I close my eyes and listen
To the soft sound of your voice as
You weave a new tale for me to hear
I see the pictures evolve before my eyes
As characters begin to appear
You take me by the heart
To places we dream to be
Painting our lives with your words
Endearing you more to me
Other men may have touched my skin
You....have touched my soul
Opening my mind again to believe
Life can once again be whole.
Dreams are made to live
Love is made to be shared
Tired of fighting against my grain
Searching for the one who cares
In the moment I ceased the fight
Heart and soul sprang forth
Then what does God hand to me
But you...my one true north.

March 6, 2016

Tell me about your heart.
Tell me about your struggles, your pain.
How you dug yourself out of hell
and overcame through the greatest odds.
Show me your love,
your compassion, your kindness.
Show me by deed, love for your fellow man.
A meal for a neighbor, or a man on the corner.
A coat for a stranger in the cold.
A warm bed for a friend who has none.
Bleed with me over the injustices in this world.
Your passion over wrong,
and your fight for what is right.
Show me your soul, and I will be yours for life.

Anger and bitterness poison your soul
And prevent you from coming forth
I know there is a scared little boy
That doesn't know his worth
A "real man" delusion is what you live by
Yet pain is what you inflict
Never thinking of another's heart
Just ready and willing to convict
You do not have the capacity for love
If anger lives in your heart
Darkness and hatred grow nothing but weeds
That choke the life out of who you are
I've tried to reach the child inside
To let him know he's loved
But fault you find in all I do
And you push away my love
I know what I should do for me
I should run and never look back
For trying to heal a heart so cold
Requires more power that I lack
You have no desire to change who you are
And have a right to live as you choose
But I have a right to live in peace
And be loved the way I deserve

June 2, 2016

I'm a fallen leaf
Carried by the wind
To places far from my home
Thru my journey
I've been tousled
Torn by the weather and sun
The farther I roam
The more my color fades
And my edges fray
Taking a rest
Then catching a breeze
Trying to find my way
Pieces of me
Start to break away
Changing who I was
Fragile and alone
Broken inside
I finally stop to pause
Home is my roots
That keep me safe
Nurture my heart and soul
If wander I must
I ought always return
To renew and revert to whole

June 12, 2016

A word, a smile
A fleeting  glimpse
A hug, a laugh
A heart that limps
My shattered soul
Is left again
To find my heart
My strength within
Not giving up
Not backing down
Walking thru life
Without a frown
Head held high
Trudging on
Looking ahead
To find my dawn
A shining light
Within your smile
Has made my life
More worthwhile
You reached inside
And found my heart
Promising me
A brand new start
You took the pieces
Of my broken soul
Loved me gently
Until I was whole
Laughter and love
Will now lighten our days
The love that we have
Will last…..always.

April 11, 2016

Fantasy
Return to me
Take me where
I want to be
Unicorns
Peter Pan
Captain Hook
Never land
Wonderland
Mad Hatter too
Places that
Remind of you
Snow White asleep
By witches trance
Land lost in time
a Piper's Dance
Fairies and
The woodland sprites
Open my dreams
Most every night
I find you there
Inside the wood
With merry men
And Robin Hood
My fantasy world
Where we are free
Together at last
You and me.

July 24, 2012

Forest darkness
Shadowed moon
Lost in sadness
Grief and gloom
Voices ringing
In my head
Do it now!
You are already dead!
Surface crawls
Under my skin
Eating my flesh
Exposing my sin
Behind the door
Demons abound
Wanting to take me
Into the ground
Eyes sown shut
Lips can't scream
My body is melting
Into a dream
This hell in my mind
When will it end?
"Never" it whispers
"You are mine till the end"

