats, and repeats
Till.
Someone.
Has.
To.
Die.
Not.
Seeing.
IT.

Once upon a time
There was a moment
Where  "BUT"  kills an
Entire kingdom of hearts.
Chaos, famine, death!
.  . Took everyone's breath. .
A magic, so compelling
Turned rain into stones
That hit the royal's head.
Crown fell off,
BUT
Picks it up with a devious smile.*


From then,
The castle locked gates.

My life is active
But not interactive.
Do not pity me, my dear
I've got a few mouths to see
But none of them
Killed me.

It felt like no one could make me fall,
again.

Sometimes I really have no idea
Who I am.

There are times when
I wanted to take your eyes
And look if you can
Really see me,
In this world
You called "mine".
Which makes me yours.

I am writing             you were the
. . . . . . . . as if. . . . . . . . .
Last man I will ever love.
Cause all love
Unrequited
Is
*Dumb.

My imagination is your limit, my dear.

You told me,
Not to look for love.
So, should I just look at you and say

"This is not love"?
Too bad, I lost it. Even before finding it.

You've actually crossed my mind
Just once in this lifetime,
And you never totally left me.
Cause it's me who
Never let you, ever.

He unsheathed his sword
And you retreat,
. . Stepping backward . .
Tears fell from his cheeks
As he surrendered,

*"Your doubt, it hurts."

I shall pick my heart
From the ground and leave the blood
Spilt out from its fall.