I just remembered what one of the other things I wanted to talk about was.
Alright, my mom told me I wasn't going to the library today.
She told me this last night, after I said that my legs were a little heavy while I was here.
And it's true, but I think that was because my body thought I was staying home, but I went anyway.
In fact, my cat thought I was staying home, and got moody when he figured out that I was allowed to go after all.
When I told her about my legs, she said I was going to be on bed rest for all of today.
Well, I wasn't a huge fan of that, but she pinkie swore that she was telling the truth when it came to this, so I knew she was serious.
Me and my mom have this thing were pinkie swears are very important to us, it's a mother-daughter thing we have, that's all.
Anyway, this morning, I really wanted to come here.
I told her that I know we don't break these promises, but I really didn't wanna miss another day at the library.
She told me I could go, because my grandmother wrote a note asking her to let me go today, in exchange for this weekend.
I asked her if she would take me on Saturday after the WWE Pay Per View Super Show-Down was over.
I also said she could tell me her answer today, because I asked her last night.
She told me she'd tell me, and I think this was her way of answering my question.
I mean, I don't mind if it was, because I didn't have to miss another week day.
However, I do wish she would've just told me herself that she wanted to stay home on Saturday.
I'm not mad or anything, the complete opposite, actually.
I love being at the library, it gives me something to do during the weekdays.
It's just, now I'm really gonna have to rely on myself staying awake tomorrow.
The Pay Per View starts at 5 am.
Remember, the one I was telling you about when I was on here yesterday?
Well, I was hoping that coming here afterward would give me more than one reason to stay awake all day.
I mean, I'm already tired all the time, but nowadays, it's been for no reason whatsoever.
However, I have to wake up at 4 in the morning, in order to be awake and ready for 5.
And that, will give me an actual reason to be exhausted.
I actually just decided that I'm not going to record my live reaction, because I wanna be able to eat or drink during the Pay Per View.
Honestly, that might be the only way I manage to stay awake.
I mean, right after it's over, I need to get straight onto my Tumblr, and start making my review, which I also said in yesterday's post.
Saying all of that, I was hoping I would be able to also work on my Japanese writing and stuff, but I'm sticking with my schedule.
I've said numerous times how important a set schedule is for me, and it's true.
That's the only thing that has me a little bit bummed.
That, and Mom might not even let me go for a walk to my spot by the mailboxes.
She might let me go for a walk, or to my spot, but again, she might hold me to being on bed rest.
I definitely told her that I'm going to watch the Pay Per View at my computer.
I have to, I doubt I'll be able to keep myself awake if I watch it while laying down on my bed.
I might have to convince her to let me write my review from my computer, but I think I can manage that.
I'll have to stay awake all day, so I can sleep that night, but I think I might be okay.
I may be able to fall asleep a little bit earlier tonight, so I have a few hours before my alarm that I set for 4 wakes me up.
Either that, or what my grandmother says is right, and I'll be so wound up by the Pay Per View that I would sleep at all.
However, I'm not really excited that much for the Pay Per View, especially, not when it comes to Raw's side of it.
So, I don't know if that will be an issue for me tonight.
However, I also have excitement when it comes to some of the things on the Smackdown Live side of things, so then again...
I don't know, but I think I'll be able to get some sleep.
Alright, this was the second major thing I wanted to talk about.
I'm glad I was able to remember it, because I was really annoyed when I thought I had forgotten about it.
But as I was writing that last post, it came back to me, so I was able to get it written down.
Alright, I'm done when it comes to this post, and I still have 69 more minutes to go.
Let me think for a second, and see if there's anything else I wanna talk about.
If not, then I'll see you on Monday.
Nope, can't think of anything else.
So, I'll see you on Monday, bye!

I actually thought I had a lot more stories and things I wanted to talk about.
But now, I just figured out that all those thoughts I had a little while ago, have suddenly disappeared from my memory.
Before I left to have my lunch, I had so many things I wanted to talk about.
I just finished my post about one of the things that was on my mind, but I finished it by saying I was going to get out my other thoughts.
Well, how am I supposed to do that now?
I mean, there were so many things I wanted to talk about, but now, I can't remember what any of them are.
Or, in this case, what they were.
I'm thinking, but I'm drawing a complete blank.
Hold on, maybe I'll remember at least one of the other things I wanted to talk about soon.
If not, then I'll see you on Monday.
Bye!

