As I lay in my bed
My body so free
My mind not at ease
And my love in need
I long for that one that will bring me peace
I long for his presence like a pleasing sea
He hurts me so dearly
But I cannot plead
For he is me
And I am him
I sit in my sin
As I stare at him
The night is falling
The darkness is winning
Ill wait for my love until we both will be grinning.

If I were you and you were me
We'd understand how we'd see such things
If you were here and I was there
We'd see some things that we couldn't bear
If I looked like you and you looked like me
I dont see how we'd stand to be
If I didnt stare
You wouldnt dare
We'd have no care and be impaired
But dont you see I care for thee
I care for what you end to be
I care for what you choose to see
And I will be by you
Eternity.

He thinks of himself as eternity
He doesnt see what he means to me
A creauture so deep and full of keen
I wish I could have you tilll the end of eternity
A water so deep
Your soul asleep
I wonder if you know what you mean to me
A blood so thick
A bond cant be ripped
I hope that you see that our glass cant be tipped
Eternity in this world we seek I hope that you see what you need in me

I fall into darkness, it takes over me
Its feeling is pleasure so i dont want to flee
It darkens my soul, its touches so sweet
This is my time i know it must be
Worship the darkness, the he or the she

Already dead so I’m not scared of dying
Look in my soul the demons are flying
I dont let them out so they just start crying
Don't act a fake ill know that you lying

Already dead so I’m not scared of dying
Look in my heart the devil is hiding
Three headed dog you know what I’m riding
Don't pray to god he’s not good with timing

Already dead so I’m not scared of dying
Fist in your heart i dont want you whining
Look at the darkness you’ll find a great finding
Don't be afraid the evil is rising.

Through my eyes, I see yours
I see you living life inside your closed doors
I feel your breath as it flows
I get the urge to then woo you
I feel your blood as it pumps through you
Its blue like my favorite hue
Running in my head over and over
Taking me over, like a disease
Just trying to please
Making it hard to stay sober
Never wanting us to be over
You make my heart beat like nothing I've seen
Without you my heart will leak
Us together I know that we'll glow
I have to go after you or Ill never know.

When its late i can’t escape,
It won’t escape, i just debate on the feelings that you’re leaving
And the time it swirls like the ice cream cone we shared
Are your thoughts impaired, cant seem to pair
I look into your eyes, only to stare
Into the reality
Of my sanity
You test my anatomy, gives it battery, flattery, bloom from a catterpie and Fly away
This is my day, I’m always stray
Alone, un-needed, not one to be pleading
Don't feel like proceeding but im needing
Needing some more
Some more of this taste, this crave, this disgust and this hate
You cant relate,
My thoughts inflate into a plastic bubble,
Undiscovered
I’m falling under this fire
Falling into true desire
I need a wire
I need a fix
I need one quick or i wont exist
Cant do this longer need to end it before i grow dependent and would Resent
Your sight
Want to take flight
Into the night
My one disguise
My true design.

Her actions were bad but her thoughts were even badder.  She didn’t accept herself but grew to understand. She was shy, experienced and respectful. She didn’t understand your evils, she didn’t accept your bad decisions. She was a Judger and in this world Judgers were very  high ranked. It was hard to know what she was thinking but it even more difficult to ignore her shaky hands. Her understanding stare. Her unknowing moves and her confusing voice. We all thought she was crazy. I mean thats what they've taught us to see…right? I didn’t get it though. I did not understand how she was seen as bad and others were seen as good. The others didn’t know, they hadn't experienced truth so they couldn't understand it. Thats the problem here, people act as if they know everything but they haven't been through anything in order to understand it. Truth is complicated. Everyone acts as if they know the truth but yet they are nowhere near to truth. The truth is kind, understanding and harsh, most go crazy just looking into the eyes of truth. Truth is my king, my soul and my life. How do I know if my truth is the right version of truth? I don’t. But I do know that I know this world better than those that claim they are all knowing. How can you be all knowing? There is no such thing. If you were all knowing then time would end and your life would be answered. but its not and your confused still and thats what is the miracle of this life.
The people of my lands believe in love and hatred. They believe that both combined make up the truth and if both hatred and love work together then peace will come to us. I pray and long for a time when I am in peace. When my family, my friends and my followers are in peace. I hope for my enemies and my strangers to be in peace. I pray for peace in those who hurt and in those who have been hurt. I hope for peace to be shed out in every living creature whether worth it or not. Because in the end what being gets to decide who is worth it? No one. No one should have the power to decide when to end another's life.

Love doesn’t flee

you never leave

instead you shower them with glee

a love not filled with enmity

love deeper than the sea

not full of life's unkindly greed

only those with warmth can see

the world thats held within the sea

the depths unreachable to thee

as only those with light can reach

the depths of sea beneath I need.