Growing is my inner sense
Fading is my innocence
Life is fleeting, non repeating
Forgive my belligerence
Find my as I reference
My childhood that's now gone
Fatalities befalling me
And forcing me to move on
Forcing me to live strong
Forcing me to love long
In reference to the present
I pray my head's not on wrong
Wishing for the simpler things
A time before feeling the sting
Of adult reality and missing all the mystery

Paint over my eyes so I might see brighter days
Put some blue over the view that was grey
Tell me this world is not a cruel as it seems
Paint over my eyes and paint me a dream

Erase all the nightmares, melt away the snow
Break me from the winter and show how to grow
Leave me with a better view of my day to day
Paint over my eyes and take me far away

Standing here in the present of peers is "love"
The word
the knife
the fool
the deceiver
A tyrant filled to the brim with good intentions
Only to leave confusion and chaos in it's wake

The accused pleads no wrongdoings
But evidence proves otherwise
The dying heart
The unhearing ear
The voiceless pain
The witnesses to the marauder that disguises itself within a word

Here stands "love"
Charged with extortion
Robbery
Vandalism
Assault
Crimes of passion
But crimes nonetheless
Claiming it's victims with a poison in the thorns of a rose
The shiv made from a pen
Slicing through their better judgement and sanity

Here stands "love"
Barely containable
Roaring, foaming at the mouth
A twisted creature unrecognizable behind it's mask
A mask of a word that abounded in wonder and grace
That was ripped from it's seams in a world of horrors
Here stands "love"

We the jury find the defendant....

I find things ending, bending, breaking
And not the way they're suppose to be
My love that was transcending
Hit the brick wall that was reality

In my inebriation
I found myself separate from reality
My love hospitalization
Came to a point where there no resuscitating

If these days should quickly pass
If nothing's meant to last
If all must fade away

I would wish to spend each day
In all your misty haze
Today and yesterday

If the stars should fall to dust
The end then come for us
And this dawn be our last

I would never fret or waste
The way that your lips taste
And all days in our past

So if tomorrow comes again
If the world does not end
If each breathe follows another

Then let's not spend a second more
Out of the arms of one adored
And dwell in the lips of a lover

Wished upon the silver day
Darkness then fades away
Light come in the form of rays
Upon the shining moon

Drenched within the summer nights
I look to the stars so bright
Full in sky, clear as daylight
Moonlit nights in June

Hope to dream once again
Raising me as they descend
Praying nights may never end
As I dream of you

Dear love I write to you
From lands composed of foreign tongues
Praying home is rife with sun
And that your eyes still hold stars and you are well

My journey away from you
Continues with you in my thoughts
And oh, the wonder my travels have brought
Will I be home soon, only time can tell

May your tender lips pray on
As my travels carry me near and far
May my dreams bring me to where you are
Whether I go by land or by sea

By this letter that I write
Know that your love longs for your arms
And to return to them safe from harm
Oh my darling, please wait for me

She flew on wing that were not hers because her feathers kept on falling
But how could she let that stop her when the sky, the sun, was calling
Unstable was the ground but constant were the heavens
And so she stole her chance from the wings of another

She sang with a secondhand voice and made it all her own
To make the stars focus and shine for her to find her way back home
Her feet ****** and blistered from the ground she had trodden
And those creatures who dwelt below could not stifle her song

She looked to the day with eyes of those born from the forever dark
Once hearing of light in fairy tales 'till she herself found a spark
And those things stolen, borrowed, and discovered made possibilities
And they were hers to use to find the sky

Days come to a halt
Is it my fault?
Could I have done more?

