Wish you would fall with me
But I'm alone falling
I can hear the snoring
Sleeping with music
One day rain
One day sun
It's confusing us all
One day stars
One day clouds
Let's fall into the trees
I'm in a pause
I can't move
All I remember is your
Hands under my skirt
Making me feel lovesick
Butterflies in my stomach
Coming out of my mouth
Let's be lovesick
I'm falling
Need you to fall with me

I'm so tired
so are you

let's talk soon

I kept the scissors behind my back

you hurt me till the very end

I stopped growing in 2017

what does it matter now

somewhere
not here
it's raining

There's a storm
with lightning

not here
here it's one hundred and ten degrees (Fahrenheit)

My eyes are dripping with sweat

I hope that in somewhere
someone is beneath the rain

I wish I was somewhere
with someone

over the phone
I forget all the damage
you've caused

some days I want to cry
why am I going through this

it's all my fault
it's all your fault

don't call me
I don't want to talk about nonsense

I want to sleep with music on

dark summer nights
all I did was feel the cold air on my skin
sleeping late

humid air
mattress outside
I saw him smoke in the middle of the night

pounding on the walls
I want to fall down

drowning in my skin

now it's different

drowning in your sadness
inside your head

lost in my loneliness

I was hoping I could be the one to save me
dreaming
save me
stepping inside mirrors
save me

I was hoping
I could
be the one

Faces turned to walls

I was talking to the sky
my whole childhood
instead of my mom

I always hugged the moon goodnight
because my father
was never home at night

Walls hear all of the secrets
I slept without a worry
days seem so blurry

Where I would lay in bed
without a thought in my mind

I looked up to trees
and jumped so high
I couldn't breathe

Life seems smaller now
In ways
I can't remember
What it is to be young

My poor veins
carry my blood
so slowly

I'll soon be turned into a wall

I give myself away
again

you take me for granted

I love you so much
I'm blinded

does it matter what happens now

I feel so guilty about before

you can feed off of me

even if no one ever listens to me

I will always hear everything

who will ever

stay

you're my opposite
you're a lime
I'm a lemon

I got this feeling

a morning sun

my inbox empty
pages are ripped and burned
into the wind

I got this feeling
a late evening

I never saw you again
don't hurry
I'll see you again
don't worry

I got this heavy feeling
I'm sorry

sleeping with the windows open

three walls
everyone knows where I am

let me see you again
without feeling regret

I know this feeling
of plastic love

a love that is not real
I only imagined it

I'm just playing games

I'm comparing them side to side
i can't help it

i feel so unloved
i just want someone

but it's not the right time

he broke my heart
i can't find it

but if
pink and black
are your favorite colors
that's okay

they're mine too

I just want someone to hold me
hold me tightly

you can't save her
death is her savior
she wants to die forever

you're gonna hurt me
you'll **** me
with your words

his stare so soft
I can't forget what he's done

have no idea
of what we've become

a beautiful vision
I can see through your eyes

does it feel wrong or right

I'm lost

a beautiful
sound
the way you breathe in your sleep

do you dream of me
inside your head

slowly
and scary

how something so pretty and innocent
becomes dangerous and ugly

red rose dripping blood
you've cut out my heart why now
I'm a ****** mess

I want you to stay
I'm hoping you leave today
don't you see my heart

dripping blood I've loved
I held you in my bleeding
hands it was never enough

my broken heart lost
the mess you've made I'll forget
****** roses fall

maybe I'll leave soon
I know you want me too so
take a break I'm off

empty dark

we hold our hearts

silent darkness

no light shines in

this was us

hold me back
ripping off my skin

look away
the scars aren't fading away

I've lost my head
changing names

this isn't me
who are they

I can't remember who I was
was I ever someone
someone I can't remember
can I ever exist again

pushed into the deep end
I've been holding my breath

lost my way
looking back
you don't want to see inside my head

not one person
too many people

all this noise
where's my voice

a beautiful dream
now I'm a nightmare

cold wind
open up the windows

I want to feel it

cold thunder
bitter rain

my fingers are frozen

I still see you deep in my dreams
wearing a hoodie

we are nothing
yet we affect everything
everyone I touch dies

no one wants to be my friend
I've already seen this before

I'm always blind
I know why
I just like bad endings

feels like everyone is here
I'm so cold
we are in noir

open the door
there's a storm outside

everyone I touch turns cold
cold lightning
cool thunder

I'm so bitter

I have no home
I don't know where to go

anybody
anybody
is anyone awake

does anyone see real life

why is everyone trying to act like someone else

we lay our masks
beside us
as we sleep

the young
are dying

the fakes
have a crowd

I got a casket
my coffin
ready for the end

As the year is ending
I remember
What happened
In the beginning
And last year

I want to believe
It gets better

But it's like
I'm lying to myself
Oh I know tomorrow's weather
It's going to rain

