Relapse...
I just relapsed again
After walking on that long road called recovery
I'm back where I started
The memories...
Something I thought that had departed from my head
Is something that got me back here instead
I can't get rid of you..
you're like a drug that's destroying me but yet can't seem to get enough of
you're like the sun, you **** me with the summer heat but I'll miss you in the winter cold
you're irreplaceable, even if you have replaced me...I won't be able to replace you
Its impossible...because I've Relapsed

I'm lying deep in thought on my bed of lies, questions inter twine as your name circles my mind
I realise that the saying that says things will be better in time is just a lie
Ever since the 4th I've buried my smile
Cause the reason I had for it died now all I can do is try reconcile
I lied when I said I'll be fine without you
I lied when I said I don't need you
I lied when I said I'll never miss you cause the truth is now I can't go through a day without thinking about you
I miss you...

"Get sober!
Its time to start over..."
In my mind the only words that are ****** in are "Its over" and then my mind decides to plays tricks on me and tells me I'm still sober even after I've finished a bottle of liquor...

I mess up because I love you, but can't make you mine, because I know you love that other dude

You were a father I wished I had and a man I wish I become...

I'll never be the same again since you came my way