Cool eyes
Cold like ice
It's cliché
He spoke in a way
that made him a little older
a little wiser
I still remember the beginning
the day we lost him
I cried
and I couldn't hear anyone around me
The moon turned blue
Aqua
I won't be able to see him
I still forget
I try and call his number

I send him letters
wish him goodnight

I see him in the warm light
of the mornings

And in the pale moonlight
reflecting

I remember the beginning
now I'm living in his dream

when all the flowers fall
when the cold breeze touches my face

we never change for the better
we can't be any better

would you do it all again
would we go through it all again

do it all
do it all again

just to be sitting on the porch with my old friend
just to see us fall in love and fall apart

all the people I talk to
all
but none are you
are you coming back soon
do you hate me too
staring at the ceiling
you're such a pretty vision
inside this perfect daydream
do you even care
all the things I wish to say
will they turn to dust and
disappear
don't pretend to forget
I know you wont

I know it can be so simple

but it never is

not with me

tell me
how do I make you love me

valentine cards
flowers but no hearts

I want to push you
so you can fall for me

how do I make you want me

boy it can be simple

it never is

not with you

you're in front of me

tempted

you're so forbidden

I only want you more

lust clouds my judgment

I can't have you if you don't want me

I can't get to sleep
will you be with me

I can't close my eyes
will you talk to me

can't get
can't
can't get to sleep tonight

if you're right next me

looks like another endless night

I want to draw you close
so you can bring me closer

I want you to be my strength
my shield
from all the evil

clouds in my room
moon's hiding under my bed
the sun is on the other side of the blankets

whitewater
eating your fire

I have the earth in my room
trying to find the universe

turn off all the lights

peaceful mornings
birds chirping
feels like there is nobody

Nothing makes me more happy

I'll be able to see my best friend
Before morning

Orion it's nice to see you again
Winter is coming

You like everything
I like

If I say the stars
Aren't stars

The sun is dead
The trees are talking through the wind

You'll believe
Every word I say

Around you
You are me

I am you

We're combined

Whatever you love
I love

If water is poison

Night is day
Day is night

I'll believe it

if I think of you every second that passes
will you dream of me
while you sleep

you make me giggle
I hate it

the way I smile
because of you

I want to tell you everything
suddenly I'm so shy

I want to know everything
why do you have to be shy too

let's just sit
in this comfortable silence

while my heart beats
so fast I hope
you can't tell I'm nervous

I'm not mad it's not me
I'm sad
I know it will never be me
with anyone at all

go on and be happy
with someone else

we're not friends
since our ending

I was so confused
when I saw the picture

the necklace around her neck

heart stopped beating
I guess it will never be me

not with you
never with anyone

I think I'll stay in bed
longer today

go on
go as a dream

drifting away
so swiftly
when I wake up

you're lucky
and I just feel empty
like always

this is what is supposed to be

give me your sadness
give me your flaws
I'll swallow them down
I'll hate myself
drinking down my tears
I can't take this

your flaws
my sadness
goodbye
I'm not fine
it's okay
I'm so fine
I lie
our love is a lie

so easy to hate you
never a time to love you

my tears taste like aspirin
I love all my bad friends
we fall through the floor every night

I think she hasn't ate in a week
he's indecisive he's on fire
I can't keep up they're so high

a bottle a night
smile for the money
passed fifteen red lights
nothing can stop me

haven't blinked in ten minutes
can't feel my hands
hold them down

spin
spinning down

crazy what you'd do for a friend

I keep your laugh in a box
So I can hear it whenever I want

Keep a smile in a bag
put it on


Need a hand
to hold
ran out of those

When will we get to forever
She said I'll love you there

stuck between 3 walls
I still can't get out
looking at her

I hear voices outside
inside
somewhere close by

flowers don't die
don't fade away and vanish

don't ask me about the future
I don't plan on making it that far

I don't wish for tomorrow
I left my courage inside yesterday

I lied
I don't think I'll be here next month
I lied
I said it's fine
really
I'm so terrified
starting to cry
let me take it all back

don't make me think so far
the vast
corruption of my mind

I'm not making any plans

everything is so temporary
feels like
I never existed

There used to be a day
where I would talk to you all day
ride the bus to your house

things have changed
now are the days
where I haven't talked to you in months
haven't seen you since then

there will be a day
where we meet again
perhaps talk as if nothing happened

I hope you are hurting
just as I am

Waking up to a storm
Turn away I have to fall back asleep

Happy birthday
It's August

Wake up early
Can't fall back to sleep

This week feels strange
is the moon playing tricks with my mind

I didn't think I would make it to August
Here I am

Confused
What are my goals again?

