The day she left thought love ended
Day you move back home feelings of freedom ending
The day your brother dies you can't help but blame yourself
Told to be a role model was your job to be a parent
Become a leader lead by example
The more you want in they keep you out
Told to do something you don't do
Thought of a career pursuing is hard but can be done
Trying to focus not have a break down
It use to feel like no one wanted me around
Mad because you don't get respect and think I owe it to you.
Too many things I couldn't do before but doing them now
With or without you it's what I love and care about
Creative juices flowing over being self destructive only hurting myself so not doing that anymore
After answers and solutions especially when your the problem

All this waiting and uncertainy is giving me painic attacks making it hard to breathe
I feel my heart racing shortness of breath
My thoughts racing trying to control my pulse
Nerves enraged making it hard for me to engage
Focused on writing room spinning around
Keep my emotions from goin astray
Sooner or later things will go my way
I've learned the era of my ways and the mistakes
Behaving and hoping this will get back on track
On the right path find my way back.

I put my faith in my writing told all my stories of pain
Now I'm focused on the positive and good hoping to make a better impression
If not i know I changed for the better been to the others side and back
Others might not like me and girls don't love me
But at least I could say I care and gad real emotions
I don't say anything unless I mean it or it the truth that gets me in trouble but I'd rather be real than fake
My experiences my not mean anything to you but they meant the world to me because I lived those raw emotions one time or another.
I share my thought because I'm not alone and others should know others share similar feelings
Do you and what makes you happy only you can provide for yourself trust and believe in yourself it will take you to where you want to be
Love life live at ease be free

She's that bad idea that comes up
The one you regret but like it or not
She's left an imprint on my heart
She left memories in my mind
It's hard to find another and replace
You can't always chase what the heart want
From one path to another the environment changes
There are things you like and hate
Somethings are a give and take
You don't lose faith believe its real when it was fake
The day you let go from holding on to find there's nothing left or there to catch the crashing heart
Broken hearts flowing tears trust is gone hatred strong
The heart want to be pure and fir give
Don't torture yourself make it hard to live
Move on and with time away the heart will heal
Beat with out struggle find true love and cuddle
Eyes of beauty smiles of completion souls unite
One day things will feel and go right
New experiences new place new ppl to see smiles on the couples faces

Not looking for a hand out but ill send my shout outs
I don't give up even thought I'm extreme live it up
Talking her could make break maybe hate the date
All the annoying stupid stuff you say you is useless anyway
Judging me but don't know me instead to talking show me how to do right you have no clue that's right
Never had to front same person with and around ppl
You don't like me and show, you know I don't care what you think and know it
You try to make an example of me and blow
Plus no one cares shaft you think why are you talking its best if you start walking

Get it all out through writing staying sane peace win
Evil thought come out holding them in is a sin
Burn you up inside something you live with not trying to be implosive
Unexpressed emotions could be explosive
A struggle within caused by hypocrites
Be yourself don't let them win they want to play mind game
Give them a piece if mind mind their own business
Not getting a rise or getting hate too late for the comment
Quick to point out stuff already living or going on why is it wrong now all of a sudden
You want to hurt others that you must be bored your power is like an unplugged extension cord

Grown numb to your ways you don't care what I say don't be surprise when things don't go your way
Tilt your head forward trying to state down
No one cares now why worry about it not
Mindless drone you don't know me texting always on the phone
You my humiliate other but when someone fixes you lip play the victim
Starting it and finishing it lots of actions and thoughts
One gets done the others just begun
Feel the words flow emotions  come out and together makes things sound meaningful and stronger together

Keep your head up don't let up
Things will change get better
Change my life in the form of word
They fly away with the bird
The great escape keep working don't fight fate
One day love your soul mate
find love that would be great
Lost in those eye lost in the truth
no more living in denial
Sleep good at night
Things feel right only getting better
Work for a living giving back
You have no right telling others how to act
Make a joke get a laugh not random remark