Words fall to the ground
Cannot be found
As they slip through the floorboards

Ever so silently
My mind violently
Shake me awake

Dreams fail to resume
As I resume
My silent heartbreak

These shifting sands never seem
To land up realities
To land up the real my dreams should be
And it's these accursed changes that fly on
A blink, a wince, and then they're gone
And it's a torment, a strange thing to me
For as I find I'm moments away
My tomorrow turns to yesterday
And my chances fly away with the change
Nothing the same, nothing lasts
Changes constant, future, present, and past
As these shifting sands stop, then rearrange

As she writes in day or moonlight
She contemplates definitions
Finding the figures televised
Are not models, but a condition
For the dead, it seems have become the dream
That man aim to worship and infatuate over
And this she find, as a woman, a girl
Is what's infecting the world like fever

Pale skin so white opposes the sight
Of her freckled, pinkly complexion
Vain within those whose malnutriton
Are posted as pure perfection
Lips of red the of which the dead
Show the blood that once flowed through vein
As Death runs his fingers through limp hair
The word "beauty” writhing in pain

And this, to the world, she also be the girl
The woman's aspiration, all in all?
This should be instead of true form
A copy, a replica, a doll?
To lie with each breath, beauty wrapped in death
To please mankind in sights of its end
Is a plight, in day or moonlight
She cannot and will not defend

Did you fade away only to be replaced by morning dew
The night we shared and cradled done and gone
For I spent a fair part of the morn searching for you
Only to find half of us moved on

Wooden floors littered with sun and clothes upon the floor
Disheveled sheets mark where you used to lay
Heaven came with the night and then walked out my door
To never be seen in the light of day

Where do stand on the issue at hand
And are you prepared to be branded a fool
For the clocking ever quickening is awfully sickening
When you find hypocritical rules
A choice gone unmade's like a sitting grenade
Some are winners and some lose a life
And whether you end with more foes or more friends
The key is to find yourself in the strife

If my days should end, my friend, and sorrow takes its due
I pray somehow that some part of me would live on within you
That petals of red would run through your blood where my rose has wilted, dried
And days would run on for you and no tears formed or cried

If my days should should end, my friend, if I go before my time
I pray you'll see that my actions matched my words and thoughts buried in rhyme
That you will love with the same love I've set aside for you
And that, as ash fades into ash, to that love you'll remain true

If such stars as these should shine and time treat you well
If your hand should reach towards the heavens and your feet stand above hell
If dreams should culminate in mind and not be drowned by tears
And life lived well and fully, then pray, what do you have to fear?

If God should smile, as He well does, and touch a humble soul
If champions could be brought out from the lowest of the low
If dust could be made rich again and reason resonate in deaf ears
And the sky touched by mortal hand, then pray, what do you have to fear?

If darkness cowers in the face of ever burning light
If monsters can be opposed by silver armored knights
If hope can rise out of the ash and dark skies be made clear
Then look inside your core and ask what do you have to fear?

Foreign stars take shape of passing cars
From my window where I are
I mean, where I am

And tapping rain grazes my window pain
At 3 a.m. I'm awake again
Alone

Close my eyes and ears to make my room disappear
To make-believe you are here
Whoever you are

Open them to find out I'm hear again
Reality composed of brain stems
In a daze

And alone I'm me more so than I want to be
And you make that cease to be
How? I don't know

And you are gone but I have yet to move on
And the lone wolf has seen the dawn
Yet I'm still here...

I'm still me...

Tell the tale of a girl once bold
Singing songs about a heart once cold
Hearing heaven with every breath she takes
Praying the next time her heart won't break
She will tell you that she is okay
That she's getting through her day to day
See the lining of red in her eyes
See the truth although she denies she cries

Listen to each dream that she whispers silently
The story present past the eery quiet sea
Looking for not just a lover, but a friend
See the beginning in her eyes and pray from a happy end
Respect the words that come from her heart
Know her brand is a work of art
Find the fairy tale and the reality
See her and the beautiful tragedy

Pray someday it will be a story from long ago
That hearts will be reignited and melt the chilling snow
That she will love with love that won't let go
And that heaven will bring to the rain a colorful bow
Tell the tale of a girl once bold
Singing songs of a heart once cold
Hearing heaven with every breath she takes
Praying the next time her heart won't break

Woefully sings the boy
Wonderfully sings the girl
Dreams collide, few survive
And so it goes

Preaching of the sinner
Unsung goes their world
Picking up the pieces
Notation of the boy and girl