Look at the world through the eyes of a child
As if everything you see is new
Take wonder in the rising sun
In the grass covered with dew
Watch the morning birds
Waking up and taking flight
Finding food for their young
Who are hungry from the night
Watch the flowers reaching up
To catch the morning sun
Take rejoice in your life
A new day has begun!!
Watch the world around
As you go thru each day
Smile at a stranger
Help someone along the way
Be grateful for each breath you take
Give someone a helping hand
Smell the roses along your way
Feel your toes in the sand
Experience all that is around you
Don't live with blinders on
Let go of all that is burdening you
And in the end, you'll have won

September 2, 2016

To all my friends
Both near and far
Lifelong friends
And friends of the heart
I wish you joy
Laughter and love
Peace and forgiveness
Like that of above
May the New Year bring you
Comfort and light
May you become
All that you might
Let go of pain
Sadness and scorn
Start each day
As you are reborn
With a grateful heart
And giving soul
You will be blessed
Greater than gold
Lend a hand
To those in need
Comfort the sick
Work with glee
Spread your light
To those who have none
And your New Year will be filled
With nothing but love.

December 24, 2015
Pamela Penta

Green new leaves and tiny buds
Flowers starting to bloom
Mother Nature waking up
Decorating her home
Birds singing in their nests
As the young begin to birth
Showers fall and sunlight shines
To bathe and warm the earth
New life waking all around
A new beginning is formed
Awaken your soul to life again
Open and be transformed
Embrace the day and seize your bliss
No one can claim it but you
Let your heart be free at last
Restart your life anew
Spread your wings like a butterfly
Open your heart like a bloom
Share your soul like the stormy cloud
Break free of the winters tomb
You can begin from wherever you choose
You don't have to live in pain
Allow yourself the privilege of life
And never look back again

May 6, 2016

I am the wind
Blowing thru your hair
Touching your skin
Carrying your prayer

I am the earth
Under your feet
Guiding you where
You need to be

I am rain
Washing you clean
Growing the trees
And all that you see

I am fire
Burning in your soul
Forging your heart
Making you whole

I am All
I am you, you are me
Together we walk
Through eternity

June 10, 2016

A fleeting thought will never fail
To open up my mind
And bring me to a thinking place
Or leave me utterly blind
Coursing blood through my veins
And light within my soul
Will keep me trudging forward while
Replenishing the fold
Your words have not escaped me
Though your intent I'm sure is real
I have a hard time placing
A name to what I feel
Alone too long, maybe perhaps
And missing love and touch
Is asking that it be refreshed
Really all too much?
My soul is waiting openly
For a promise or a prayer
Here is hoping that I will not fail
And one day love will fare
Do not look behind, my mind doth say
You do not live in that past
Leave it there behind you
Or what you find won't last

February 19, 2016

Life is full of ups and downs
Twists and turns
And round and rounds
Tears of joy,
And tears of pain
Laughter and anger
Sun and rain
It's up to us
It is indeed!
To choose our path each day
Embrace the rain
Release the pain
Remember how to play!
It is our life
To sulk or grin
The choice has always been mine
Take each day
As a gift, as it is
And live your life sublime

December 21,2016

Riding down this old dirt road
Music loud and windows down
Wind blowing through my hair
And wiping away my frown
I turn down the road heading to the lake
The place of my youth and my dreams
Where laughter of long ago
And wonderful memories stream
My childhood was filled with adventure
First boyfriends and kisses in the pines
Camp outs and bonfires, rock pits and games
Yet I felt alone and afraid and confined
I ran from the place where once I was safe
Searching for a way to find peace
Alcohol, drugs and a life filled with shame
Did not the self loathing cease
That was a time as well long ago
With many a story between
The things in my life that have brought me to now
My life I still work to preen
I no longer fight the things of my past
The lessons I've opened and learned
Which brought me back here, the place of my home
With honor and respect now earned
June 2, 2016