I could fall asleep around noon
Maybe I'll figure it out tomorrow

All the noise in my head
Doesn't let me sleep

the sacrifice
only to receive lies

hope you don't mind
the light that radiates

the conclusion
to a new beginning

my fingers stopped moving
for a lasting time

when I gazed at your eyes
I recognized me drowning inside

without you
I use to believe
I was nothing

the blank spaces
the space between your words
and the notes

I'm holding a torch
burning with my fears

I loved you here
I loved you there

I loved you
in sunlight
in the moonlight

underwater
in my veins
up in the clouds
in my head

they're out to catch
they won't find me

miss the windy nights
walking in the dark

you're were so close
so far away

I wasn't fast enough
can't match your pace

you always walked ahead

wait for me
I'll be ahead soon

I'll catch up

we can run together
somewhere they can't see us

go wild
get drunk

I want to buy the night sky
you can have what's mine

I want to talk about my day
no lies or secrets mixed in

I want to smile and laugh
feel it running through my veins

I'm wishful
so hopeless

I forget you
again
you're still crawling inside my head

I hope you don't judge
I'd hate to see that look in your eyes

I had an awakening yesterday
I'll sleeping it away

I know if I told you
we feel the same
everything will be okay

but there's a little voice in my head
telling me you don't

maybe you don't feel the way I do

I'll cry with you
I'll forget your real name
I love your dark side
I love the demons in your head
I make them go away

I'll let you lay your head on my shoulder
I won't leave you alone

I make things look so easy
in my head
I drown

before I even see the surface

I'm trying to make it through

I'll give you my light
I'll carry the weight

to keep your pretty smile

so far away
it takes to say  
when will you come again
I wait
I remember
so far away
for you to come say
once again
leaving
not caring to tell me
this dream isn't so sweet
so far away
a life of you and me
I keep wishing
whispering to the stars
to keep you close
so far away
you look so close
a light so distant
blinking out
when will we meet again
feels like one of these days

so far away
a love so warm
distant
I'll never reach it

Keep on saying
that you've burned all the bridges

you jumped down
hit your head

Please help me
like I did

You've left me alone again
Drive into the city

Please don't forget about my heart
My head doesn't sleep
I dream about you some days

You're breaking down
I'm always there when you're at your lowest

So please understand
that I'll need you
when I'm drowning

you can't find your brain
eating down all your lost words

I'm older
hold on tighter

I'm so behind
you're right next to me now

so afraid to run away
I'll lose my breath

I've fallen
hidden away

I won't remember your name
I'll stop talking

you don't have to think about it

I'm sad

the pain never ends for you and I

where do I go
slipping away

have I slept this way
so many days
I've gone insane

I'm waking up again
this doesn't feel right
walking out
how big is this cage

I'm chained
prisoner to my head

I can't escape
no one sees me anymore

invisible
I can feel the darkness spreading

I recognize this darkness
unforgettable

it covers me
in my sleep

I never see it coming
have I reached the bottom

maybe I'm your worst friend

maybe
I don't deserve you

I forgot your birthday
don't know your mom's name
haven't seen you in ages
we talk in simple sentences

I know
I'm your worst friend

if you leave
I deserved it

you're too nice
I'd never take advantage
maybe I hold on because you're all I have

you're my best friend
you deserve better

how many lips have you kissed
that aren't mine

we spin in circles
a hundred times

bring me the poisoned fruit
I'll fall from the sky

take me to a place
I can look into your eyes

speak out my brain
I carry my heavy shame
I don't want you to think about me

you look pretty when you're happy
and I love it more when you're angry

how many hands have touched your skin

we circle around eachother

I can't reach the center

how many days have I loved you

how many hours can I forget you

not long

I sleep
you appear
in the corner of my mind

I wake up
you appear
on the corner of my bed

how many times will I convince myself you'll stay

why don't we talk together
why can't we walk together
why can't we love together

everyone wants to be the moon
touch the stars
and kiss the sun

everyone is secretly sad
that sad gleam in their eyes
confusion covers it all

I don't want the moon
I don't want the sunrise

I want my broken heart fixed
I want the voices to quiet down

trying my hardest
everyone looks away
dealing away
with their mess

to busy helping ourselves
we don't look at eachother

you taught me
nothing lasts forever

so
young
and
hopeful

put on a show
everyone is watching now
I feel their stares tickle down my legs

smile in vain
looking at him
quick to respond
I've never felt this fond but I'm over the moon now