Both stand together
On opposing sides of hello
Who will cure or **** the fellow
If they never meet, we'll never know

Demons once were angels
Fallen from graces
Both fervently cling, both sing
And both songs echo

Patiently waiting with wide eyes is she
The ******* the clouds who gets caught up in dreams
Looking through the fluff and onward towards the sunshine
As rays burst in blues and yellows within her eyes
Such wondrous sights as she looks down below
Held by the warm light, never to feel the snow
The rain falling down only to quench her ruby lips
As wisps of the clouds run between her fingertips

Maybe I'm more than they think
But maybe I'm still less than what I ought to be
Potential going down the murky sink
But filling the street to where the people see
Here I stand a mirror of a man
A man who can be more than on par
Just because the crowd loves the band
Doesn't make you the biggest star

Change the pace, replace, then sing
The words, unheard, the tempo focusing
And unto hallowed voices bring
A little bit of clarity

Please part the clouds of smoke we've made
While songs of hope burst like grenades
The smog now cleared, amidst the haze
So we therein might find bright day

Barefooted runs, dirt between toes
In chorus, a million solos
Rise up, a message from the globe
Live more, cry less, sing as you go

Hello all!

First of all, thank you all for following and liking my work enough to be reading this. If you haven't noticed, I make it my business to thank you guys for clicking that heart button.

Secondly, I just recently got hired to do an hour of poetry for an art show in my neck of the woods. The only problem is that I write so **** much...

So this is where the favor from you comes in! Please comment on this and tell me which of my poems especially touched you, made you laugh, cringe, or just made you nod your head and say, "That is so true. Happens to me a lot..."

Please comment! Help me out! Thank you mucho!

-Nik

And I could be a commode...
A common
A common oddity
With Mira Cole
Miracles
Coming out of me
Please excuse my stout
My strut
My s-s-stuttering
Not being ******
I mean this
Wouldn't be missed-ery
I could come and then glow
And the grow
And then go so far away
To expressly convert
I mean overt
Avert from the things I say
And just so the gray
No, the way
No, the day would illuminate
I would rise a ***
I mean above
All the shyness and the hate
I could sleep
I mean weep
Because of the weak things I say
S-stammering
Stuttering
It brings out the worse in every way

How far we go into the depths of it
Until we find we were never meant to wander
For we were never really ready for the pit
Since the light of day we obviously squandered
But who, if not we? Where if not there?
Why if not to brave it and lead the lost home?
For though the pit far outweighs mankind's strength
'Twas never said we would venture alone..

Paint the veil so the pale might wear off
Let this rhyme be the lozenge to your cough
Scoff and listen as words glisten shiny and new
Heavenly time in a rhyme can clear the blues
Make them red in your head and fuel the fire
Stand with your heart in your hand, push the desire
Mouths for hire and the perspiration comes down
As the words become verbs to pick you off the ground
Lost and found as that old becomes bigger better
The rhyme's cold like winter day, so wear a sweater

Wasted breaths
Bounced checks
Just a lifetime of it all
He'd sing
Off-key
Improper rises and falls
Too much
Too soon
Too little way too late
He stands
Slow hands
Another Monday in heartbreak

Chasing
Her off
Alarm clocks go off in his mind
Love of one
Undone
Twice as sad, hardest to bind
Desk job
Unfulfilled
Life unkind and so goes fate
Unsure
In the grey
This is Monday in heartbreak

Days pass
The same
Each a Monday in its way
Moments come
Never stay
All the ships sailed from the bay
Wishless
Fishless
Nothing for him out at sea
Life goes
Time slow
Monday heartbreaks, hard to leave

Fly home, dear sparrow, never look away
The snow is now faded along with the gray
Race past the slush and never mind the cold
See past the harsh days and see the rising gold

Homeward, dear sparrow, familiar's in view
The love of a warm nest is waiting for you
The journey is long and dream's is still there
Fly home, dear sparrow, to familiar air

I am much more than I seem
Yet what I seem to be is me
Which is to say that me is more
Than my meager definition

