Here I am
With weakness
Rotting the body
Tears streaming
Aching heart
Memories
Of all my mistakes
All the regrets
Piling on
The things I cannot have
Here I am
With nothing
But the failures
Surrounding what's left of me.

When we were apart
We nearly killed ourselves

When we were together
We barely breathed life into each other

Now it's fair to say
We can not be here nor there

For us
We don't belong anywhere.

He's seen me cry,He's seen me cut
He's seen me at my worst and stuck around to see me at my best
because he's my love,my best friend,and the only reason I'm alive...

You are perfect in every fiber of your being

You quoted Forest Gump,

Sang the pokemon theme song with me,

You are my best friend now

I do not want to lose you

But I'm not allowed to have best friends

You see

I get lost in their smiles

Hypnotized by their eyes

And the way they call me cute things

Like pumpkin pie

We make wishes at 11:11 together

And we wish each other sweet dreams

But can't you see I have to wish only

That I don't fall for you

Because you won't fall for me

I have to dream that anything is possible

Because you make me smile more

Than I knew I was capable of.

Oh my dear
You are infinitely better than me
That is why I cherish you

You're caring and sweet
And gentle

But of course you can be rough
When you want to be

You make bits of me melt that I did not know
Could even melt to begin with

You are sun
I am shadow

I am okay with this
I have been blessed to have you

To feel you
To know your touch

Your soul
Is infinitely more beautiful
Than any words can describe

My flaws
Led to such wonder.

I want honesty
Brutal
And never ending

No more
No it's nothing's
No more
Forget it's
No more
Hiding
No more
Secrets.

Without you,
I've grown weak,
They don't see,
They don't understand,
how unbearable life is without you,
without the one I love,
The one that kept me safe,
And kissed me in the rain,
the one who hugged me to make me scream,
you kept the pin away,
without you the pin,
and the cat like scratches,
they turned into a blade,
and deeper cuts,
blood ridden ones,
They didn't stop me,
They watched,
Watch as I wanted my life to end,
I prayed for it,
Death,
But it never came,
then out of my weakness came hope,
I hopped I could see you again,
and slowly the urges fade,
But still evil lurks,
it roams my mind,
But still I believe it's slowly dying,
I believe happiness,
May be coming back to me,
Maybe,
Just maybe,
I hope.

Love took my life,
It made me this weak nothing,
Trust left a broken heart,
I have become the darkness,
Light has been killed,
His dark aura ****** everything out of me,
Apologies did no good,
Memories launched into never ending action,
Something whole is now incomplete,
Something human became monsterous

Tease me
Because that's
How I've
Imagined
Making love
Would be,
A long
Frustratingly
Pleasurable
Tease
Leading
To
Something
Just a little
More Amazing.

I'm feeling like
I don't really
Have anything to
H O LD
Onto anymore
And I'm not
Very good at
H O L D I N G
On by myself.

Lay with me dear
Hold me
Not for mere comfort
But to show you love me
Let me sleep in your arms
Let me remember us
The pure sweetness of our shared laughter
I just want you
Let me be close
And try to ignore my tossing and turning
Smile
For it brightens my soul
And with you near
I feel good
I love you
And I hope you never again doubt it
I love you dear
I love you
For you have always held the key to my heart.

Fear riding me,
Nerves on edge,
Excitement waiting in hopes of this,
Patience is ending,
Hope is beginning,
I need the words to be true,
I need my love to only be you,
I want you to love me too.
Is this all a game?
Was it all a lie?
I guess I just have to try,
I have to hold onto love,
Hold onto hope.
And promise not to let go.

I hate
Our time
Away
And I
Can't wait
For the day
When you
And I
Can come home
And find the other.

I don't know if I can go home


I don't know if I can sleep beside you and pretend you haven't broken my heart.

I need you here,
I need you now,
Just your smile,
Just your voice,
I can only hope you'll kiss me,
Only hope you'll hug me,
Only hope you'll touch me,
Only hope you'll love me,Just like you use to,
Just like we use to love each other...