There's this person I keep seeing here at the library.
I know I recognize her, but I can't remember her name, or where I know her from.
I feel like she was someone who used to help me when I was in school.
I don't know if she's from my elementary or junior high school years, though.
And the worst part is, she knows me, and always says hi.
Another bad part, is that she's obviously here to help tutor someone, because she's always with someone when I see her.
And I can tell by the way she talks to them that she's there to help them learn something.
I want so badly to just ask her who she is, but I don't wanna interrupt when she's working with someone else at the time.
However, every time I get ready to leave for the day, she's already gone.
This has been going on off and on for the last few weeks now.
And yesterday, when I heard her say my name as she said hi, I knew she remembered me from somewhere.
And now, I can't stop thinking about her, because I know I've seen her before, but I just can't for my life remember where.
And, like I said above, I just wanna ask her.
I told myself that if I saw her today, that I would ask her who she was.
I would ask if I could talk to her for a bit when she was done with whoever she was talking to, then find out her name.
She knows mine, so I know I've seen her a lot before.
I have a feeling she was one of the special ed teachers who used to help me with either my reading or math when I was younger.
I just can't remember her name, though.
And just knowing that she's not here when I really want her to be, so I can get some answers, is driving me crazy.
I tried to look her up by going onto the library's website, but her picture isn't anywhere.
I tried looking her up using the name of my old elementary school, but since it was closed down in 2011, the website no longer exists.
And to make my life even harder, when I looked at the website for where I went to junior high nearly nine or ten years ago, nothing.
There were no pictures to go along with any of the names of the staff and faculty.
And I wanna ask on Facebook, but I don't know if she has it, or how I'll even come across finding her.
And because my family is only staying in our condo while our new mobile home is being set up for us, the yearbooks are still packed.
They're in boxes that are in the garage on our side of the condo we're living in at the moment.
So now, I have to wait another week or two, before I can find out through those pictures who she is, if she's even in them.
All I know is, I can still remember what her face and hair looked like.
And honestly, if I knew her name, I could say she looks the same as she did when I used to see her, if I'm right, nearly every weekday.
It just bugs the life out of me that I don't remember her name, but I know that I know her from somewhere.
Alright, if I keep talking, I'm just gonna start repeating myself more than I already have.
I said I was going to be making more posts today, and this is the first of a few more to come.
I signed on for the remaining 110 minutes, and now, there are 94 minutes remaining.
And for some reason, until I don't have anything else in my head to write, or it's time to get off and go home, I'm gonna keep writing.
So, the posts are gonna keep coming for a little while.
And if you actually read all of these, and like any of them, thank you so much!
I don't write these for views, I just write these because I wanna get thoughts that are in my head out.
And since I don't have someone to talk to, like I said in one of my previous posts, this is kinda like a diary for me.
I just write, and it's up to you whether you wanna take the time to read it or not.
First, let me just apologize for the fact that all my posts are so long.
I just really like to write, and when it comes to making points, I just talk until I think I've made it.
It's the way my brain is, and I can't change that, but I'm trying to work on it.
Like now, I can tell that I'm starting to ramble a lot more than I should.
So I'm gonna stop with this post, and get on with the next one.
Alright, I'm done, on to the next post.

I have really bad anxiety, so I really don't like talking to strangers.
At the library, I brought ten cents, a roll of tape, and scissors from home.
I did this so I could make a photocopy, and not have to deal with people.
However, when I used the photocopier, I did it wrong, and got nothing.
So, I had to go and ask for help.
I was a little bit nervous, but more annoyed with the photocopier.
Actually, I kept thinking it was because the photocopier just wasn't working right.
So, after I went to the front desk, they redirected me to the reference desk upstairs.
Now, I just thanked the lady, and went upstairs to get some help from them.
The lady up there and nice and helped me, and I learned that I had done it wrong when I was downstairs.
After I thanked her for her help, I stayed upstairs & went to an empty left sided cubby, & my schedule didn't change after that.
I didn't realize until I was done with my Japanese studying for the day, that I hadn't had an anxiety attack.
And just now, I realized why that was.
I was so busy needing help to photocopy, that I just didn't think about it.
I didn't think that I was talking to a complete stranger, because I was too busy thinking about my task at hand.
Now, this might not be possible for me every day, but today, it was.
And with how bad my anxiety is, it makes me happy when I don't succumb to it.
I mean, just now, I have to try and contain it, because someone sat down beside me at the other guest computer here downstairs.
This makes me anxious, but she's not talking to me, so I'm just trying to act like she's not there.
I always get nervous that someone's gonna talk to me, for some reason.
And if someone talks to me while I'm eating when I'm outside, I just concentrate on my food, so I don't shut down.
I can talk for a second, but I always feel relieved when they walk away.
I mean, the lady just left, and I feel more at ease now.
I hate feeling this way, but that's the way it is.
I'm still learning how to manage my anxiety, but I did get things done today, so I think I'm doing okay.
Alright, I only have 6 more minutes until my 20 minutes on this guest computer are up, then I'm gonna go eat.
You know, I like this schedule, I really like coming to the library.
I actually wanna write a lot more, but I don't have much time.
I might write more when I go upstairs for the 120 minutes that those computers provide, but I might not.
I still have to work on my notebook that I'm writing for my new story.
But first, I have to complete all of the notebook, then I have to completely type up everything that I wrote down.
And when it comes to printing it out, that will be done at home.
At least, I hope it will be done at home.
I just don't wanna be a nuisance to everyone else who may want the printer.
But that's at least another week or two down the road, so I don't even need to think about that right now.
Alright, I think I'm done until after I eat my lunch and go back upstairs.
And I'm not going to say bye, because I think I'm gonna come back on before I continue working on the notebook.
So instead, I'll say, see you later!

