thank you
for reading
my poems

i am very
         very
happy
that you
guys did.

i can't express
how thankful
i am for you
guys, thank
you.

please stay

you said i
was a
beautiful
red rose

but you
pricked me
with your
sharp thorns

and left me
here, without
help, or friend

you left me
bleeding,

you left me
here to                                                                                                      *die

i can't stop drinking about you

"do you ever feel vulnerable, or confused?"

"don't you get it, mom?
i really don't give a **** if i die.
what, exactly, is there to live for?"

don't fall in love with the person who will ignite a fire within you and then ignore how badly it burns you

my doctor says I've got to sing a happy tune

i tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter.
i had to fall to lose it all but in the end it doesn't even matter.

NEEDING SOMEONE

ISN'T BEAUTIFUL OR
ROMANTICE, IT'S *******
PAINFUL

last night i couldn't sleep
because of you.

today i can't eat
because of you

"i suggest we get monumentally ****** up"

if the world wasn't blind
if the world wasn't deaf
if the world wasn't dying

maybe it would notice
it was destroying itself
maybe it would know
the only one to save
was itself

knees wobble,
hands shake.

words tumble,
smiles fake.

heart racing,
nervous pacing.

sentence stutters,
voice falters.

feeling dizzy,
cause you'd see me.

his simple hellos hold no deeper
meaning,

his universal smiles hold no hidden
feelings

make me smile

don't

make me sad

i just need to get closure
i don’t want to get any closer

i
need
you

to
come
back

to
me

i weave my feelings
into clouds of words,
which then form into
strings of memories
that we had experienced

i wear the sweater that
i had made out of my
feelings, words, and
memories of what we
used to be.

what did the rectangle tell the pretty circle?

i sit here
waiting
for a
miracle
to happen
but i know
it never will

i sit here
waiting
for you
to come
and take
me away
from this
nightmare

that doesn't seem to end

"look at me in the eye,

is there anyone at all?"

love me like you do

"my love's exploding like a burning sun"

society: be yourself

society: no, not  *like that

we're happy,
           *free,
           confused,
           *and lonely at the same time

occupation:**    


                         *family disappointment

"some other way,

                                                                                  ill figure it out"

i still taste you on my lips

*and i feel numb

damsel in distress

where's my knight in shining armour?

you remind me
.       define me
.       incline me

if you died
I'd.

i spy
your traffic heart
beat

in cursors
lullaby
a midaftertnoon

nap
how dare
one wonder

full of life
& enmity

of blood
in the mouth
we kiss

in the upper
western daylight
yearning

in very
kindly years
& mine

sometimes, lovely, sometimes
i wish you would just take me home.
bind me in a blanket you have made
of fresh cold winter snow.
cuddle up my worries
breathe them deep and let them go.
sometimes, lovely, sometimes
i wish you would just take me home.

black faded
polaroids

no reason to
talk

but they did
once,
i think

a holiday, a smile
a time spent
togther.

but now
needing
a brain
for survival

or a heart
even
cause memories
don't exist in
space anymore

they just float
away

"look how the stars shine for you"