​
and this is
the part
where you
find out
who you
are

"maybe 10 years from now we'll meet
                                       again at a coffee shop down the road
                         and start over."

i was too in love with you

that i forgot to look what

was in front of me

I have died every day waiting for you

if i can turn back time
if only i can do that,

i wouldn't meet you.

you wouldn't get to know me.
then you would be safe and happy.

if only i could do that...

thinking about waking up everyday
and doing everything the same is
scarier than any nightmare in my dreams

​
i hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
i hate the way you drive my car,
i hate it when you stare.
i hate the your big dumb combat boots
and the way you read my mind.
i hate you so much it makes me sick,
it even makes me rhyme.
i hate it…i hate the way you’re always right,
i hate it when you lie.
i hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
i hate it when you’re not around,
and the fact that you didn’t call.
but mostly i hate the way i don’t hate you,
not even close,
not even a little bit,
not even at all.

i hate the way you talk to me,
and the way you cut your hair.
i hate the way you drive your car.
i hate it when you stare.
i hate your big dumb combat boots,
and the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick;
it even makes me rhyme.
I hate it, I hate it when you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.  
I hate it when you make me laugh,
even worse when you make me cry.
I hate it when you're not around,
and the fact that you didn't call.  
But mostly I hate it the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit,

not even at all.

But when will I get a chance to be happy?

i decided to
lay under the
stars again...

it was
beautiful..

i saw a
shooting star again
and i wasted
another wish
on
you.

another day
another year

don't grow up
it's a trap

another shooting star
dances across
the night sky
but this time
i wished
for happiness

because i know
i'll never have
your arms wrapped
around me no matter
how many wishes
          it takes

it is 11:59 p.m.
and i love you.

and in a minute,
when it is a new day
and bits of me have
been erased and i
can still see the vague
imprint of your face
on a pillow that has
taken you place,

i think i may love
you more than
i did a whole
minute before.

​
my other half went for a walk

"
wow i thought we had something
special but then you didn’t text me back
and just ignored me and that’s when
i finally realised that someone like
me doesn’t end up with someone
like you
                                                                   "

I felt like I was already dead

​
i hated poetry until someone
showed me how to appreciate it.
he told me to see poetry as a puzzle.
it’s up to the reader to decipher the code,
or the words, based on everything they
know about life and emotions.

​
you don’t even see me
you hardly respond
when i whisper
hello
could be my soul mate
two kindred spirits
maybe we’re not
i guess we’ll never
know
my own mother you carried me in you
now you see nothing but what i wear
people asks you how am i doing
you smile and nod
don’t let it end there
put me underneath God’s sky and
know me
don’t just see me with your eyes
take away
this mask of flesh and bone and
see me
for my soul
alone.

this Friday is Friday the 13th

is it normal if you start crying
and struggle to breathe without
any reason?

im so tired, i can't feel my soul

ink blotches the
new blank page
of the open book

a few more pages
left until the book
is full of words &
drawings and full
of life; me and you.

what we used to be.

hotline
bling

you could say
that my life’s a mess

but i’m still looking
pretty in this dress

i told her
from the start
I’m breaking
your heart

​
now its just too late to turn around
i try to forgive you but i struggle
cause i don’t know how
built it up so high and now I’m falling
its a long way down

​
Cold air clings to my throat as I grit my teeth against the wind. Snow silently tumbles from a sky as bitter and blackened as my very soul.

Do you remember the first thing i said to you?

come and follow my lead

i sit here
waiting
for a
miracle
to happen
but i know
it never will

i sit here
waiting
for you
to come
and take
me away
from this
nightmare

that doesn't seem to end

if you love two people at the same time,
choose the second one. because if you
really loved the first one, then you
wouldn't have fallen for the second.

i cut my wrist once
i loved the quick rush
i must have hit something
blood is just gushing

​
stop looking at him
when I’m here next
to you loving you

i don't want to die;
but
death
still
sounds
so
divine:

sleeping forever beneath
the surface of the sea;
the mermaids finally got to me.

the truth gets drowned out

we all need change

would you like to know how i'm doing?

it's been so long since the last time we talked.

sometimes silence is  **violent

you used to dream
of space but now
they say ‘wake up,
you need to make
money’

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