I smell that i am rotting
the flower by my nose  
Was easily retrieved
from dirt beneath my toes

Distract me from the pain
redirect my sadness
Are those in love sane
or wallowing in madness..?

Everything is potent till you use it all the time
yet your still on canvas in the paintings of my mind
I find ;
i never quite lose you all the way
I tossed you to the ground
but wanted you to stay..

He picked his piece of heart up from the street
the one who broke it also had once made em feel complete
defeat ;
he swore to god that he would rise again
losing love for women , man , children , and his friends
pretend ;
that he wont overextend -
again ;
satan came close to unmend
his ends..
He sat along the side
piecing back together what was trust ;
his pride ;
the lies ;
they'v come to show you who is king again
life is like a circle
the cycle never ends -
No money is his pockets
he poured in her his soul
Only to be given
abundances of tolls..

I tried to change
i really tried to ****** change
I would be fleeing but my being has been ****** and chained ;
mad strange how your lover choose to do you
Words stab through you like the pins in the doll voodoo ;
tryna groove with some blades in your back ;
Is like - tryna sit with some **** in your crack..
He showed love to the almighty creator
in hopes he could cope nd be something much greater
Saw the signs later ;
when god hit a fade away
later days resulted in pain in some major ways..
He often waved to the sky
to say hi and bye to his brothers who had died...
We could learn from the leaves on the trees
cooperating with the breeze when its time to appease
Some days some lay in the dirt and decay
while you ***** about your coffee at the nearest cafe..

You find a shoddy person
use them as a home
For your heart to rest
and call that place its own
Often your evicted
These landlords are the worst
love can be a blessing
More often its a curse..

White flag danced for days
the bullets didn't hit
They only slightly grazed
Retreated in the maze
to formulate some plays
His brothers left him last
absorbed inside their ways..

Aint nuthin changed
still the same ***** head shaggy soul deranged
its strange ; i swore that i was out my devils range
my piece of pie lost for clarity i exchanged
In pain ; but i know that im not alone
wouldn't call depression a first world problem
They got em ; right where they want em all confused
your everything to gain will be everything you lose
Obtuse ; to that main stream y'all been drinking
The propaganda strong , i long to change your thinking..

Friends dip off
Guess they wasn't homies
dont be comin back and actin cool as if you know me
Unholy
I swear to god y'all ****** make it hard
fearing letting others slip up underneath my guard
God;
i pray that you would give me all the strength
I pray that you would work me through my troubles like a shrink
to think;
I valued your existence as a gem
To think that you would label me another one of them
Its cool;
As if i could play karma for a fool
i did the same to others used my brother as a tool...

Used to think that i would know y'all forever
used to bank on y'all whenever my depression would sever
Used to be my crutches when i lacked the muscle to walk
back when devils stalked my being mind outlined in chalk...

I wish y'all the best
i still harbor all the love that i once held in my chest
i revoke you from that special place inside of my mind
the area my most ambitious demons struggle to find..

I often tried to fly
Like Icarus i pummel toward the ground from the sky..