I lay awake tonight
Thinking of you
Wondering if you are asleep
Or if you are lonely
I miss you, I want to see your face
I want to feel your arms around me
Holding me close
I want to take your pain...
But I know in your pain
You will find the answers you seek
Getting to the other side
Is where you will find your truth
I wonder if your truth
Involves me
I just want you happy
I want you at peace
And if that is without me
That is how it will be
As long as the smile
Returns to your lips
And laughter fills your world
I will be happy, to always be your friend

August 22, 2012

Shadows falling
in the night
Trying to find
what is right
Searching, flailing,
falling, fight
Finding the way,
without flight
Standing still,
do not run
Await the magic,
the setting sun
Will try to guide
your soul to fun
Not the way
of the knife or gun
Let go of anger
Pain and woes
Let go of fighting
Against your foes
Open soul
to love and light
Lay down the gun,
give up the fight
Leave things alone
that hurt your soul
Don’t look back
When you let go
Onward, upward
Pushing on
Finally becoming
No longer withdrawn
Opening up
To the world
Letting your heart
And love unfurl
Treasure each moment
Of life given you
Never give up
Love will shine through.

March 23, 2016

Our world is crumbling
Falling apart
Losing its will to live
People having disregard
Lost respect
And forgetting how to give
Oceans laced with
Bottles and trash
Forests and playgrounds too
The world walks by
With blinders on
Never smiling too
We’ve lost our hope
We’ve lost our love
We are fighting just to survive
Trying to find a glimpse
of what it used to mean -
to be alive
we’ve forgotten our souls
our reasons to live
we hide behind our masks
pushing away the world around
focusing on our tasks
Forgetting all who are in need
Turning a blind eye
Selfishly hoarding all we can
Until the day we die
You cannot take it with you
Your treasures turn to rust
Or end up in a trash pile
And your memories turn to dust
You leave behind no legacy
Of good and kindness and love
Of lending out a helping hand
In life you fell short of
Remembering why
We were given this life
It isn’t about your things
The question that will be asked of you
Is what did you do for Me?
How did you help another
When their confidence was down?
How did you help bring light
To a person with a frown?
How did you clothe the naked?
Or feed the hungry, and hurt?
How did you show My love
To those who were out of work?
Or did you spend your life
In anger
Blaming the world for your fate
Spreading sickness, telling lies
Burying your soul in hate?
It is your choice
On how you live
And what you wish to leave
How will you be remembered my friend
What kind of life will you weave?

April 5, 2016

You are tearing out my soul
A piece of flesh at a time
Devouring who I am

At times I feel your teeth scrape the bone

The black bitterness oozes
From your mouth and eyes
As it feeds on the happiness

That once was mine

Each day it grows with my demise
This viciousness that owns your heart
And is taking over your mind

Tearing us apart

I will not let you take my soul
Or turn me into you
If you choose to live in death

Then you and I are through

September 8, 2016

I invite you in...
To the silent places of my heart
To the pieces that are frayed and broken
Stitched together with lies and forgotten promises....
The places where secrets lie...
Tread lightly, as you enter here
For I've never allowed someone so close
To the darkness that lies beneath...
To the shadows of the sickness...
In my soul.
Careful as you touch the tender parts of my past....
Where the pain and suffering began
There is still a little girl in there, who needs some love and care
Don't turn away when the darkness grows deep
And depression rears its head...
It's just a demon I've learned to control,
I won't allow it to win.
If you've made it thru this far...
The prize is deep within
A heart that is strong, and full of life
And love for you waiting there.
The package comes as a whole
You must accept all of me
Help me through my darkness nights
Keep me safe
Love me raw, and let me weep
Carry me through until the day
you need me to carry you.

October 21, 2017

Follow me to the setting sun
To where life has begun
To the place we will be one

Follow me to the sea of blue
Where spraying dew
Make rainbow hues

Follow me to the mountains high
To touch the sky
And clear our eyes

Follow me to rivers wild
Raging Rapids reconciled
Laughing playing like a child

Follow me throughout this life
And I will you, forever your wife

June 10, 2016

Time again to fly away
To distant land of dreams
To live the life of fantasy
Nothing is as it seems
A distant lover waits for me
To dance among the stars
Anywhere we wish to be
Is never very far
Where rainbows turn to waterfalls
And unicorns to bees
And all we wish will always be
In the land of dreams....

