Twinkling in the night,
Sparkling on your own finger,
In the pretty night.

**~Marian~

Colours big and bright,
It will soon be night.
A day is dying,
Leaving me crying!

The sunset turns grey,
The end of a day,
Your colours so bright,
Are turning so dark!

Now the moon and stars,
Are shining at night,
The colours so bright;
Have so soon faded.

The colours faded,
It is now twilight,
Your colours so bright;
Have so soon faded!

*~Marian~

My desk holds no pencils-
every mistake I make
will never erase.

I grip my flaws with a fist
because they will always be mine.

They will love you all your life,
And take you where there is no strife,
They will help you sew the magical seam;
And whisper "Let's be angels of their dream."

Let us pause beside the stream,
"We're angels of their dream,
Let us kiss them goodnight;
And let them see our world of right."

They will take you up to a mountain,
And you'll promise you'll come visit here again,
They will treat everybody kind;
And fly with you in the wind.

The will take you to a river,
Where time is more than a sliver,
Where time is not a broken piece of glass;
That will so quickly like sand through your fingers pass.

Where life is nothing but a dream,
A dream forever as you sit beside the stream,
A dream that you will live;
This is what to you they will give!

They will take you up into the trees,
And let you feel the blowing breeze,
Where life is eternity;
And dreams are a rolling sea.

*~Marian~

It’s Christmas time, Santa Claus is here,
I guess it’s just that time of year
That fills everyone with glee,
Everyone but me.


I immediately regretted climbing out of bed
When I feel the chill creeping up my neck.
I just want to go back to sleep,
Then some sanity I can keep.

I slowly make my way toward the fireplace.
But that’s when I see your face
Because you always kept me warm.
And sheltered from those winter storms.

Everyone is asking me to make a list,
If I could have anything that I wish,
What would it be?
I close my eyes and I see.

Hawaii or Europe could be nice,
At least they aren’t covered in this ice.
Or maybe a new sweater,
To hide myself from this weather.

Avery wants a Barbie and Kayden wants it all,
Ian wants legos, but I fear that they’re so small,
He will probably lose them, so I guess that’s a waste,
I just want to kiss away these unpleasant holidays.

I could say I want a new car covered in ribbons and bows
But if you want the truth, then here it goes.
I want to go back this time last year where everything was right.
Where I had the boy, I had the Dad, but a Mother? Well…not quite.

Maybe that could be my other wish,
A bonus on my gift list.
I would do anything you need me to,
Because Christmas isn’t the same without you.

You didn’t have to be my father,
Because I was another man’s daughter,
But you pulled me in, and gave me your name,
And when it came to your children, you treated me the same.

Maybe I didn’t know my dad,
But there was one special man that I had,
And as I look out over this blasted snow,
I realize that I can’t let you go.

Mom part 2 might seem alright,
But you should see how she is at night,
Because the love of her life was taken away,
A month ago from last Sunday.

Daddy’s little girl, isn’t little anymore,
And daddy isn’t here to kiss her little sores.
Her heart is breaking because you’re gone.
But life is supposed to go on.

They asked me what I wanted
And all I know is that this is true,
**That Christmas time, isn’t Christmas time,
If Christmas is missing you.

In my eyes you're a candle,
You're my source of light
You fill me with warmth
With you things feel right

In her eyes you're like jewelry
There to make her look good
Why you chose her over me
I've never understood

She does nothing but use you
For her own selfish gain
Watching her do this to you
Fills me with pain

She takes up all your time now
So you've left me in the dust
Watching her get her way
Just fills me with disgust

As time goes by
She's suffocating your flame
Your light is almost out now
And she is to blame

I keep hoping one day
That you'll find your old spark
But until you do
My world will be dark.