I hate getting up early, and normally, will do whatever I can to avoid it.
However, I prefer to watch the WWE Pay Per Views live, rather than, watching the replays of it.
So, in order to watch the Super Show-Down Pay Per View on Saturday, I have to wake up by four in the morning.
Why?
So I can be ready and awake for when it starts at 5 am.
I don't know whether I'm gonna record my live reaction to it or not, yet.
I still haven't decided, but I might, it depends.
I do know that I wanna watch it when it's live and actually happening.
And because of this, I need to just deal with the fact that I don't really get to sleep on Saturday.
After that, I go on Tumblr and write my review on each match, then the whole Pay Per View as a whole.
I'm not really looking forward to being up at that time, but I love WWE, so I'll do it.
Besides, it's only on at 5 am because the Super Show-Down is taking place in Melbourne, Australia.
I'm just relying on the fact that some matches and people that I really wanna see are gonna be there for this.
Wow, this was a very short post.
I guess I don't have many thoughts regarding this topic.
Because I wrote them all down in the post I just made on my Tumblr regarding all my thoughts, wishes, concerns, & predictions.
So I may either just be done until tomorrow, or I'll write something else.
In case I'm done, thanks to anyone who for some reason likes my posts.
And also, in case I don't write another one after this.
See you tomorrow, bye!

Alright, I only have 16 minutes left on this 20 minute guest downstairs library computer, so I need to make this quick.
I completely miscalculated last yesterday when I went on the computers upstairs that run for 120 minutes once you log on.
That's okay, because I knew how to fix the little issue.
I'll use this computer for writing the post and checking my email.
Then, when it comes to my other things, I'll use the upstairs computers that give you 120 minutes one time a day.
That's okay, I'm fine with that.
I am annoyed with my phone however.
Because, I spent the first two or so hours here working on my post on the Pay Per View coming up on Saturday morning on my Tumblr.
And when I went to save the draft, the draft wouldn't save from my phone. So now, the first thing I have to do when I log on upstairs, is completely redo the whole last part of it.
That's alright, because I still got to get all my Japanese writing practice in.
And now, I got to check my mail and get on here.
While I don't love that this schedule has changed almost three times in the last two days, I think this is the end of the schedule changes.
Now, I have 12 more minutes on this guest computer.
So I'm gonna finish up with this post, then get onto my Tumblr.
When the time is up, I'll go outside and eat my lunch, then I'll go upstairs, and my schedule can resume as planned.
Luckily, I shouldn't run into this problem tomorrow, as the schedule I set for myself should be fully set by then.
Alright, that's it for today's post.
I was debating whether to do this now, or do it on my phone.
But I decided that nothing else in my schedule was going to change again, so I decided to do this.
Alright, now I'm done.
I'll be back tomorrow to talk about whatever.
And to whoever reads these random posts and actually likes them.
Thank you so much.
Alright, see you tomorrow, bye!

Since I care very much for writing, but also Japanese, I had to redo the schedule I made for myself for when I'm here at the library.
I don't check out a book, because I have other things I have to do.
I need to work on my Japanese, which means learning how to write it.
After that, I need to get on a computer, check my emails, and come on here to write my post.
You know, where I write about whatever is on my mind at the time.
Then, I need to either work on one of my stories on my Google Docs, or write something on my Tumblr for the upcoming WWE Pay Per View.
After that 120 minutes are up, I go outside and eat my lunch, or I walk and get some ice cream.
After I finish eating, I get back online for another 120 minutes, where I spend the time working on a story I'm trying to write from scratch.
Which means I look up stuff, then write them in my notebook.
If I finish with that, then I type up everything I wrote in my notebook.
After that, I leave, and either come back the next day, or the following week, and I have two stories to work on.
Along with, practicing my Japanese writing.
I hope to have a tutor at some point for the speaking.
When that time comes, I change my schedule once again.
Until then, this system works for me.
So now that I've written all of this down, this will be today's post.
Now, I need to write my thoughts and stuff on Tumblr for the WWE Pay Per View that's streaming on Saturday.
Alright, that's it for today.
See you tomorrow, bye!