“what are you going to do with your life?”
they all ask me
teachers
parents
peers
coworkers
my answer is simple
i don’t know
because i didn’t think
i would still be here

everything you told me
promised me
was it all a lie?

i guess our love was so full of
passion and fire
that it exploded right in front of my face
with no warning

how do you wake up one morning
and decide that you don't love someone anymore

i put all of myself into you
planned an entire life with you
you made it seem like you wanted that too

and then the next day its
"it wouldn't work out in the long run"
"we can't be together"

why couldn't you have told me that?
now I feel betrayed and used
did you ever love me?
or was i just another distraction

now i'm back to nothing
unsure of what i'm supposed to do next
this happens every time

i wish i could find someone to love me
the way that i love them
i'm ready to give up

i feel like once i finally have a plan
i eventually end up with nothing
and i am so ready to let it all go
i am so ready to let myself go

as we laid there
with my head on your chest
our breaths synchronized
and i realized
how much i truly missed this
our lives were so simple
so long ago when we were just kids
our souls became tortured
and we started to ruin each other
i know it would not last
and in the end i had to leave
all these feelings came rushing back
and though i felt lucky
i knew it would eventually be ripped away
it’s too late to go back
and now we’ve grown apart
living different lives
and you’ve found someone new
i just hope she loves you
as much as i do

can i be selfish for a minute?

can i tell you that i still love you

and she doesn’t deserve to share the very air you breathe

that i wish you would hold me in your arms once more

just kiss me and you’ll realize that it’s always been me

that you’ll never be able to replace me no matter how hard you try

i need you to know that i know you still love me

you still want me

you still need me

but your stubborn soul forbids the thought from crossing your mind

let me caress your skin

put my lips to your ear

and tell you everything you’ve been waiting to hear

i saw the sun strike your face
and saw your hazel eyes for what they truly are
kind

don't try and scare me away
because it won't work

i know the hell within your mind
worries you that i'll abandon you

my dear
you have already planted yourself
within my heart
your roots have already grown throughout my body

so when you say
you've warned me

i promise you
that i do not scare easily