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 Jan 2014 -
Caitlin Driscoll
I don’t know where to write this
So you won’t find it
I just want you to love me
I’m so angry and sad that my tears are violent
And hot
And hurt
And I want to change
And fix me
And be worth loving

But I don’t blame you
I’m not worth loving

I’m shaking
And breathing heavy
Oh my God what’s happening to me?
My lungs feel like they’re being crushed
My heart feels like it’s trying to rip right out of my chest to escape this dungeon that is me

What have I become

I’m harmless
And harmful
And full of rage
And full of love

You don’t understand
You’ll never understand
And I can’t make you
But I sure wish you could

I want to scream
But I lost all sensation in my spur of bewilderment
It got ****** away in a black hole of existentialism the other day
And I just couldn’t bring myself to run after it

So I let the last tear I cried roll down my cheek
Blinked
Sighed
And fell asleep

*goodnight
 Jan 2014 -
Satsuki
Silver lies
 Jan 2014 -
Satsuki
Oh the all too familiar lump in my throat
Salty tears well up in my eyes
Sharp pain in my chest
Heartbreak over your web of lies
You speak hollow words
From an empty soul
But you fill them up with charm
Until you fill up the hole
A silver tongued snake
Hissing your *******
Weighing on me until I break
Shattered, torn, and bruised
You leave me in my kingdom of sorrow
I hate you
But I'll love you again tomorrow.
 Jan 2014 -
LJ Chaplin
The train ground to a halt,
Reluctantly sighing from the fatigue
Of another aching dance along the tracks,
Stained by raindrops and gravel,
I am sorry to make you carry me.
The suitcase thuds against the Tarmac
As I step on to Platform 2,
I am surrounded by other travellers,
Some dressed in their suits and professional stature,
Others dressed in coats and jeans and relief,
I see a boy and girl embrace and kiss,
He takes her luggage and they walk off hand in hand,
Another woman hugs her sister,
Or even a friend
And laugh and kiss one another on the cheek,
I drag my suitcase behind me,
My head clouded with the sound of footprints
Against wet Tarmac,
Walking along the yellow line until I reach the stairs,
Down I go.
New Year's Eve,
Celebration and intoxication
Lingered in the freezing wintry dusk,
Fireworks and beer,
Singing and champagne,
I am a part of it.
I slide my ticket into the machine and it lets me pass
With no resistance,
He waits there in the exit,
Hands in his pocket,
A smile on his rosy face
That has been kissed by the cold,
We leave the station,
Happiness surging between us.
 Jan 2014 -
Yekaterina Ko
We all live for a reason
We just need to realize what that reason is

We’re not meant to live for others
We’re not meant to live for their feelings
or desires
or dreams

We’re meant to live for ourselves
To change ourselves
To embrace ourselves
To live on dreaming,
Hoping that a better day will come
And that one day, we’ll be able to live
In absolute clarity and peace.

y.k
 Jan 2014 -
Flivansa
I was upset and I was crying

I told her about my feelings and that I'm sighing

She talked to me to understand what's wrong

She knows me well so she told me about a song  

I felt like an old light bulb that's out of electricity

She got me up on my feet again by simplicity

To me she is like a hat

She keeps my brain from falling apart

Thank god I have an unbelievable sis

Whose a huge part of my daily bases
 Jan 2014 -
Ritalin Rat
Anxiety.
 Jan 2014 -
Ritalin Rat
Anxiety.
It's like a big wave that crashes over you.
It drowns you almost.
It's like being drowned.
You can hold your breath at first.
You can act like your fine.
But then it builds.
And builds.
And builds.
Until you break and you can't breathe.
Your gasping for air but you don't get any.
You can't hear.
Only muffled screams.
Telling you to calm down.
But you can't.
You have no control.
None.
Zero.
Zippo.
Zilch.
~m.a
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