It'll be a sunny day

Why can't I repeat today

As december collapses
On my shoulders

I feel myself drain
Somewhere down

I tell myself
Next year will be a change
Everything will be okay

Yet it's like
I'm lying
Promising
Something
Unreachable

I can't get it
I won't make it

Depressed
Laughs
False hope
I carry

Tomorrow
I'll have a ****** nose
The tears I cry
Come from my soul
Background voices
Never go

As I lay awake
In my cold bed

Maybe next year
It'll be different

I just can't feel it

I saw the devil enter your body
I watched you glow brightly
the way you smiled was frightening

you took your chances
kept on dancing

I can't find my way
you go to heaven and come back

I'm crazy
you're high
something or someone on your mind

I watch the devil leave
you look so weak

you can't reach heaven without the time

terrified

you let the devil inside
the walls are loud
the floors are shaking

I've seen the devil
he's the sparkle in your eyes

wonder why things are the way they are
doesn't make sense to me

days feel like a blur now
dreaming of the days I was a child

stressed out
tearing off my skin

dry hands
and chapped lips

we don't know

how to be grateful
how to be loved

talking behind your back
silent
talking really bad stuff

could you give me a hand
I'll give it back
when I can

I'm so tired
of life

overthinking the night

they don't know what its like to reach the end of the tunnel
without a glimpse of light

it's best not to ask anyone for favors
nor tell them your problems

your presence feels warm
as the sun

every cloudy day
I'm missing your face

hold hands
sometimes

you're only an echo
in my head

I whisper a flower goodnight
before cutting it apart
its petals kissed gently

the veins in the ocean
twist with mine

how did a lovely conversation
turn into an argument

nowadays
everything makes you mad
feels like I'm breathing in smoke
when I get too close

stuck in a twilight phase
don't see the moon coming up
nor the sun going down

feels like you're throwing knives
with each word you yell out
can't get anything right

sweating in the snow
I'm midway night and day
watching my every step

I'm falling asleep
I love it
I love this

my dreams feel like I'm living another life
I'm inside different worlds
parallel universe

I love it
help me fall asleep

let me breathe

I just want to live inside these dreams

I have to connect myself to an outlet
I'm drained out of energy

My friends
Beautiful days

I never noticed the trees then

My life
hard times

Its best of friends
We'll never see each other again


I'm running out of memories
I have little space

Please erase all past years pictures from my head

I'm trying to download your laugh
replay it
When you're away

I can't cry

I have no sense

Best of friends

Let me feel it
What they feel

All I feel is lost

you're overflowing
with words

trying to sleep

wish you could stop
if only I could close your mind

I still see the younger you
you're still lost in my eyes

have you ever stayed up till 12 in the afternoon

your mother doesn't really love you

he believes in no one
in nothing

empty faith

I pray you'll change

thinking about those hot summer days
stuck in traffic

I remember always looking over to you

in the backseat of a taxi
always counting down in my head
didn't want the moment to end

while our mother ranted to the driver
we stared out the window

the city never felt comforting

still find myself
thinking about that afternoon

I regret not leaving sooner
I regret not running away with you for a day

every time you'd leave
I didn't want to blink or let my tears fall

you're so cold
please stay warm

you don't ever listen
are you real or part of my imagination

I cover my tattoos
if you love me
I'll hate myself again

I'll ask you a question
I know the answer to

I've known you for a while
why are we still strangers

like two people passing eachother
on a busy street

I don't think we'll ever meet

twist
around
go to bed

maybe I'll find your heart tomorrow

Fullfilled
ghosts in the room
suns blowing inside
I know you love me more when I say nothing

So I don't speak
not a word

I think
not one thought

I come and go
You don't even know
You'll see me either in the morning or afternoon

