Tonight I experienced something new to me
tonight is the night that I almost died
tonight would have been my last night on this planet
the details I can't entail
for they are irrelevant
but let's just say I was in the wrong place
at the wrong time.
My last words to ever be said
would have been to my friend
saying, "I think you better hurry up."
Those would have been the last syllables to leave
these lips
of all the things that I have said or have wanted to say
those words would have been it
of all the letters that I've etched into paper
those words would have been the last thing
that I ever did
and oh god how I've taken this life for granted
and oh god how stupid I've been for ignoring the
smallest blessings I've got
and how ignorant of me to not take opportunities
and live this life to the fullest
I was shaking
as I stared at potential death
being sure not to move a muscle
not to breathe
not to blink
as I watched me and my friend
slowly become victims of wicked fate
realizing truly what I have been saying for years
that 'anything can happen.'
Just remember all of you
please remember 'anything can happen.'
Make sure the people you love know that you love them
make sure that you've always done what you love doing
make sure that you never leave any loose threads
and please please please for the love of god
make every word of yours count
make every word sing
make those ******* words
resonate and shake this earth
because you never know
what's words will
be your
last.

I knew you
in an instant
when I saw you
pass by
like I've known you
my entire life.

We lived out
each other's lives
in one another's eyes
making love with
awkward glances
and shying smiles.

We shared the simple
yet meaningful conversations
that one has at  2 o'clock AM
all without saying a word.

It was very easy to love you
and spend my life with you,
even if it was only for an instant.

You poured the coffee
and I left the tip.

I dreamed of you all day today.
Like a ghost
Your faint whispers
and grace
floating through my
head
I swear that I could see you
out of the corner of my eye
but when I'd look
you were gone
I knew you were among the stars
seeming so randomly placed
but in perfect position
as though they were chosen
by some great artist
as you fill my night sky
I can feel you
as tangible as mist
everywhere
all that I can see
all that I can think of
surrounding me
but every attempt I make
to grasp you and hold you
close
escapes me
and slides through my fingers.
Tonight,
as every night,
I will wait for you
and hope that it rains.

My dear,
I never meant to hurt you
never would I mean to
When I say I haven't felt in so
long
I'm talking of other things
Things that boil me up
and make me have to
let out my frustrations
and passions
You do nothing but
bring me up when I am down
because all I've got to do is think of you
and I'm alright
When I haven't felt
it's of other things to
make what I say interesting
I'm sure I said before
I feel I write best when I'm angry
or sad
but you've proved me wrong every time
so forgive me, my love
because as always
these words were meant
for
you.
Please don't forget that.

You changed your
picture and it made me so
happy to see
even though I can see less of you now
and I miss that smile of yours
but my, does this photo accentuate those
beautiful eyes
The way the light
radiates from your face is
amazing
as it contrasts against the
dark frame of your hair
please, my darling,
won't you have some
cocoa with me?
It's rather chilly tonight.
Please, come a little closer
nuzzle yourself
into me
like you
used to.
Whisper secrets.
Make me laugh.
Make me blush.
Besides, I don't want you to be cold.

Shoot your words through me
make me quiver
please
take me down
and make me feel again.
Show me what it is to
burn in love.
I haven't felt in so long
it's an unbearable drone
a lifeless sensation as though
I'm just piloting a shell
of a body.
I don't remember the last
time it was that I itched with
passion
when  I was filled with emotion
and creativity that erupts from the hands
and the mouth
and the mind
and the soul.
It's been too long since I've felt
and now
I've got nothing left to
myself.
It has been much too long
since I've felt a thing.
Hurt me please.
Break me.
**** me.
I've got nothing left to
say.
I can't do this anymore.
I need inspiration.

During the night
my hands start their
journey creeping across my
bed looking for you
reaching out into the void
hoping to God that you were there
They are searching
for your warmth
and those familiar curves
of your silhouette
They've been aching
and longing for
you
for a lifetime
but all they find
is that vast empty space
of darkness
where I last
misplaced my heart


very far away.

I want you
        Title
           Body
               Notes
and soul.

I bought
her love from
the second hand shop
it was a little patched
and a little worn
but it fit me like
a glove
and never
have I been so comfortable.

Don't wait any longer.
Drop that blanket
and let me warm you up
instead.
Tonight I know
I don't want
to worry about anything
but you.

I can't keep making
excuses for myself
by hiding from your
incredible words
because I've been hurt before
and I'm so afraid
of these things.

All day
I can do nothing
but think about you
and how beautiful you are
and how your words
have made love to
my broken soul.

Nothing has made
more perfect sense than you.

My stupid little
arrangement of letters
has all been meant for you
and they've been waiting for
somebody to set them free.

She
deserves
far better than
the likes of
me.

Although
I am simple at
heart
and long for the easy life
one important thing
that you should know about me
is I am a very complex man
with several hidden intricacies.

There
is not a more
perfect gift
than those words
and that face

She was a poem
and every bit of her
was beautifully crafted.
Her words were chosen
perfectly
down to the last letter.
She sang to my soul
and reverberated in my heart.

My dearest,
how I've missed you
and how I've dreamed
of us
I remember those old times
when we used to make
plans about our future
and would
laugh
for being so
dumb
and then you grew
and I grew
and we grew
apart

If I die, cover me in 10,000 roses
A rose for every love I've ever known and a rose for all the love I haven’t

Bind me in rope and tie it in knots
A knot for every struggle

Stick me with pins and lay me on a quilt
One patched with sin

Cover my casket with stamps
To send to all my lost friends

Put me on the ocean’s floor
So the Earth can reclaim me

But don’t shed a single tear, because I do not want you to be sad

Every time
I try to write her a
masterpiece
it falls short
in comparison
to what she has
already said

I find myself thinking about you
almost all the time now
as your words
rattle around in my head
and the things
that I've taken for granted
are all far too beautiful now
for everything reminds me of you.

I want you and me
out on my porch
wrapped up in a blanket
drinking hot chocolate
while we watch our breath
drift off in
the icy
air

It doesn't matter how far
it is that you may be

I want to see your
little quirks as
you sip at your cocoa
while I melt into
the way you speak

Then I begin to wonder
how soft your lips are
and if I dare to find out


Let's kiss until our lips are chapped
and our fingers are numb
and our eyes sting from
the oncoming chill

I dare to find out
only if you dare let me

I want to put on that old record
and have it scratch and pop
slowly and warmly through
the night

Let's dance
and hold each other close
keeping one another's heart
in the dim light of the evening

You take off my glasses
and I reach for you
in that darkness of
shapes

You grab me
and let me know
it's okay
as we stumble to the
couch
and you pull me close

Where we stay up until dawn
because I want you to know
that it's not just a dream
and I won't lose you

As you press your lips to my ear
and tell me that
you can hear my every word