And if you saw what I seem to see
Then you might think more or less of me
And it would be devastation or complimentry
That would be my own prescription

So if I'm more than what I be
Then I may be you and you may be me
And maybe we could be one in the same
And more than both we thought

And I guess that we'd be correct
And the world's opinion we could reject
Because we find we are more the they attest
And we were more than we were taught

Lie on my lap and I'll tell you a story
Look in the dark and smile
Know that these tales of bravery and glory
Will stay with you all the while

All the monsters have been lulled to a coo
Boogeyman scared away
Safe and sound here in your room
Dream until the day

Paint such visions in my heart
In this cold, feed the dying hearth
Tread where my footprints are in this snow
My lovely, warm me, don't let go

Hear me calling amungt the noise
Rest in the rumble of my voice
Feel as the warmth in our blood grows
My lovely, warm me, don't let go

Sing such songs from year before
Dare me, tell me to fear no more
Home is you and all I need know
My lovely, warm me, don't let go

I will kiss your hand as we close our eyes
Hold you close, your breath my lullaby
Let our love stay on the straight and narrow
My lovely, warm me, don't let go

If these wounds could close, then eyes would open
Showing you there's more than being broken
Speaking of dreams that float onward from your hand
Catching them to put at your feet and telling you I understand

To let you know there is more than a handful of tears
That life has more in store than a desert of fears
That I am here as long as we have on this rock in the sky
And I could show things that might help open your eyes

Quiet pieces of my heart speak
As she starts there, I hear it repeat
Word that float and twist in the wind

Smiling at me, she clears her hair
Lovely girl who sits and stares
On the first fall day at summer's end

Can you hear them? They're calling
Pieces of my heart falling
Into her hand, melting serenely

Frozen inside an instance
Flowing in her mere presence
Eyes as deep blue as the furthest sea

Give a kiss and I will soar
She is all that I love for
Wondrous moments they stay so sweet

Place me here with you evermore
Pieces of my heart at your door
Pieces in your hand, so complete

We burned with passion for days on end
And just as we showed signs to transcend
The embers fell too quickly on our sun
And for too long it did erase
The way your lips, your kiss did taste
And I found that the two had become one
And you were gone and I alone
And my voice called in bitter tones
That belong to star-crossed lovers running out of air
Until I was silenced for a while
No written word, no creeping smile
No showing of a single wish or care
Then there you came out of the black
With shreds of hope the sun would come back
But I was never there to affirm them for you
And so we stood where love once did
A whisper of what should have been
Two star-crossed lovers, which love somehow did illude

Hello, sweet dream
I am calling
Falling as the sun in autumn
Here I'm standing
Softly handling
Things that fall all the way straight to the bottom
Watching, waiting
Contemplating
Brain just straining to figure out why
Alone, silent
Wrestling, violent
With words from my mouth that float to the sky
Catch them, write down
Things that I've found
Float on the sounds of my thinking
Don't say adieu
Company, I've found you
In these words, the little inklings

I'm falling from a height that I once boasted of
In a sky that is way too clear, but still it looks like rain
And I'm crashing through a glass ceiling that some call love
And aside from the shards in my back, I can't really complain

And the view from each story get less and less breathtaking
So I guess I must rely on my mind for the rest
Each glass floor and ceiling I crash through seems to be my dreams
But they say once I hit the ground floor, it'll hurt a bit less

And the words of the worldly wise ring clearly in my head
Telling me of how death is the greatest adventure of all
But I swear on my life I won't believe it until I'm dead
For what could be more utterly thrilling than a rather long fall

And my life flashed before my very eyes, but I think that I missed it
The commercials in between just made me want to skip the whole thing
The volume was too low and the plot was too slow with few good bits
And I'm much more preoccupied with the crashing and falling

How long I would fall was a wonder beyond comprehension
Whether Heaven or Hell would be at the end, I had no clue
But before I feel the thud of the ground floor, I guess I should mention
If I die from this fall then at least I was falling for you

