what would the internet do if no one was on it

i am not hateful if u know me u know that i just lost sight of everything that matters

all i know is that someday there will be a better place for everybody

everyone responds with silence

good night

if i disappear know that im okay

ditches of witchfangs
wrap garbage in gold
sad when they dont live here
not anymore

alternate universe
hope is alive
everything I want comes first

the internet is going to **** me eventually

none of this is funny at all to me

how it has been or how it could be

just because you are incapable of understanding what this is, doesnt mean it doesnt exist

**** feeling anything i want to be a rock

i would give anything to take out your brain and replace it with mine
u deserve everything that was never given to you
u deserve to live and understand life
u didnt deserve what they all did to you
truly caring people never do
u dont deserve to feel afraid
it scares me more than you could imagine
to see nothing on your face
i love you and i need you so please don’t run away
they wont let me do anything
and ur confusion wont relate

it isnt about writing its about honesty

i did a lot of ****** up **** and said it but i am not holding on to it anymore i cant take back what happened or where i was at when i said it
and i have to try and move forward

live in a lie too long and a ghost is born
that lives under and hovers over your every waking word

**** all these pretentious “poet" pieces of **** u don't understand ****
trying to pretend like u do now or ever did

im going to tell my story in the way that im going to tell it

some people are meant to be with another person some people are okay alone
not that its anything i need to live its just something that makes me whole

dont ever loose your innocence it is the best part of you and everyone and everything in this world will try to destroy it

tired of fragmented presences exist or go the **** away

wake up holding everything that burns u alive

life is confusing
life is on fire

whatever it is i deserve more than this ****

i dont live in reality

u want this to be what it is or u want it to be what u want it to be

every day every second it is going thru my mind

this isnt about a part of anything this is about all or this is about nothing

nothing else matters to me

god i thought i knew everything
and then i did
and then it was too much
and then i was not enough

now we have to talk like this instead of face to face like it should have been and i will do anything i have to to fix this

some people miss the whole point of everything

get into such small specifics that the point is missed completely

this girl is beautiful and kind and smarter than i will ever be

are two humans able to be together forever
are two humans meant to be together forever
can two humans feel what they feel now
20 years from now
when you see them
and they seem complete
ask them the last time they ******
or have they done anything recently
that they didn’t repeat
and when was the last time
they were able to breathe freely

alive is not well or equal in anyway

im so sick of feeling like this i just want to be happy