Pam Penta
June 18, 2012

Demons line the hallway
Filed in one by one
Waiting for their solace
In the setting sun
When the clock strikes midnight
And the angels go to bed
Then it is their playtime
The time to take the dead
The ones who are all alone
And lost to their own pain
Welcome them with open arms
To enter their waiting veins
Take away the anguish
Of life as it has become
Take away my memory
Of a lost and broken home
Take away the fear in me
So I may lay my head
Upon this concrete I call home
And the cardboard of my bed
Let me forget that I once served
This country long ago
Just like they have forgotten me
As soon as I came home
Demons take me now I pray
Give me peace for a time
Quiet the longing of my soul
And the noises in my mind
Give me dreams of a happier place
As you take away my soul
Let me drift away in peace
And let me wake no more

June 11, 2017

A hollow space inside me bleeds
And begs me for relief
A shudder through my aching heart
That rarely skips a beat
Then the voices in my head
Cackle, crawl and creep
Waiting for the time to be
To take me in my sleep
Veins still pump and eyes still cry
Though never at my will
Rather death come quietly
And that my heart were still
Quiet me, the hurt inside
Has waged on long enough
Burdened soul of hallowed mind
A spirit born of rust
Shadowed in the waking dawn
The demons take their leave
Resting, waiting, patiently
For my soul to thieve.

November 13, 2017

My heart is breaking
Scattering in a million pieces
Taking bits of my soul as it goes
There is nothing left
No fight, no reason
To go on
It's been broken so many times
Nothing but dust remains
I've lost all hope
All memory of who I was meant to be
I'm so tired, I want to rest
Close my eyes
and be reborn to my next life
This one is nothing but pain
I can't survive any more
And I've begged for relief
For too long

March 14, 2017

For years I have searched for you
The other half of my soul
Wandering in and out of lives
Trying my best to be whole
Nothing ever felt quite right
Before long the pieces would fail
Take me back to being alone
Back to my own living hell
I fought my way back to myself
And vowed to always be alone
Protecting my heart from being hurt
Yet always feeling undone
I ran across you quite by fate
I remembered your heart from ago
Back to a time before we we were born
When we were of one soul
The very moment you held me close
I knew I had found my way home
Back to the arms of my other half
Back to the place I belong

May 1, 2016

Into the darkness I have gone
To find that place the one called home
Through the anger, doubt and fear
I tore down walls that brought me near
On cliffs of death and walls of grief
I struggled on to find my peace
For truth be told it's all within
For ones true self is the true friend
And hiding behind the empty space
Is who you are through Gods own Grace
And fighting through to find yourself
Is where freedom lies and happiness dwells
Giving up is not a choice
Let the world see you and hear your voice
You are not meant to live in chains
Find yourself, release the pain
Break down the walls that hide your soul
Let out your truth and then you'll know
All you ever wished from life
Was always there, right inside
For you yourself have the power to be
To unlock the chains and set yourself free.

March 16, 2013
Pam Penta

I long to lay with you in green fields of clover
watching the clouds form in the sky.
To laugh at a world that has forgotten why we are here...
To dance in the rain, and rejoice at a new day.
To stroll in the twilight while the stars and the moon begin to shine.
Life is short.
It is too short not to run and play and laugh and love.
Too short not to cherish every breath  
not to look at each new experience with wonder.
Life is beautiful.
It is sacred.
And to give it any less than all of who you are is a sin.
I want to wake up every morning in love.
In love with every moment, every experience I am given.
And to share it with you would make it complete.
To see the world in wonder through your eyes....
To watch you embrace the world and all you can be
would surely make my life full and whole.  
You are my gift, you are my love
and you are all that is beautiful  to me.