Goodnight, good day
Alright and okay
I'm on my way out of bed
Days pass so long
Blink and they're gone
Yet you go on in my head

Long sighs, first kiss
Longing for true bliss
I reminisce of you there
In evening light
Of you I write
Technicolor eyes, rosy hair

Hear you, here me
Always fearing
Of you disappearing from my mind
Good day, good night
Be in dreams tonight
So that I might never say goodbye

Why do you write with your pen to paper
Living your dreams in your words
Questions in your mind that dive into your work
Creating visions of different worlds

Is it for love or the lack there of?
What does your truth entail
Looking for something where there once was nothing
With hope in your hand, so frail

Why do you write here under an idle light
Sitting, pondering the days
A heart possessing both joy and pain
A wish written in ink that fades

Who do you long for, what do you live for
What composes your reality
Why do you write, dearest poetic soul
What keeps you dreaming?

She whispered to me something that wounded beyond words
And the boom that ensued shook the ground and the birds
They flew to the sky, gave a cry, and shed a tear
And those words bit into this fragile heart of mine
'Till all the good feelings poured out me like wine
And a wall of dreams broke down to the armies of attacking fears

And my eyes went opaque and my tongue, it went dry
With fantasies failing me and clouding my skies
The heavens pouring down their wishes for better days
And they angels watched as the smile fell from my face
As the day went awry and my heart fell from grace
And her words, they did wound me and those words with echo always

Dearest raindrop do you miss the cloud you fell from
Floating in the sky and dropping to the humdrum
Of a car rushing to work or a sidewalk to be stepped upon
Do you ever look up and miss your view of the dawn

What are your thoughts as you fall from the skies of grace
Brothers and sisters falling down with you, touching a child's faces
Do you find a home within the ground you crawl within
Or does the sun take you to the clouds where you begin again

I look into my mother eyes to see what she must see
And I am taken aback to see a part of me
I look into the mirror to see her chocolate skin
The dark and deepening brown eyes and the passion within

I look into my mother's heart and all I find is gold
A heart whose vigor never strays no matter how old
And I pray to follow those footsteps, to love so endlessly
For it's through my mother's golden heart God whispers to me

I wrap my hand 'round my mother's hand and feel her tightening grip
The one which acts as a net when on this tightrope of life I slip
And I see that she loves me and prays for me each and every night
Remembering the child she cradled in her arms, so tight

I look at my mother's hair, so neat, proper, and prim
Only to see the grey strands the hide deep within
And I am reminded that my mother is human and no more
That she is getting older, the woman I adore

And so I kiss my mother's cheek to see her serene smile
To let her know that she's done well in raising this foolish child
And with my ear pressed to the door, I hear her prayers to the Savior
So before I lie my head to sleep, I remember to return the favor

Lovely girl across the world, in my state of mind you dwell
Your feet and legs covered in sand, your hair lettered with shells
Over, under, and inside my heart, your castle wins the prize
Making up in personality what you may lack in size

I've devised a cunning plan, you see, to bring us close together
And I'll enclose all the details in the contents of this letter
Not one more day can go by with me being so far from Grace
And so I'll trek over the land and seas so see the face

Of the heavenly traces on Earth, I'd say that your the best
A mixture of both sand and sea, blood, bone, and quirkiness
Hope this letter finds you in high spirits wherever you are
And that in the night someday we'll upon the very same stars

For the one who loves you has brought up all the sheets he could find
And brought scraps of lumber together will nails that bind
Into a vessel to weather the sea that splits you and I apart
So the two piece puzzle may have a chance to link into one heart

And though I know the shore is your first love overall
I hope you will come to me if I ever dare to call
And I will hold soon enough as I peak on past the day
And know your lover boy loves you forever and always

Writing off the scoffs the wrote off me
Is all I can really try to do
The only one who can provide validity
It seems is really only you

Dreamer of a girl that flies upon moonbeams
In the milky white nights of June
Skin composed of the purest cream
With a voice perfectly in tune

Poetic lines fall out of my mouth
Land within my hands
Soon no one know what I speak about
No one takes time to understand

