I found cupid's bow
I don't know where to go

I can't believe you don't love me

do you think you're better than me

if I turn around
look into your eyes
I won't catch you
I'd love to see you fall

losing sleeping over me
dreaming sweet dreams of me

rejecting your calls
ignoring your touch

I can't believe it
you don't love me!

I laugh
and I cry

I can't believe I love you

I think we aren't meant to be

Where do you go
When I close my eyes

And I try imagine where you stand
disappearing on the spot

I wonder
I wander lost

I can't retrace your steps

Ready or not
I go into the dark

Before dawn

Everything is everywhere

Where do we go
After dark

crashing into a wave of sadness
I can't breathe

feels so ugly
to be lonely

no one waiting for you at home
no one to call for good news

eating alone
walking alone

everyone's faces
disappear into the weary clouds

all my wishes come true
why am I not happy
why am I not satisfied

It's bizarre
I fell too far
so close to the light
I wonder what's behind
to see the stars that don't shine so bright

mangos and apples
we screamed for hours
smiles from flowers
my legs are shaking
I can barely make it

I'll see you again
not today
I'll speak to you differently
I'll pretend

for now
I stay behind
let others be ahead
I want a deep breath

you said you'd help
don't you remember

I get a feeling
you don't care about anyone but yourself

nobody else will treat me like you
it's much better we're not together

don't come looking for me when I'm down
don't come when I'm doing good

I got a feeling
I mean nothing

can't wait to let you down
how does it feel
now I'm letting go

you're so clueless

I might disappear tomorrow

you bore me
now I am dead

Why must I love you

Why must you hurt me

I'm nothing but a sad boy
miserable, brooding, misleading

thinking about you when I'm all alone
when I have you I want to go

never satisfied
still curious

can I change
can I change
can I

can't focus
I wanted to find a heart

you're gone
I'm leaving now

trying to cry
terrified

loveless and lost
there's no where to go


what if tomorrow
what if today
my thoughts and memories drown
down the sink

I am sorry you cannot see how beautiful the trees glow in the sunlight

You bring in such beautiful words
yet do not follow them

the fire you've made
is alive
Thriving off your confusion

For thirty years
life has scattered parts of your mind
around this cursed land

I'm sorry you can't stand up
nor make a decision

If I were to help
It wouldn't make a difference

You've been drowning
forever

you're acting like cupid
so stupid

there's no love here

shutting you out
there's nothing to see you for

I'm holding myself to sleep now

let me go home
where the clouds
never disappear

there's a pink sky
the sun stays in twilight

stop looking at me
like that other girl

she's gone

feeling like a
gone girl

ready to lie
to my loved one

I'm liar

I'd be lying if I said I don't miss you

so much

I hate the way
we're so separated

breaks my tiny heart

you're still so beautiful

your smile is worth gold

don't do what you're told

I'm wondering

if you miss me too

I think you do

maybe that hurts me a little more than it should

fresh music
new songs

inspiration in each lyric

poetry
pounds around in my head

I get tired of writing
disposable feelings

I'm the only ghost in this house
trying to find heaven
from the windows

you were the gun
boy you were
pulled the trigger straight into my heart

I'm bleeding
so much blood
my heart stopped beating
hard to breathe

I would've given everything
given it all away
just to have you
one more day

if you had it all
would you waste it
throw me out

you were the gun
you pulled the trigger
straight into my heart

now I'm dead
waiting to see you collect my
broken heart

just to look into your eyes
I would've done it all

got me thinking
what would you do
take my everything
turn it into nothing

your affection is priceless
nonexistent

you have a big heart
but its empty

you were the gun darling
all the bullets piercing through me

I hope you have one left
to **** me

I want to go home
To my real home
The home that I have good memories
The home where I lost everything
I want to sleep in my room
Where I would wake up happy
The home where I had all my family
I know they're gone
But I want to wake up
And remember I had
Everything

I feel so numb in this cold
showering in ice

I wrote a poem
of a poem
about a poem

I wrote you a poem
inspired by a poem
of another poem

you'll never read it

It's catching fire
the ashes are lost

I spent an hour
writing you a letter

where I wrote you a poem

you'll never speak of it

it's hidden in a drawer
sealed

catching fire

you'll never see it

To
you

From
Me

you don't want to remember

let the thought haunt you now

you will remember

I'll remind you

you're so wrong

we don't deserve good

you're the biggest fool

stop your childish behavior

everyone is hurting around you

are you this selfish

remember

nothing satisfies you

I'll help you remember the truth

the memories burn you

There was a time
when I asked questions

I received answers

Now such thing is a disaster

Keep my thoughts to myself
locked in a box

I'm a heavy cloud
waiting to rain down

darkness reigns
inside me

living in a butterfly dream

There's a constant storm in my ear

We all love in good nature

I live in silence

a quiet night
I feel it
Can't hear it
soundless

I held you tight in my arms
so warm
silently making me frozen

where will you go
I wish you didn't have to

I love holding you
making my hands dry
skins ripping apart

you're my best friend
I don't want to forget

I love you

I'll see you
next year

sorry to say
but some of your poems
aren't poems

Is she real

She's real

Does she feel

She's real

Can you be with her all the time

You must think it through

I won't tell you what to do
but I beg
in my head
Hoping you make the right decision
Or another mistake again


