Rain lashes on my window
Like knives on my back
Knives thrown by a person
Who never loved me back

A person who's heart
As hard as stone
As rough as some bark

One can only guess why you were trusted
When all you ever did was
throw knives in people's backs

I stand here in the shadows
Looking on
As you for her all your body
All your love
Everything

I stand here in the desert
Looking on
Thirsty for your love
Your attention
Whilst she has it all

I stand in the fire
Looking on
But seeing nothing
But fire
Desperation
And loneliness

you drew you hand down my cheek
every touch, every stroke, sent shivers through my body
you pressed your gentle fingers to my lips whilst your other hand explored my neck then came to rest on my jaw line, you knew that drove shivers down my spine then enveloped my whole body,

you brought your hand to my chin and pushed it upwards,
my eyes facing your own
my thoughts lost in your eyes.

"i love you" you choked after a few seconds of silence;

you ****** your lips into mine,
pulling my body closer to you so i was enveloped  in your arms,
in your body.

you came up for air only to then nuzzle your lips behind my ear - my 'soft spot' which would sent shivers which take over my whole body.

your lips explored my neck,
leaving a trail of kisses on its path whilst i clutched at your body,
wishing only to get closer to you.

you brought your head back up to mine, your lips, facing my lips,
your eyes, facing my eyes,
and keeping me clutched to your body, glided over to my bed, laying us both down on it,

and then i woke up.

i found you in a dark corner,
you looked so lost so scared
so unhappy,
so alone.
i took you in and looked after you,
and as the years went by,
we still lived together.
but as friends.
nothing more.
youre oblivious soul made sure of that.

i dont think you ever knew how i felt,
that i loved the way you smiled,
that i loved the way you laughed,
that i loved the way you were grumpy in the mornings, whatever day or circumstance it was,
how every morning when i would wake up,
i would peek into your room
to see if you were awake,
and if you werent,
id go up to you and gently kiss your forehead,
only for you to wake up an hour later,
never mentioning those thousands of words holding love, masked by shyness, that i gave you,

i fell in love with all of you.

but as days came and went,
we grew further apart.
but i still loved you.
all of you.
but you wanted something more,
something better.
and you know what they say,
if you love something, let it go

so i did.
and you went.
and i lost you.
and even though that was 5 years ago,

i still think about you every day

Deep in the ground
Where nobody dares to dwell
Lies a thousand broken souls
Perhaps a million broken souls
All trying to find there way back up
But at the same time
Are happy with where they are
What they have become

Lost

"There are two kinds of people in this world: hopeless romantics and realists. A realist just sees that face and packs it in with every other pretty girl they've seen before. Hopeless romantics becomes convinced that God put them on earth to be with that person but there is no God and life is only as meaningful as you fool yourself into thinking it is. "
- Unknown