Read with eyes that hold no doubt
Pour down your silver sand
Rain your love down, pour it out
Such things does love command

To and fro as the saying goes
As the afros chase rainbows in search of gold
And the money's ****** dry, 'till the rich only supply
Ways to the make the poor poorer & keep the crackheads high
Then we overdose on sighs that all come at once
The teachers so underpaid that we're soon led by the dunce
And the market's like the breakers of the sea, it just crashes
The 99 sinking in ships while the one percent dashes
We find the dream of the US tainted green
Or to put it correctly, it has been tainted greed
With the day to day in ways that leads to the end
With a knife in your back while they pat it like your friend
So reliance on defiance is the key so defy
All the brainwash and the violence, raise you hands to the sky
And live

I hit the airwaves almost silently
Hoping out there, somewhere you'll hear me
Because it turns out radio time costs a lot
So here in the a.m., 3:13
I stop the easy going melodies
To tell you that last night you forgot your sock
Wait...
No...
I mean...
Yes you forgot it, but what I really mean
Is what happened last night doesn't regularly
Happen to me, like, ever. I swear
So, now that you know you're an innormality
In this life of mine that's not so lively
I think it's time that I clear the air
...waves
****....
Wait...
I have as much time as information on you
And the ******* we did left me a little unscrewed
As I looked in your eyes and I struggled with your bra
And a one-night stand, I'm not likely to do
But we did... well... a lot, some old stuff and some new
As you gyrated, bit, moved your hips, kissed, and clawed
Ooh...
Wow...
Um...
Times winding down and I've said nothing right
Even if I did, chances are you won't hear this tonight
But all I have is your sock and that's not very fair to me
So what I'm trying to say under that "ON AIR" light
Is that I want to see you again, maybe for a quick bite
So that you might be tempted to leave a new piece of clothing
Well...
Yeah...
Goodnight...

My wishing star fell from the heavens and into the depths of hell
Leaving me without a hope to fill this hollow shell
So if you wonder why my head's down, it because I've searched for it in the sky
Finding it's light has been extinguished without a single goodbye

Hell has come by once or twice and knocked upon the floorboards
Taunting me and prodding an already open sore
The thing that remains to be decided is whether or not I'd want it back
Knowing the charred remains lie somewhere as it's luminous white turns black

So hear I stand with head to the ground and tears welling up in my eyes
Hearing the darkening sky which gives me reason to cry
Not a hope, not a dream, not a song, not a wish, not one story to tell
Not since my wishing star fell from the heavens and into the depths of hell

Race for stars, little one
Paint your dreams, reach on
Night's come, day is done
Close your eyes until the dawn
Moments pass by you
Soak inside your boundless mind
Purples, reds, in your view
Days hard, nights kind
Float amidst a milk white moon
Dance with a silver star
Morning will come soon
My love will follow wherever you are

Whisper quietly to me
How things are and how they should be
Heart and soul, they pass sweetly
In a silent world

Tenderly caress my face
Stop all tears in an embrace
Carry me pst this darkened veil
Show me to the light

Stay and calm such fear that burns
Help the sun and smiles return
Turn me from a darkened world
And I will be made new

Humbly, I pray...

Break the glass encased around
Hear the loud crashing sound
See amidst the shards you've found
Is a secret long since forgotten

Read the words upon the scroll
Etched in ink derived from soul
From half of one which once was whole
Thrown into bottomless sea

Pass each letter with your gaze
See this love, a trivial maze
Unfaded by a undaunting phrase
Oh sweet love, return again

May the many prayers of the ones you love
Push you towards the home you run to above
May the dawn grace your face and the memories stay
Your face remembered as the brightest of days

May tears grace the ground and flowers bloom in their place
May you always be remembered with a smile on your face
With each laugh that you brought, may they be blessings to you
As your loving Creator you finally come home to

Never fading and always learning
A dream amongst sleepers, a lesson worth learning
With wings of angels, in the sky may you roam
Till we meet again on our racing towards home