I'm not over anyone I've ever begun to love.
People always say they loved someone,
but I always stay present tense.
I always love.
If once, then always.

When life feels suspended by a delicate thread
Change is inevitable
I sometimes feel stifled
Tightly constricted
Like a chrysalis
Struggling against transformation
I oppose the transition
And need more time to adapt
Today
A butterfly tapped against my window
Like change asking to come in
If I can comply with Grace
Maybe I too can transcend
And withstand the butterfly effect

I'm in a tunnel of delusion I'm not breathing
In a world of exhalation.
I'm covered in a tomb of words that I'm
suffocating in, dry drowning of false reflections
that my hands are corrupted upon.

When your with me I'm swimming in the euphoria
of moments, but when I'm careless I don't heed
the warning of your eyes. I  paddle into the moments
of forever not realizing I'm past that point of life.
I drown in the failings of life and float saddened & motionless.