Omar Abo Shama

Omar Abo Shama Apr 2013

A great love ..

A wonderful marriage ..

Everything was perfect ..
I hold you in my arms ..
You rest there peacefully ..
Silently kissing my neck ..
Whispering you love me ..

My heart was your garden ..

And my body was your world ..

My eyes were your home ..

And my words were your poem ..

My hug is where you stay ..

And my pulse is what you always breath..

But today I'm not there ..

And I miss you so much dear ..

I will come ..

Dead people are alive ..

And I will call your name ..

From heaven , you will hear ..

That i am still alive ..
My heart still beats for you ..
I said we would last forever strong ..
Yet i am there in your heart everlong ..

I remember the running tear ..
The fear of losing me ..
The fear of being alone ..

I remember ..
I saw you ..
I could feel you ..

When I left this world ..

It was when you heard my last say ..

It was when you lost your way ..

It was when my hands were frozen ..

And my heart was giving you the last pulse of love ..

Now I just wish to come one moment ..

To know how you live today without me ..

And who could save you ..

To see you living and smile for just awhile ..

With my unseen soul ..

With my unseen eyes ..

With my unseen heart ..

But I know that you'll see me ..

You'll see me someday ..

I'd be there to comfort you ..

And hold you in my arms ..

I will be young again ..

And breathe for my loves sake ..

Oh i hope my wishes were true ..
God says its not ..
But he has sent me to earth ..
For a view ..
For a glance ..
Just one chance ..

From heaven I'm coming ..

To the place where I lived ..

The world seems the same ..

I remember this world ..

The winds took me to my home ..

And I'm full of feelings ..

The home is still the same ..

And tears began to fill my eyes ..

This home was my world ..

But where's my name ..

Where are my pictures ..

There's a new picture there ..

I get closer to it to know what's this ??

My wife in her white dress ..

And another man is holding my princess ..

Her eyes were so happy ..

And her smile meant a lot ..

And i couldn't believe ..

Was it my eyes or the reality

I was replaced ..
Was my love less than my life ..
Was my worth only till the time i survived ..
Was i a saving angel for you ..
Or just an angel you once knew ..

Tears of hate fill my eyes ..

Blood poison pain fill my heart ..

A loud scream went unheard ..

Then i stared at your smile ..

With my crying eyes ..

All i ever wanted is seeing you okay ..

I don't know why this feeling of jealousy is taking over me ..

I have died, i still cant believe that my heart doesn't beat ..

How could i hold you inside my heart that is pale cold ..

How could you survive with my love strong but frozen ..

As i move inside to my room ..
The colour has changed ..
From the brightest red it has become blue ..
Are you feeling the same way too?

Here's my cupboard, does he wear my coat?
Oh, there is nothing but new clothes ..
And yours too. Do you remember this black dress i gifted you?
Do you still miss me? Do i come in your mind and stay?
Or maybe just pass away?

I wish i never came here ..
I wish i never saw my home ..
because its no more mine ..
its yours and his ..

Goodbye my lover , Goodbye today ..

As i returned to where i stay ..

Faraway ...

As you rested peacefully in his arms ..

I'll ..

Rest In Peace ..

Omar Abo Shama Apr 2013

Is There Something Else !?

All of me was yours and now you are free ..

Like something must happen or day must come ..

Don’t talk about me and don't say ''HE'' ..

Walk in your way and if u need me ,, Welcome ..

Your memories in my heart and always they’ll be ..

Your face is still in my eyes and always i’ll see ..

A lot of chances I gave to you ..

Things I did , Things I've never used to do ..

That '' Without you I'll die ''

Then that '' Goodbye "

The truth has become a lie ..

I'm here..

Next to fear ..

Watching you disappear ..

Say all of your words ..

Put in my heart all your swords ..

Hurt and ignore ..

Break and block any an open door ..

Throw and take ..

Hold and break ..

Sleep and wake ..

It doesn’t matter if you were real or fake ..

Go ..

I forgave you ..

Now Is There Something Else !!?

Just Nothing ..

Go away ..

Maybe everything will be okay ..

