Like a time machine I go back into memory land present them in the future
What I felt and know has changed time after time
Over and over again find inner peace relive and find solutions to the problem
Connect reconnect don't ever want the same failed out come to occur
That moment things could've been changed turned out the way they did
I'm not going to pretend all the bad was good
But if I could relive all the good I would do so in a heart beat same every time
With the bad comes good  good can go bad
Doesn't matter make I through till the end

My wild side shows through my writing
I think of all the possibilities and hope for a great out come
Something's you never expect happens
You think you know a person next moment you barely know them
Never emotionally invest in someone unless the person meets you half way
Tired of putting my life on hold and waiting
Once I'm back on track ill attend to all those loose ends and secure myself
Protect and move forward for the better
More to achieve new worlds to see and be apart of and experience do it right this time around no room for mistakes

New thoughts new day hoping everything
Turns right side up another day
I keep saying on day ill make it
I believe in myself always open to change
Change anyway I can new ppl
Change the way things are done
Can't always be fun but something worth my time
Full of gain not into the same old thing
Like to experience and see new feel free and true
Identity is me not trying to be label or be someone I'm not
In the world freedom of speech pursue of happiness
Not your American dream but want mine over the nightmare you think I don't care back to the road of success over the time consuming detours

Alway thing about change my ways
Feel like things keep getting better everyday
New thought and ideas streaming fast
A whole new world unites with another so fast
Not trying to focus on the past
Leave the hurt behind find something new and real everything works out will be fine
You can't buy happiness you can only live it
Keep on trying don give up or quit on it.
New ppl with like minded friends same goal and similar agendas
Looking for more ppl who feel the same instead of keeping you down and out
Stay focus drown out the hate find the truth have some fate

I'm so glad to be able to express myself
No more feeling numb ignoring how I feel
Everything feels true and real
Not worried about others have to help myself
So I could be more useful over feeling useless
No more being over looked but one of the 1st picked
Be when I need to be feel right and be alright with my role in the world
I've done lousy jobs but want to be able to things that have meaning that my heart wants
I give all my heart passion fire burning desires
The path so close but seems so far back on track keep going even if it doesn't feel right

Over my neglected childhood
Hating thing about my failed relationship
The things that mean so much should be, not once was
I've developed a voice through writing it speaks
Makes things clear puts it in perspective
New views and perspective something new and fresh
Why settle for the same'ol stuff and expect less
Molds never applied or cared to fit in
Pushed out the fear of change and truth
Accept the unaccepted one day it will change
Use to things not going my way one day you feel my emotion experience change not in your favor
New new new keep on trucking it will be found
Happy now it's turning around coming back after being all around

Sit out under the trees in front of the house
The bench I sit feel the cold night breeze
The moonlight reflects casting light making shadows
Spiders drop from the tree branches
See the moon through the tree branches
Open patches through the leafs
Think about life reflect moments and store
The quiet tension sets the mood the smell of moist in the air
Feel the mood of the moon the quiet night
Fresh until you feel the bugs bite
Relax feel you could sleep in peace for the rest of the night
Thankful for the tree accepts me and let's me be

No one cared if I quit but I did it for me
Seen good and bad in the world
I wish I could take away pain
Free ppl of their burdens
Get out of debt own possessions instead of being owned
Love and peace let hate die be among the decease
Doing what you dream instead of some 9-5
Getting by trying to survive almost cried along long night
Stories in music stories told relive moments growing old
Trying to stay humble not grow old and bitter
Keep working hard don't be a quitter
No more pain just want to heal
Be thankful for the meal served just right
Rest in a bed no more cold floor
One day things will light up
No more stressing being up all night

My 1st relationship wasn't with the girl I loved or anyone special. I was young and dumb into the casual life style.
This one night stand turned into a 13 month nightmare. I learned to love even though at the time I didn't love myself. My brothers death and a pervious romance had me sour and bitter.
We dated even though it wasn't what I wanted she wanted it to be us but later she wanted me to be about her.
I tried to end it on many occasions but she wouldn't take it's over them she made a suicide threat so I stuck around. I died inside started to shutdown. Her insecurity and possessiveness eventually took its toll.
The summer rolled around the corner and we departed. I healed and needed to recharge my battery. I returned home this is a college relationship I might add.
It was over but she managed to manipulate her way back. One last night together that made it officially over. I got accused of being with someone else. Turns out this girl has a summer fling and trying to play the guilt card.
I'm not saying I won't ever date I just don't want to bother dating. Enjoy life and experience new. The best part of life is the story.