I just thought
When i asked you
What you wanted
You'd chose US
Rather than me and you
I thought when i said
Its too hard to let go
You'd say
So dont
I thought everything
Was okay after that phone call
At 2 in the morning
But i guess i was in denial too.

Never go
                    Don't leave
                                                 Stay with me

**And love me forever

Maybe true love
Is when two
People can break
Each others hearts
And still want
To just be with the other.

Hope,
It makes people wish for the best,
But through my life hope has always failed me,
I Hoped the sick would heal,
But instead they died,
I Hoped friends would stay,
But instead they left,
I Hoped love survived,
But instead it completely died,
Hope leads me to pain,
It has since the day I was born,
Hope it'll get better,
Hope I can change,
But in the end,
Hope fails me,
But never have I failed hope,
I keep believing,
I keep hoping,
Because one day,
Something has to change,
Something good has to happen.

Doesn't it?

Let me
Slither away
In shame
For I do not
Deserve such
Greatness
For though
I never knew
I destroyed
Both me and you.

How else
Am I to express
My fear
Anxiety
Terror
For
Here I lay
Falling in love
With you again
Here I lay
Imagining
Our marriage
Our child
Our future
How can I express
My fear
That we won't
Survive
That you'll leave me
That you don't want me
How can I explain
How scared I am
To think of my life without
You.

I'm falling apart
Your halfway across town
And I'm breaking
Something feels off
And I feel weak
I miss you
And it's worse
Than it has been before
I don't know what I'm doing anymore
But I know I need you
To make me smile
Laugh
Hold me
So I can feel loved
I wish you were here
To kiss me
Tell me you love me
I miss you
And I'm a mess
Will you come
And hold me
If only in my dreams
If only for a moment
It's all I need.

My internal wounds
Cut so deep
That the blood chokes me

The feeling of a wave crashing onto me
And yet no wave in sight

The weight of love and heartbreak
Held in my little hands
As though I was ever strong enough
To even lift them

The crushing of hopes and dreams
Which tortures the soul
And leaves my mind scrambling

I am searching now
For my cure all
And cursing myself
That the cure is a man's love

For it is harder to find
Than a piece of hay dust
In a stack of needles.

I was never greedy
I never asked for toys as a child
Never asked for expensive things
I was always happy with what was given
But when I met you
I found myself needing
Needing to be with you
Spend every moment I could beside you
And so when I lost you
I fell into darkness
The only thing I ever needed was no longer
Capable of being near
And now after this year as yours
I see that every moment is perfectly magical
And I have to appreciate every moment
And looking back
I'm glad I had those days with you
And I'm glad I've spent this year as yours
I am the day
And you are the sunrise
And there would be no me without you.

Sometimes it's easier to lie and pretend you don't wanna cry if they see it in your eyes,and ask why just let out a sigh and deny what they ask,just put on your mask and pretend it's okay,eventually they'll go away.Though the pain has a tendency to stay and perhaps your mind will betray itself and let out a tear,don't let them see you in fear,hurry before your make-up smears,before the darkness never disappears,and before your end nears.

Somethings wrong with me
I lie in bed
with building angst
I close my eyes
and the imaged emerge
Their hands on my body
A man who loves to roam
He takes my body
And collides it with his
I desire it
I find myself aroused
But I've been there
done that and I know
If I remake this
Into reality
I will live
To regret it
And hate myself for it
Still I can't escape
The desires urges and images
They are what control me
and they never plan
On letting me go.

You repeat
Yourself
"Your the only one I've given a second chance to"
I know
I know all my sins
All my mistakes
Because for months
I crawled into my bed
Crying
Trying to forget
But know here and now
I've given you another chance as well
And this is far more than your
Second
Please babe
You've hurt me before
If it happens again
I simply cannot turn back to you
No more hypocrisy
Just love me
Just let me love you
**** the **** past
It ******* us both over
The past got us so ******* up
It's hard for us to appreciate what we have
And all we can have
Please try
Try to forget
Forget with me.