March 3, 2012

Broken mirrors
Broken glass
Shattered memories
Of a long lost past
Fractured pieces
Of a former life
Bring untold pain
And bitter strife
Mangled spirit
Raging dreams
Fighting hard
To know what it means
Losing sight
Of where I am
Holding on...
If I can
Broken glass
Broken heart
Breaking me down
Tearing me apart
Missing you
Is killing me
Take me Now
I don't want to be
Left alone
Without you here
Is simply more
Than I can bare.
Broken memories
Broken dreams
Life without you
Is worse than it seems.

Pam Penta
June 8, 2015

Like a newly planted seed,
So begins our love
We struggle to find our way
In this new life we've begun
Learning how to allow
For the other to breathe and be
To include them in decisions
And not have the urge to flee
Being alone is what we've known
Many years for us
Letting another into your life
Is hard, but it has a plus
We know that these are growing pains
Our relationship will survive
We'll find our groove, settle in
And our love will begin to thrive
Never think I'm leaving my love
I have chosen you for life
Do not doubt my devotion and love
Thru pain, joy, happiness or strife
Just ride the wave thru this awkward time
As we find our place in this new life

Love you always❤️
July 11, 2016

Mirror cuts like a razors knife
Brings the blood that takes a life
Dulls the anguish
Relieves the pain...
Maybe I will be reborn again

Into a life
Of love and peace
One from which
I won't beg release
One with a home
And family that's whole
One that is safe...
Where I know I am loved


Until then
I'll lay here and bleed
Be careful your choices
And what you do weave
Your soul is fragile
And one day will leave
What will be left
The day you succeed?

Sept 28, 2016

There once was a time
I was broken in two
Lost and all alone
Not able to cope
Unable to find
The place that I called home
With a pill or a smoke
I would hide away
From the world and from life
Running away
From all that was good
Living in pain and strife
Lost my way
Ran from God
And all that was good and pure
Taking a hit
To make it ok
But always leaving me unsure
I chased the high
It was all that I knew
To take away the pain
Never amounting to much
Never wanting to be
Anything but vain
Then one day
A bottom I hit
So hard I thought I would die
Instead what I found
Was a willingness then
To maybe learn how to fly
Opened my heart
To the love of a God
And that of my family and friends
Suddenly,  I found the hope
Learned how to make amends
My life began to turn around
No longer in a bottle or pipe
Taking steps to learn to live
And not get caught up in the hype
Leaving a life of destruction and pain
Embracing my life once again
Learning to live One Day at a Time
Breaking away the chains
That bind my soul
To the darkness within
Opening my heart to love
Giving me willingness
To try to be
All I was meant to …in love.

April 5, 2016

Pull the curtains over me
Wrap me in darkness
Throw me in the bottom of the pit
And leave me there to die
No longer can I breathe the air
Or drink the water here
We have destroyed our Mother Earth
No more birds left to fly
Bees are gone from flower beds
Our food is tainted by man
Plastic fills the ground below
Nature can't comply
Take away my concrete home
The metal car I drive
Give me back the forests green
The crystal clear blue sky
Bomb the factories that eat our air
And make our plastic food
Go back to living from the earth
Self destruction we defy
Take our world back before it's gone
Before we destroy her soul
Unwrap the curtains of her death
And bring her life a new.

May 27, 2016

On the wings of angels fly
For your spirit never dies
You live and dance among the trees
In winters snow and summers breeze
You live in songs of robins nests
And babies laying on mothers breast
You live in autumns changing leaves
In all that God has made or sees
Your spirit lives within our hearts
Never will we truly part
Until the day we join with you
In evening rain and morning dew
For your spirit never dies
It grows wings, and learns to fly.

