Olga Valerevna

Olga Valerevna Jan 2013

I cannot go, she's always there
To take my place without a care
She's putting locks on what I've said
For once she crept inside my head
See I've become her source of prey
And I can't seem to get away
Her pace is quick and on she crawls
Around my feet, I trip and fall
But though I stumble all this time
I'll fight for what is truly mine
She may proclaim that she has won
But I will wait 'til time is gone
For then a seed will surely die
The one who's love has been a lie

Olga Valerevna Jan 2013

sunrise, sunset

i needn't tell you where i've been for you have known it too
the very trails i've walked upon are those inside of you
revealing more each passing step, i ask and you respond
and i no longer feel myself a wandering vagabond
i'm spilling out, you're soaking in these fragments of my soul
and one day soon within your self, i'll finally unfold
a blanket sea of what we are will cover what you've done
and make the bodies we've unearthed a perfect setting sun

Title taken from a song by Bright Eyes - Sunrise, Sunset

Olga Valerevna Jan 2013

The Locksmith's Door

You are not mine
     and never were you meant to be
I have taken
     what does not belong to me
In doing so
     we were robbed at will's decree
Of forever
     replaced it with carnality
Although  it felt
     like everything fit perfectly
I watched my heart
     fight the lie relentlessly
For I have been
     long before our lives did meet
Tied to one
     who set his soul upon his knee
And I must go
     I'm asking you to let me leave
To claim again
     the key to our eternity

Olga Valerevna Jan 2013

they made of her a shiny calf

stripped down to a nakedness she's not the hands to cover
plundered by a lover
a rogue who's undercover
tarnished and possessed
in slavery undressed
taken to the gallows with a noose around her neck
the hanging will be public
her snap to death cathartic
and she'll be made a mockery in front of people manic
their illness like a flood
a passion for the blood
they stand and sink their feet into coagulated mud
she was just their silver
some money they could pilfer
pay their dues in stolen goods that they could not deliver
tactfully selected
made to feel accepted
then callously rejected
in treason's name erected

I bet she'd not expected such a glorified demise.

Olga Valerevna Jan 2013

Her Eyes in Rainfall

A weeping willow grows inside to take the place of me
For I cannot identify with any other tree
With branches frayed and leaves to clothe my sappy human bark
I cling to roots that planted me before I made them dark
And so I wait, my patience worn, til seasons pass us by
And bring you back to water me with saltiness divine
Open up your cloudy sky and let yourself come down
You need to know that all this time you've nursed my shallow ground
I'm ready now, much more than I have ever been before
And your delay solidifies the rings within my core

title inspired by a song by Future of Forestry - Horizon Rainfall

Olga Valerevna Jan 2013

This body (10W)

is a trap
that i don't want to die in

a bag of bones that i have
to lie in

Olga Valerevna Jan 2013

Flight of the Faithless

Surround me with your mimicry and float me to the sky
And like a mirror I'll reflect the world within my eye
As colors fill the black and white, extremities are gone
Replaced by all the shades I've seen while traveling along
The thoughts I breathe provide the air upon which I have sailed
The very ones I verbalized, the ones that I exhaled
My head is light and in a daze I contemplate the past
The moments that have led to this and whether I would last
Outnumbered by the reasons why and things I can't explain
My tongue begins to atrophy, my body's sick with pain
In choking I release a cough that empties out my chest
And slowly I am hollowed out by what I had repressed