Is she the one

She's real

What's in her eyes

Does she have the right mind

She's real

Is it love

Is it love

Is it love

She was craving a yellow cake
   To fill her up with happiness

Give me your hands
it's cloudy again

plenty of life
surrounded by
leaves  
yellow butterflies
birds and pigeons choking me up

one tree is all I need

I didn't forget about you

don't fall
don't die

give me your heart
it's sunny now

death follows
surrounded by
a dying star

all I see is green

I'll never forgive myself for losing you

I never will

scared for my life
scared of falling asleep and you'll finally realize

the girl everyone sees isn't me
she's not me
I'm living in this strange body

I'm  afraid to reveal myself
the real me

you don't know that girl

completely different

I hope you still love me

I believed
I could have you forever

I was asking for too much
I can't have that

I wanted to call you
in love

I wanted to say
I love you

too many bandaids
for all the cuts you left on my heart

I'm bleeding
all over again

missing you
missing you is the worst pain
I didn't want to experience


say you miss me too
say you love me too
say you think about me too

ease my mind
I haven't heard your voice in so long

I can feel a million thoughts
threatening to break free

I try and be happy beside you
truth is
I want to fall to the floor and cry

I know I'll be okay
but I was hoping you'd tell me

now I'm sleeping alone
I have all night to cry

I'm afraid I'll wake up and not find myself

this isn't what I pictured
didn't know that sunset was our last

I felt the sunlight rain down on me
I held it as long as I could

deep breaths
I'm not alone

I have to remind myself
in this empty house

I don't find interest in anything you have to say

I wish lightning were to strike me then

It's your presence
now I feel so sickened

asking myself when will the rain fall

don't want to hear you talk

to amazed by the sound of thunder

No one really likes me
I'm a mess
Spilled ink
On a white dress
The stain on your shirt
That never goes away
A broken window
invisible star
So I stay away

Keeping distance

Worlds within a room
I have to resist

They'll never know
How much love I hold
I could give

I'm a new moon
Standing behind
The shadows

I don't shine
I only reflect

I'm just here
I don't know why

No really likes me


I do

Staring into the moon
I'm drawn to you

Breaking my heart
Slowly ripping myself apart
It no longer hurts

I sleep and dream in paradise

Are you mad?

Are you mad
I'm over the moon

I'm so far away
Flying over the moon

I thought I told you
I can't fix you

You are
Who you are

I can buy you bandaids
It'll never heal your broken veins


When we're together I can't hear you breathe

Are you mad

I'm not here
Beside you

On the moon
Looking down on you

I'm weak
push me harder

I don't want to know
even if I break soon

I might run out of time

will I make it
can I still make it

why can't I do perfect things
everything I touch is torn apart

at the end of the day
when my shoulders are tense

nothing can help me
I'm so stressed

with a million things to do
I try and keep quiet

don't want to scream and cry

push me harder
so I can fall

let me hit the ground
till I can't remember anything anymore

trying to let my eyes tear away
oh shush
keep it down

I just want us alone
with nobody

tell me when you'll come again
I'll make sure to leave an impression

wearing a pink shirt
I hate

oh shush
don't talk now

I don't want anyone around
just us

will you hear me out
come out
where are you hiding

I want him
but only part of him

oh shush

want no one around

stay for a while longer

hiding inside dressing rooms
I know that I'm not supposed to

My friends
his friends
the smell of beer
music blasting
in our ears
I'm hiding in the bathtub
spilling out my tears
I shouldn't
But I still do it

My father is outside
my bedroom
dim lights
in the corner of my closet
I don't know

Everytime time I close my eyes
I find paradise

They want to find me
I'm in plain sight

I was there when our world fell apart

I'm here now
as mine falls to my feet

I can't even see

Hiding inside my head

I still do it

I see
We're so alike

I guess I should just
rip out my veins at night

drain my blood
in the bath

get a head transplant
we can't have the same mind

Who's the replica

soft wet grass

I can't wait to see you wear my jacket

buying it with you in mind

maybe it's yours to keep

while the rain falls gently

Carmen
She's never felt loving

I try and hold her hand
from far away

Her gaze
looks through the high walls
I've been caught
she can see everything

She's a flash of lightning
the sound of a sudden storm

Keeps a straight face
at a distance

Blue car
Blue nails
Blue heart

I try to show her the colors
I try and teach her red

She's living in shades of blue
I can't see

It's all a dream
from
looking out a window
blowing a candle
a smile
a kiss
sleep
eyes
closed
whenever she's by herself

In the night
When you lay alone
I'll love you

you want to be someone else
anyone but yourself

but
everyone is fake

don't go looking for love
in red roses

beauty is ugly
you don't want to understand
what it all means

I'm so afraid
of what your mind is thinking

I'm empty
no love

I think I love you

I don't where I'm going

all I hear is your voice singing me to sleep
I hope you never leave my head

I saved a spot for you in my heart

waiting for it be complete

nowadays
I see no life

I'm learning about the world
I'm not learning anything about myself

each day
I **** myself a little more

waiting for an epiphany

couldn't be more thankful
so much I can't tell you

let me trace the moon
and the stars

I'd always fall short
nothing amounts to all the love

are you listening
are you listening

I miss you
even when I hate you

I miss you
even if we don't talk anymore

I miss you

can't stop my brain
all day
have our memories on replay

I miss you
sometimes it hurts to

Everyone I meet
wants to hide away

they want to cover up their name

they don't like their face

they write short poems

and stay anonymous

often talking with strangers
who don't know where I am

apologizing for leaving me alone
you don't remember us from five years ago

why do we pretend
spit it out

I left you
and we drifted away

no one ever calls me back
no one ever comes back

but if they do
I become paranoid

are they haunting me
why are they back

am I
someone to return to

warm milk
slipping through the stars

I've been wandering through the universe
for some time now

hearing dreamy soft sounds

dead rose falling apart
how to fix it
make it live

each breath I breathe
isn't helping me
stay alive

the dust around me
is astral
my lungs are slowly decomposing
from too much toxic

It's you
It was always him
her too
It's everyone

from your point of view
you see the old me
but I've changed
in the million years
floating away
you couldn't tell
how different I became