Chameleon

Chameleon Mar 2016

Flood

I can't even imagine
you thinking about me.

I used to imagine you
dreaming about me.

Chameleon Mar 2016

Favorite

The roar of motorcycles,
a warm breeze.
The hot sun glowing through the trees.
Blue skies, and classic rock.
People are finally smiling again.
Kids outside playing basketball.
And there is this force that tugs at your
heart, making you day dream
about laying out on a beach or being deep in the woods on a trail.
Birds chirping and beautiful sunsets.
The smells of an approaching summer.
It's finally spring time.

Chameleon Mar 2016

It's almost spring again

Maybe it's because I have another
milestone birthday coming up..
But I've been thinking a lot about my life.
Some things are already good,
some things are going good.
And some things just aren't.

I still feel single when I'm around other couples.
Because even though I have a boyfriend,
I am walking by myself at the mall.
Eating alone at restaurants.
Trying to build a life,.. On my own.

And I don't want life to be this way.
I'm only getting older.
And I'd really love to get married someday.
Or have kids.
Buy a house, or better yet, live with someone I love, that loves me.
I have given him two years.
But does he really deserve two more?

I don't know. It just makes me sad.

I wish he could give me everything I want.

Chameleon Mar 2016

Window

Dan Auerbach makes me want
to stand outside your house,
with a boom box.
80's movie style.
Just to see if it hits you
like it does me.
The first few strings played on that guitar,
feel like falling in love with you.

It's actually tragically beautiful.
I am a girl who will forever be stuck,
head over heels.

And you?
Who knows. Probably forgot about me a long time ago.
But I always wonder.
Maybe in ten years we'll meet again.
Single.
And my life will stop feeling like looking through a window at someone I don't know.

Chameleon Mar 2016

Head space

Sometimes I have to
      Wake
up
    to
jump back inside my
      head.

Chameleon Feb 2016

My twenties

If you have a pet,
you know that the bond
created between the two of you,
is a connection you never make with a person.
Total and complete trust.
When I clip her toe nails,
check her ears,
and give her a bath,
she knows I am taking care of her.
She leans against me and let's me do what I have to.
When I get home from work
she cheers as she emerges from her cage,
running and wiggling
straight for her bowl; ready for dinner.
She knows I will always come back.
When I'm sad, and crying.
Or so sick I can't leave the bathroom,
she comes around and lays her head in my lap,
and licks my hands and face.
I know she came into my life when I needed it most,
one of the most memorable times of my life.

#pitbulls

Chameleon Feb 2016

If you're there

No one knows how much I miss you.

How I have just loomed about from place to place,
since you've been gone.

Sometimes I imagine you are with me.
In the car when a good song comes on.
In bed, as I fall asleep.
Smoking a joint on the couch.

I always say I got sick of my exes and that's why it never worked out.
But I know I never would've gotten sick of you.

I carry those memories,
that are so far away, like a dream.
And you have just become a ghost.
Well, more like an angel that once visited me.

I miss you, you know.