I’m still a kid
I still act like one
I miss getting in trouble at school
I don't like being serious
I like to mess around and laugh.
But i feel like people see me as a boring person
And i know i'm not but here I feel like it.  
I just feel like I don't belong here.
Maybe just maybe it's the mask that we wear.
Covering up who we really are.
They hide our faces and make us seem unapproachable

I can hear everything.
I can hear a baby crying, the clock ticking, my mother yelling, my dad tapping me on the shoulder, my sister asking me for help, my brother's controller clicking, and yet I hear my heart beating faster and faster. All the noises fade away while I stand there breathing trying to take in everything that's happening.
I feel like the world is going in circles, I feel like I’m spinning. Then I’m gone.

I can just imagine..
laying down on a field full of red poppies.
Feeling free
Feeling at peace with the world.
So quiet.
Feeling the warm light sink into my skin.
I close my eyes.
And I let go..
Of everything

I finally got over you, and you came back.. why? Why all of a sudden you come back when I’m finally over you?! I was happy you came back, but I realized things are different now. I don’t need you anymore, you hurt me. I can’t go back to feeling that pain again.

I feel weak.
I feel sleepy.
I feel sad.
I feel this tightness in my chest.
Im shaking.. why did I do this to myself.
I can hear my heart beating faster and faster.
I don’t deserve this.
I feel dumb.
I feel sore.
Im tired
Im tired of everything..
we’re right back to where we started..