Omar Abo Shama Apr 2013

Your Soul ..

How long has it been since last time we have talked ..

How long has it been since last time together we have walked ..

If i don’t know your name ..

I won’t realize what you said ..

I still remember your words ..

They were swords ..

I just came to see ..

What you would do ..

If i gave you a chance ..

To make things right ..

But they were right ..

You don’t need chances ..

You need nothing ..

For you there's a name i found ..

Blind blind from the sky to the ground ..

I just came to see ..

What we are going to be ..

And what will happen if i let you talk to me ..

I just came ....

To see if you still feel the same ..

Shame ..

On you ..

You don't know what you lost ..

Let me tell you something right ..

Let me put in your black , something white ..

To lighten your night ..

About what you said or even what you did ..

Unforgotten words will stay forever in your head ..

I’m gone ..

I’m gone ..

I’m gone ..

On my knees , alive but dead ..

Look at the invisible , blood i have bled ..

The shattered love , The shattered smile ..

The shattered touch even for awhile ..

The way you used to talk , the way you used to dream ..

I listen loudly to a silent scream ..

Then your beautiful eyes ..

Don't close them ..

I know what lies behind them ..

Say goodbye ..

Say and just don’t try ..

Say and don’t lie ..

Say and let me die ..

Fears and tears for years ..

And nothing is here ........

Suddenly something called my name ..

Your soul again ..

The real meaning of pain ..

It came closer and closer ..

It whispered and i closed my ear ..

It came closer and it said please hear ..

I took my broken steps back ..

It came closer .. Im sorry !

it came closer .. Im sorry !

It held me tight ..

It said forgive me about what i said ..

Forgive me like more times you did ..

I know that you don’t mean what you did..

You love me , i know you do ..

We are still one and we’ll never be two ..

I’m with you even if she's not ..

To get all what we day got ..

To find all what we day lost ..

Then i closed my eyes ..

It’s near , i feel it ..

i slept on her hands ..

And I woke up .. ‘’you still here ?‘’

Yes , forever dear ..

Omar Abo Shama Apr 2013

A Minute ..

At one of my cold nights , I was holding my phone..

Resting on our bed alone and cold ..

Hearing a song about missin my lost part ..

YOU BABY ..

Writing a poem about how long has it been since the last time we have talked ..

SUDDENLY ..

I was shocked , You Are Calling !!

It's your number , it's your name ..

Oh my god what can i do ?

Just I answered . ''hey

She said '' Hey baby

I couldn't say anything .

I said ''how are you

She said "I'm daying without you , i need you darling really ( and with a weak voice )’’ I'm cold without you , i really miss you ..
i know about what i did and how much i hurt you .. but i swear i love you . please forgive me and come back to me .. I'm nothing without you

I said '' But .. I ....

She said '' don't say anything please .. just think and always remember how much i love you and try to forgive and back i need you now more than anytime before , i love you ..

And she ended the call ..

A tear left it’s sea in my eyes .

A Broken Heart is beating again .

A confused brain .

Don’t know what to do .

I can’t leave you .

How much i was waiting for a call like this ..

Cold nights and bad days ..

I couldn’t forget you by all the ways ..

How much i missed your voice ..

How much i missed your touch ..

How much and how much and how much ..

How much i miss seeing myself is fine and how much i miss drinking our love's wine ..

SUDDENLY .. In a Minute !

I found myself still in my cold night , holding my phone..

Resting on our bed alone and cold ..

Hearing a song about missin my lost part ..

YOU BABY ..

Lost in my poem’s lines about how long has it been since the last time we have talked ..

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What happened ! i don’t understand anything !!

I opened my phone's log , where’s your number ! there’s nothing ..

I slept !

I slept when I was holding my phone..

Resting on our bed alone and cold ..

Hearing a song about missing my lost part ..

YOU BABY ..

Writin a poem about how long has it been since the last time we have talked ..

I dreamed .

I dreamed when She was Callin ..

It’s her number , it’s her name ..

Then i found

Rivers of tears ..

More of fears ..

It was one of my cold nights

It was the coldest ..