January 25, 2012

Burned up letters from long ago
Yellowed, stained and worn
Dust covered books with tattered pages
Records of vows that were sworn
Lovely dresses covered in lace
Now faded and weathered with time
Shoes that once matched
Now dusty and covered in grime
Photographs of family
Cracked on the floor
Memories forgotten,
Lost to a time before
Ghosts walk the halls, dragging their chains
Still anchored to this plastic life
Nothing of substance left to show
For this....or the afterlife
Be not chained to this world
By substance or fame
That isn't why you were born
Hold on to your soul
With all that you do
And let it not become worn
By the world around or demons within
They will keep you chained here for good
Open your heart and instead spend your love
Freely as you walk the earth
Then when you move on, you will not be
Chained to your possessions of this world.

April 26, 2016

Where are we?
On this tiny planet
In a million galaxies
With no end to it?

What are we?
Spirit or flesh
A corporate mongrel
Or a fledgling in a crèche

What is our purpose?
Why do we live?
To take all we can?
Or be of service and give?

What do we serve?
In this life given us?
The almighty dollar
Or something greater than us?

What will they remember
When your name is spoken of?
A bitter, broken heart
Or a soul full of love?

Is is important?
What does it mean?
This life we are given
May Not be what it seems


June 23,2016

I refuse to let go
Of the withering vines
That keep me a float
Their branches seem to be
All that is keeping me
From drowning
In a world where we have lost hope
Corporate monsters robbing us blind
Jokesters running our lives
Hoping we follow the rest of the flock
Quietly moving to our demise
We struggle to win
Lay down and die a little every day
Taking away our self respect
Our families and our ways
The world is broken
Our souls and spirits are
Eaten with a cancer we cannot see
Why can’t we leave each other alone
And let us live in peace?
Everyone has a right to fight
For the things that they believe
So why can’t we let it go
Instead of leaving the world to grieve
For the brothers and the sisters lost
Because of fighting those
We do not agree
Let us learn to live in peace
To you I beg this plea.

April 13, 2016

Little voices
Often said
Useless are
Better dead
Take it now
Feel no pain
See the past
Never again
Run free now
Into the night
Leave for good
No more fright
Little sorrow
Nothing left
Free my mind
That's what
They said
Listen softly
Quiet now
Know no more
Tell me how
Live in peace
Without regret
Days to come
Better yet
Past is past
Whisper free
What's left is now
A better me.

July 3, 2012

Death.
That's what I think of
When I think of you.

Not the physical kind of death.
The kind of death
That takes your soul

I feel bitterness
And hate
When I look in your eyes

A blackness of a spirit lost

I cannot save you
From yourself

No amount of love
Can heal you
Without your help

Nothing I can do.
So I sit and watch you die.

September 26,2016

Take wing my spirit
Take flight my soul
Leave behind your weakness
Stand and be bold
Risk all else
To gain what you seek
For love and regard
Are not for the meek
Step out and expose
Your courageous ways
Quiet your fears
Embrace every day
Amidst grit and brawn
Toward all that you want
Nothing comes easy
In matters of love
I risk it all to know you now
…….my heart, my soul this I vow.
March 10, 2016

The days are beginning to fade to night
Time is running thin
She scrambles trying to save her soul
To rid the sin within.
Tidy up the broken glass
And shards of broken dreams
Gathered together in a box
Now busting at the seams
Smiles no longer cross her face
To beauty she is blind
Barely making day to day
Already lost her mind
The world was cruel to her soul
Mind and body crushed and used
Turned off her humanity
No longer amused
Praying daily for the pain to end
For precious sleep to come
A single blade run across her vein
Will to her life succumb

May 1, 2016

Bleeding heart
Wants to die
Soul survived
Never cried
Love betrayed
Life in pain
Broken, torn
All in vain
Loved you most
Gave my heart
Wanted more
A new start
Once again
Heart withdrawn
Hurt and lost
Soon be gone
Wasted time
Wanting you
Broke my heart
Nothing new
Tired and bleeding
Left in pain
Wanting, yearning
Never again.

November 14, 2012