I love him
I hate him
too much

My tears dry quicker than the water going down the drain

You don't see the stains
the sobbing

I love us all to much

I don't want to touch
distance keeping us so close

Blood is dripping out your mouth
my cheeks are wet and face red

Lying to my face

I speak not one word
Nor think

I love this house to much

I've been asleep since yesterday
He says he loves his eyes

Oh my
I'm always reminded

You pick a fight
And I want to wake up

This day never ends
Letting the wind
hug me to sleep

I'm daydreaming
of our beginning

Maybe he should call me next time
I'm still asleep

I can barely see the green

I feel like every word I speak
is random

Pick a hole in the sky
you came by
I only said hi

afraid
didn't make any eye contact

Small drops
on my arm
falling asleep
you won't leave

The word you talk of
I don't believe

Is it my loss of faith
have I become hopeless
in this endless summer heat

I lay lower than my bed
I feel lower

losing sight of the sky

picking a hole
so it can rain tonight

It was good morning till I woke up
I took one glance at the sun
Diving down
I don't want it
I can't help but love you
More than myself

losing myself in endless realities
I just want to love myself today
Let you go today

We can't touch
You can't be seen

So we hide
Until the stars are out

\ \

You ask me if I love the rain more than you

I really do

I love the moon more than you

I would pick anything over your
empty eyes

I loved you more than myself

Now
I love myself everyday

Letting you go
Today

I was waiting for the sun to go down
The clouds suddenly appeared
as if someone called them

I'm trying to make them go away
but the sky doesn't feel so sad
It doesn't want to cry tonight

Open doors
I messaged you I love you
You responded
Don't say that

I have to keep quiet
I'm turning into someone else
I'm not myself around you

The clouds
Where did they come from
He called for them

He said he had to

Won't he let me in
Come on

I know you're not yourself
When I'm around

I can't see the blue sky

he's playing with my eyes

He says he has to

I told her we must buy flowers again
feels like I'm dying

everyone loves to see my face
not so much hear my voice

it's a phase
you messed up again
try again

blue petals
we dream of a day

feels like we might die
in this cold sun

I'm praying your soul is resting
but you can't hear me

All of us
caught blind in a lie

were flying underwater
I learned from my mother

falling into a deep slumber

thunder screams
I'm scared of the bird
that flies around my room
living behind three walls
I know they can see it all

somebody
someone
at night
there's a fire in
the sky

Blue moon
I'll see you in my dreams
In my eyes
winds bright
touching far away leaves
distant trees
we need sleep
we need growth
I've been awake since last summer
Blue moons
So blue so pale tonight
I see my friends twinkle
Gods hold my heart
My love
telling me don't worry
dance sing smile love
Blue moon
I love you too
I know you do
the way you follow me around
Gods hold me to sleep
dancing in my dreams

Blue moon
I'll see you in my dreams
In my eyes
winds bright
touching far away leaves
distant trees
we need sleep
we need growth
I've been awake since last summer
Blue moons
So blue so pale tonight
I see my friends twinkle
Gods hold my heart
My love
telling me don't worry
dance sing smile love
Blue moon
I love you too
I know you do
the way you follow me around
Gods hold me to sleep
dancing in my dreams

we're all so worthless
you know it

you're everchanging
not so everlasting

throwing cigarettes on your bedroom floor
you're so numb you can't feel the cold

where's the ceiling
always falling to the floor

there's just something
special about you

can't figure it out
I get chills

I want to look like you
move like you do

visions and side effects
I know you will break my heart first
but I can break it twice

I always make people happy

I make laughs
And smiles

No one makes me happy
Or laugh , smile

I've lived in so
Many houses
I've never had a home

I swam in a swimming pool
So much water in my head
I drowned

I was deep down
I can't breathe air anymore


All i see from underwater is
Smiles
And the laughs

The blue waves
On the surface

I love it when I cry
my eyelashes look pretty

heavy
write guilty on my forehead
I move through the shadows
I love it when I catch you off guard
staring from afar
I see everyone
the family ghost
turn off the lights
open the door
write guilty on my forehead
I have no shame
living in this endless darkness
I know their flaws
I bathe in shame
wash
wash it all away
the key
is moving silently
scream in your head
you will hear everyone whisper
a mile away
I just want you to know
I'm guilty
I'm the one to blame
I'll never admit
maybe you should write it on my forehead