Can There be a day where I don't have to fight myself for control of my thoughts can I just have one day of respite where I can't feel like my hearts in a knot
can I be like Nas, Have one Mic and one crib, one girl and one God to show how to do things his son did?

Can my brain stop holding fast to memories long past and let the last unpleasantness die between us.
and move on to bigger and better things worth more than sonic's rings?
Can I just be free from the very thing that's slowly killing me?

Can I just be free from my pain? I love more than I should but I'm falling apart here, like a newspaper in the rain....

Today I woke up smiling
for the first time in a long time
nothing bad I'd gone through
was running thru my mind
All that was there was positive
all the good times I've lived
All the fun things I did
It's like my past is behind me
dead and buried
I can move on from everything now
it doesn't seem so scary
life isn't always a walk among roses
so take the good with the bad in healthy doses :)

So one day a girl asked me what has poetry done for you lately I mean it's just words on a page and even then it only barely manages to engage or enrage what can something that sits on a page do for Me?

After taking in her question I replied to her that these words on this page aren't intended to enrage but to inspire and create feelings within us all that we can display our feelings and thoughts without being judged and without fear if getting caught or shot is not because we think we're better than you we just express our love and pain, our sunshine and rain with words, yes its true!

I'm pretty sure that all poets know this
but there is power in the flows it's
really quite intoxicating the power that these rhymes create you can get people through troubling times or even influence people to subliminally create rhymes commit crimes I'm not sure yet what I intend to find but I know I'm enjoying the ride there i learned the hard way what a role your words play i can decide to write extra sad or positive as man alive im just looking to improve my poetic value because its for perfection i strive

Have you ever been so in love
That every time they smile it brings a high
Like the love in the movies that you hope
Never run out of replays on the reel
So you can channel that feel
Of that person with you
Touching your skin with every gentle caress
Unless that love poisons over and sours
And makes it seem like every day is a battle
For your sanity, you don’t wanna leave
But you know you can’t stay
But I guess that’s what love does to people today
You find the one that you think will complete
And never deplete
The resources in your damaged heart.
But sometimes, I guess, that’s what tears us apart.

I've had writers block for some time now, nothings seemed to glow how it should
No topic right now feels like it's been unexplored
But poetry isn't the movies, you use your words to take a snapshot of what you're feeling and what's going on around you
It doesn't have to astound you but it does help to ground you like a lightning rod

But let me guide you through what's in my mind now
A lot of noise, jumbled thoughts about someone from my past
What's funny is why does it have to be this way, is it fate? Some divine joke played on us because of her mistake?