all these bad sounds
I hear your stare the loudest

silent star

smile for the liars

gun to my head
I was told to swallow down my emotions

crying for all the robots who will never love me back

I am the dying sun
I am nothing and everyone loves me

I write sequels
skipping the introductions

I've lived
a million lifetimes

with a melting curiosity
what is life

I lost myself
when
I loved you

jumped into a black hole
to love you more

everything hurts

I hope no one finds out

I miss you
I'll miss you forever

I miss the people I can't have
I miss the temporary places
all these fading feelings

miss my emotions
miss all the burnt pages
don't hurt me

forever
coming down
to haunt me

miss loving you
miss loving myself too

thought I was doing fine

my skin is tearing apart

all my wounds never heal

running away from my past mistakes

catching up they always do

I'm doing fine

I believed

counting down the days for nothing

I think I'm okay

trying not to think at all

I know
You're there for me to hug at night

But when you fall to the floor
I wake up
and cry

I'm going crazy trying to find the light
Holding the same line
That electrocutes my mind

Down the rabbit hole
One last time

Instead of wonderland
I end up
In the nothingness
Of my head

I'm tired of seeking
The wrong things
That mess up my whole day

I sleep so ready for tomorrow
The morning comes
I feel like I'm repeating a cycle

it's fine if I cry underwater
if I let my tears fall
they won't notice
mixed with salt

I like to talk about the moon
he's somewhere behind the thick clouds

If only I was a cloud
somewhere in his sky

can't you see me
I can make it rain down

I can make the wind talk
can't you hear it

I wear the night
swallow the daylight

lead the way
the moon is rising

a billion girls love him
a billion boys stare

the moon keeps to himself

I was waiting for you come
the sky was changing
I waited for you to call

I kept hearing my friends
say don't believe him anymore

I refuse to let go
I don't really want to know

If this isn't love
should I let go

glass filled with wine
drunk for another night

it's alright

I'll wait

for you answer me
I want to believe

that maybe you really want something too
this might be a feeling or two
I hope that you notice it
within the distance of our bodies
trying to connect

getting drunk once again
to forget that you close off
your heart
and ignore what I say

please just stay
please don't go

the smile and look on your face
tells me different
then what you want to say

Is this just all make believe
all just a stupid fantasy
that I created myself

I wonder if you'll ever
really know

  A glass of wine
for the time
you ignored my feelings
showed you my heart
torn apart

I deny all the signs

maybe get drunk
again to forget

that you'll never admit
the true emotions
flowing within
our hearts

you'll have to tell me no
don't go

I'm drunk on this illusion
of your loving
and saying yes

even if they tell to let go
it's going to work
I suffer continue to ignore

believe that you do
and maybe that you want to

I'm telling you
please don't go

I hate you so much today

I'm feeling stupid

enough to say

I hope you regret it all

maybe one day I won't come back home
it will be all your fault

maybe one day I won't open the front door
I'll just be a ghost in your head

i just want to say

or type

goodnight

I'm afraid
you're falling for me

you don't know what true love is


you like the feeling of falling
spinning in circles till you're convinced
you are in love with the feeling

don't be shy
tell me now

let's be best friends
let's hate the world
it's them against us

just lean your head on my shoulder
you're warmer
I'm colder

I couldn't be more in love

If this is the feeling
I don't want to ruin it

The desire
to live
in the night
unholy
shadows
hidden whispers

Where do you hide

maybe today
I want to wear a dress
or tall shoes

dressed however I want
not the way you want me to

I'll grow my hair
or cut it short
your opinion doesn't matter anymore

I don't care for those who stare
you are my blood
won't you accept me

I'm hiding
it's tiring

sad thing

I hide for your sake
not mine