Survival of the fittest
Only
only the best
will remain

Chains of society
A new race of people
that obey orders
normal, ideal,
closed in a cage, sealed in borders

this is not the life
I have dreamt of
3 years
it just goes by
it will end
they say
they say it will go quick
fade away
I can't believe that they are unable to notice
that what is fading away slowly
is me.
Look me in the eye
swallow my tears
swallow my fears
see them tearing down my spine
i'm not fine
i'm not fine

looks like freedom
feels like death
it‘s something in
between i guess

No one blamed me
No one trapped me
I have imprisoned myself

In this room I'm safe
my ears filled with static noise
I'm safe
Here I'll grow up
I'll get old
But I know
that I will always
always
rot
In heaven.

Aggression
Depression
SO much of it
cant stand it
thoughts shooting from every corner in my brain
ricochet
decay

I want to let it out
I want to hit someone so bad
but I can't hurt others
so Ill hurt myself
self harm
dis arm
negativity
creativity
****** my skin

my scars shine bright red
and my soul pitch black.

Green eyes
hypnotize
deep blue
deep into you

Rayleigh scattering
yellow turns to red
blue goes away
I fade away

meditates
elevates
******
He ******* in a rainbow against the rising sun.

I have too much to say
but my words have no say
I have nothing to say
shut up
shut up

I am so messed up
I mess up so **** much
I am raging inside
trying to let it all loose
but nothing comes out
my mouth a cage
my words are caged
locked up inside
****** up inside

SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP
SHUT UP

confusion
fusion
focus
my hemispheres
my mind
cannot
anymore

please stop this
please
im on my knees

found in my pocket, written somewhere in the past (not) perfect.

Cycles
cycles of sleep
cycles of life
cycles of the sun and the moon

one day
they'll break down
and then?