I have too much to say
but my words have no say
I have nothing to say
shut up
shut up

I am so messed up
I mess up so **** much
I am raging inside
trying to let it all loose
but nothing comes out
my mouth a cage
my words are caged
locked up inside
****** up inside

SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP

Drown in the ocean
Dive into the sun
Shadow swallows the moon
chaos is gone
chaos become
chaos begone
chaos is welcome

Epilogue
Start over
run for cover
he has come

I am sorry for not possessing standards of society
Let me introduce my friend social anxiety
shoot at me all words and blasphemy
I'm already shattered, it
doesn't matter
anyway

Ecclesiastes is a fake and god is too
no saints no saviours no one is he
a piece of rotting flesh is the only thing you'll be
acceptance is for the holy
too bad deity is dead.

Deicide,
book of the dead, pages bound in human flesh
a man stands alone in the battlefield of life
Can't stand anymore he will cut it with a knife
Scripting a holy of the holiest, a testament in blood.

Here I am spitting words ain't worth a thing
starving, sitting alone, tired of being a simple human being
I hope no one comes ever again, enter the door of my mind ever again
never again
never again

Self emotional abuse
It's I against I and it is I who will lose
in this game there are no rules
Just loss and confusion, a game of fools

As my shields break
I break down on my knees
nervous breakdown that is
no mercy no pleas

Dazed, hazed, and confused
rip my heart out and throw it to the sky
launch a rocket and make the country cry
make us free give us life
cut my life with a knife for victory I thrive

My end is my victory
my end is my loss
look down in shame
look up in pride

I don't want to die
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Carve your love
all over my skin
carve your love
blood on my skin

hate me
hate me
hate me

“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
    and naked I will depart.
The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;
    may the name of the Lord be praised.”

believe me
I may smile
but I can't sleep
my eyes burning
And I don't want tomorrow to arrive
so I'm just sitting here waiting
and as time passes by
I feel my stomach getting crushed
I feel my head getting crushed
I feel static noises
static noises
Penetrating my ears
and all my fears
coming down on me
whispering

Sitting here
waiting
wishing
tomorrow never comes
tomorrow never comes

pitch black
heart attack
night covers my face in shadow
and im hallucinating
seeing my body flow
in the river of blood
river nile
it's been a while
since I dreamt
I never dream

because I'm always sitting here waiting
hoping that tomorrow never comes
but it always does
it always does

My eyes sewn shut
I just can't handle this anymore
I'm so sorry, there is no purpose
to live for.

A mouth is screaming
everyone is hearing
no one is listening
the lights are on but
no one is in the house

we live for
we sacrifice for
we suffer for
we die for
what?

this is killing me this is killing me this is killing me
barricaDEAD
trapped between
four walls

I can't feel a thing besides
loneliness
im such a leech
i deserve this

going back to the army tomorrow
all i feel, thinking about that
is sorrow

tear drop
blood drop
blue royal blue
deep purple
pretty in pink
glass jaw
jaw drops
no law

Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

no colours
no order
new order
is me.