starving in depression
hungry for the mania
all these shrieks and screams
sinking in schizophrenia
nah it's just voices in my head
It's just teen age angst instead
sitting in the middle of cold showers
******* to feel fed
up with these times
every single thing I do is like a small crime
It's like a record but for lonely people
in a secret app post secrets in secret places to secret people
anonymous it might be but only *** I see
it's only *** and ******* these days
and videos of suicide in freaky ways

There might be salvation
to this starvation
of *** and money, alcohol and ****
Dairy queen and Acid mothers
who bothers?

Carve your love
all over my skin
carve your love
blood on my skin

hate me
hate me
hate me

“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
    and naked I will depart.
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
    may the name of the Lord be praised.”

Sleep
like silk
covers me
makes me warm
yet I wake up cold.

Me and my girlfriend broke up a few days ago
her name was motivation
I am disintegration.

get a job
get a wife
get a purpose in life

I keep searching the maze in my mind
morality, sanity
be kind,
rewind
to the days when I had no one
and I made it all by myself

but now it feels all empty again
studying, working,
drinking, smoking
mingling
and what is it worth for?

only the future holds the truth
unveil it like a dress
and see
everything's a mess.

No one blamed me
No one trapped me
I have imprisoned myself

In this room I'm safe
my ears filled with static noise
I'm safe
Here I'll grow up
I'll get old
But I know
that I will always
always
rot
In heaven.

the clouds
they hover
over me
i wonder
if my doings will stay
forever

deep blue
crystal clear
i can't keep on
living in fear

all I have are cigarette burns
scars on my arms
and broken bones

I am sorry
but I have nothing left
to give to you
go on and be
who you are supposed to

because I'll stay

How can a person suffocate from the simple act of breathing?
How can a person in a "free democracy" get killed by the simple act freedom of speech?

How can we as a society reach different cultures and remain racist and violent?
You call this culture?
Living like vultures, stray dogs with no ideologies

We are not destroying Mother Nature
We're destroying ourselves
And alone she will remain
Knowing that we were the worst
living
creatures.

this is killing me this is killing me this is killing me
barricaDEAD
trapped between
four walls

I can't feel a thing besides
loneliness
im such a leech
i deserve this

going back to the army tomorrow
all i feel, thinking about that
is sorrow

A disease
set us apart
sow us together
for better or worse

a life we did not choose
a path walked by mistake
never knowing when to wake
up

red blood red
covers our hands
war vision
visions of war
and a broken casette
with smudged images of terror

raise our head or put it down in shame
it really doesn't matter, we are the ones to blame.