I'll never be SOBER...




From the day you said it was over




I'll never be SOBER...




Cause when I'm sober I think and when I think you come to mind and when you come to mind I find that I start wishing that I could just die...but when I'm not sober this pain becomes a distant memory, I don't think, therefore you don't come to mind, I don't find the need to die cause through time the alcohol consumption buries my mind so you see I don't mind...but what I mind is what my mind is doing right now, and that's thinking, I want to stop but that's impossible then I'll have to stop living...I guess sober or drunk it doesn't really matter, I will think and when I think you'll come to mind and when you come to mind I'll just want to die...



I'll never be SOBER...

What would you do if I die now?
I feel like blowing my brains out, so I guess this will be my last bow
This is my Curtain call, I caught you when you were about to fall
That's a metaphor showing you how much you meant to me that's all
This is about a girl who became my world
And allowed me to bury my soul
Now she's built a wall as high as Jericho
She turned me into a cold person
Now I seem to resemble this world I despise
Isn't that ironic??
Now I wish i could really die...



            







Here I go,  I'm flying to the next universe
Not knowing what's ahead whether its a blessing or terrible curse...but what I know is that I'll never be sober cause I'm scared of the memories they might hurt

She's pretty isn't she?
No, she's just pretty fun to make fun of.

That's all this world has come to.
If your not like me your wrong and weird and a monster.

But who's the real monster here,
The young innocent child whose only "crime" was to be themselves ,or the child that holds them self above everyone else?!?!

How could anyone stand for this , how could you not interfere?
Do you not understand that pain is NOT just physical, but emotional too?
Those mean , horrid words that were thrown like knives from your mouth , could ****.

DO NOT TAKE PART IN IT!
NOR SHOULD YOU TURN THE OTHER CHEEK, BECAUSE THAT MAKES YOU JUST AS GUILTY!

Its the fight of my life
I'm swinging left and right
Mind emotionally drained
Been punching at the same spot for so many nights
Took my gloves off
Now each blow is harder than the first  
It hurts...
The fight of the season
Me versus the wall you created
Which is the reason,we are even separated
You left without a warning
Built this foe that I'm going toe to toe with
I'm bleeding out
The fight of the season is turning into the last fight I'll ever be in
Can't punch anymore, knuckles bare
I'm knocked out, maybe dead
Now my new home is the cold floor
This is the last time I cared

Ride or Die...
That's what it came to when I was with you
What I loved about you was that you seemed so simple
But you were twisted like a salted pretzle
You were incredible
My Ride or Die
My world
The only place were I can truly bury my soul
But then again...you left
Then you filled my veins with ice and left me so cold
Now I'm watching you and you're  happy and I'm living in misery
You're looking to your future
While I'm just part of that history
Ride or Die
That's what YOU meaned to me

First time I saw you
You were looking for a class I was inspired to find
At first glance your greyish brown eyes gave me a chill that ran through my spine
You were a mystery no one could solve
And you had a history you barely spoke of...

Waking up
And you're the first thing on my mind
That's why I hate being sober and I'm drunk most of the time
Another day has come...which means I'm forced to see you smile at someone elses jokes....
I just wish I could take some time and elope








Disappear forever under the ground, with these words as the final sound as I travel to the promise land listening to Bob Marely
"Don't worry about a thing cause every little thing will be alright"
I just wish that I didn't have to worry about you...
Cause its killing me so much that when I sleep I wake up dead
You were not fair
I guess this is my karma for making you fall for me cause I'm literally falling and there's no gravity to hold me
I loved flying with you even if we did crash and burn and even if your final words did break my bones...