Silent and cold ..

As i returned to my empty bed to hold my phone..

Resting on our bed alone and cold ..

Hearing a song about missing my lost part ..

YOU BABY ..

Writing a poem about how long has it been since the last time we have talked ..

Will She Call !?!?!?

But it was her voice and her way .. It was her words and her say ..

Was it a message ?

So what was it !

It was strange ..

It was a dream ..

It was a minute ..

maybe minute can change more , maybe minute can open the closed door ..

Why all what i wanted to see and feel just in a dream ..

and why all what i dreamed was like a water and now it's a steam ..

Why I'm in my place , all of my dreams just i can see it in the sky

Why I'm still here , can’t fly ..

Why and why and why ..

Maybe it was just a dream ..

But it made me have something i missed ..

It’s your soul ..

Here , there and everywhere ..

Omar Abo Shama Mar 2013

Why

A lot of things i have to accept without saying why

And why I'm the one who have to try ?

What it was ? and what it will be ?

Who was blind and who could see ?

Too many whens and too many whys !

Were they lies ??

Why I'm in a cave ?

And who can save ?

You always break , and I'm have to fix

Stop talking , stop these tricks ..

Always patient and always suffer without say ..

Why the thorns always full my way ..

And i’ll say again ‘’why’’ !!

More things are wrong ..

Trying everyday to be strong ..

But no way to walk ..

And no heart to talk ..

But what can I do , just i can stare ..

And i can’t do anything even if it’s not fair ..

You throw me behind ..

You killed a lot of things inside ..

Don’t search , believe me , Nothing you will find ..

And how can you find when your heart is blind ..

How can you live , please tell me ..

Did you forget our years in days ..

Did you try to love me by all ways ..

Did you feel the love in your heart ..

Or you just felt the wanted part ..

How can you live , please tell me ..

Look in my eyes and say ..

Why suddenly you left the way ..

Why couldn't you stay ..

I can’t believe that you were the one who I had protected ..

I can’t believe that you were the one who i had respected ..

Nothing to do ..

Everyone in his way . let’s go ..

Don’t fix me i'm not broken ..

Fix yourself and wake up ..

Nothing left to take ..

The fear killed you before the war ..

Go and close behind you the door ..

You did more ..

Believe me . someday you will regret ..

And even if you didn’t ..

I’ll say why ......

Why did you do this to me .

Omar Abo Shama Mar 2013

Who Teached The Teacher ?!

Think ..

The thinker takes it all

Omar Abo Shama Mar 2013

Life Is Good ..

Life is too short ..

Take the good with the bad and accept ..

Try to be different and break the rules ..

All of us are living , so choose the way you want to live with ..

Laugh when you are sad ..

Smile when you are crying ..

Stare at the sun ..

Sit or walk or run ..

Be far or be near ..

Feel the protection or feel the fear ..

Love people or hate ..

Do what you want .. it’s your fate ..

Love what you got but always remember what you had ..

Forget what you can and forgive who you want ..

Learn from your mistakes , but never regret ..

Be the person that you love , not the one they love ..

Don’t care about any talk ..

Don’t stop !! do anything . Run or at least walk ..

Cry , but dry your tears fast ..

Move on and try to make it the last ..

Live your day and walk on your past ..

Nothing to lose !

Everything you are losing , it wasn’t yours ..

Even yourself isn't yours ..

Think of how different it would be if you never met the one person who changed everything ..

At all we are living ..

Create the fact ‘' Nothing Will Change No matter What You Do ’’ .. so move on

In every sun shine try to start a new life ..

And let the moon take all your pains when it goes ..

And what will happen !

Leave your broken world behind ..

Always try to say ‘’ Never Mind ‘’ !

Doesn't matter if you can see or you are blind ..

Life is like a book ..

More pages , just turn over the page ..

Dream to see Tomorrow fine ..

And dream to read the good line ..

You can control ..

Even if you couldn’t !

Whatever ..

If you are smiling or sad ..

If you are a good one or a bad ..

If you are a normal one or a mad ..

If you had completely lost it .. or everything you had ..

IT GOES ON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!