Let's play a game
I lie to you
You lie to my face
Try and forget
Never going to see your face
Miles away
Is your heart really alive
Feels like its died
So now I have to pretend
It's alright
Smile when you fake smile
Hug you and feel depressed
Don't want to live in a perfect square
With you not there
The sky has changed
The sun has been misplaced
Looks like a new world
Where you don't exist

glitter down the sink
you saw me screaming at my mom
was I wrong
I just wanted for us to get along

even if this love washes away
you left a memory inside me

fireworks
are exploding
in my heart

but you only see them up
in the sky

our smiles
so wide
disappeared
like a camera's flash

you'll know soon

how bright my heart
glows when you're around

happy new year's

I love the big teddy bear you bought me
even though I'm too old for it

blooming in this cold winter
your still the prettiest flower

I think your the only human I love
I tried smiling in videos
so you would smile

I know you'll always grow
each season coming up

your the garden of Eden
in the form of human

happiness doesn't come often

empty

this is the part where I feel sad

more and more

better than nothing

better than feeling numb

better than waiting for satisfaction

now I don't how to stop it

more and more

You're my favorite
I know you don't accept it

I hope you do
When you lay alone

Think of me beside you
gone
I'm not there anymore

I'm who gives you love
Leaves you after a while.
I'm the one
Who sees the little things

I take care of you
You're my favorite

I know you'll never give yourself

I'm no fool

Never see me coming
Giving you joy
I'm your sun
I'm the one who brings the wildflowers to bloom

I'll be there when you need me the most
You're my favorite

Some nightmares are so vivid
they follow you into reality

Crying tears of fear
Oh I like the sound of blood curdling

Were handing out knives

So in love
Feels like lust
I'm just so lost

It's so dark
I'm just following your voice
Sounds like cold blood

Pressure on my veins
It's the only way
To feel the same

Here
We meet
Sinister face

I'll be the echo
Narcissus

slowly killing me
Pleasantly

he taught me the wrong ways to love

his love was always a knife my throat

lost the definition of trust

is this all your love

is this what I need

I think the devil is after me
can feel it in my bones
everytime I'm alone
someone crawls into my head
filled with demons he sends
he tells them to stay still
slowly I'll destroy myself

Writing about the stars
I haven't seen the night sky in days

I realize I could be talking of
Mars
Jupiter
and Venus

Please wait
let me turn the lights off

Stay with me


I'm trying
sleep never comes

I never notice my eyes fall shut

I don't notice the sun is up

Stay beside me

things moving in the dark

Fall asleep with me
till my eyes see through the shadows

and the stars turn hollow

now it's over
I was waiting

I didn't want anyone to notice

it was nobody's fault

I'm too nice
to everyone

kindness
synonym for weakness

being nice doesn't
make me feel safe

being nice doesn't
make me feel loved

nowhere to run

it's over
no more talking

all said and done
it's nobody's fault

I don't want to be nice anymore

don't ask me for favors

I don't want to talk
don't wait for my response

it's all his fault
let's not pretend

I want everyone to know

I'm not angry
I'm not bitter

I don't care anymore

believe me
I am moving on

Why doesn't this hell of a website have a **** app yet? It would be a dream ¿¡

I still fall asleep thinking about
the night I messaged you goodnight
while you slept in the other room

we haven't spoke in years
it never feels like tomorrow


I hoped one day you would miss me
call me to say you're sorry

some relationships are never fixed
some are nonexistent

one day I'll buy white roses
think of you for a second or two

I'm now a nocturnal animal
don't ask me how
I will teach myself to love dawn

study the moon and sun close together
just for a short while

all good things are temporary

cold and lonely
somebody hold me

restless again
I see no sleep today
maybe tomorrow

how could I know

your heart was beating so fast
and your body so cold

you tried to overdose

why didn't I know
I can't imagine
I can't imagine
I can't imagine

losing you

please don't let me imagine
don't let me ever think about losing you ever again

it makes me so mad
so sad
to know you hurt yourself

I can't help you
I can't hug you

I can only see you drown from a distance

Oh i think
I'm torturing myself

The way my eyes burn
And i still type

These words aren't
Leaving my brain

And I'll be dead asleep
Before i do anything else

In this storm
I realize
Lightning flashes are to fast
My eyes can't ever catch the light
I felt the thunder rumble inside my chest
It wasn't raining anymore
But I could still hear it falling
We don't feel the rain too often
We don't hear the sound close
The wind is blowing in my face
Lightning lights up the room
It almost feels like
The end of the world soon

In this storm I realize
I feel so safe

all around me
is a blue house
blue room
blue reflections
of myself
everything
I needed
is for you to take
I feel so safe
knowing it's
all going to end
I know you're cold
you're the ice
never did I see your face
warm
how many times
did I imagine
that your frozen
heart
was mine
Every word
you spoke
was only to burn me down

In this storm
I need to go

I regret saying it
I regret it everytime
after
why did I say it that way

maybe you don't deserve my kindness
I wanted to be more than polite

now it feels like a
dead kite in a puddle

I'm sorry for me too
but I don't forgive you

can we mark this day
if you never answer
maybe its for the best

you were never there
searched for a light a million times

the one day I didn't answer back
you draw a line

it's unfair the way you treat me
like I'm nothing

if you hate me now
I'm truly happy

I can hate you too

where do we go
where did everyone disappear to

stuck inside our heads
we forget to look outside

I'm slowly forgetting the way
I used to smile in spring

winter is coming
don't let my heart go cold

I don't want to lose everything
to know

don't leave
don't go

if I was nicer
would you stay

tell me all the ways I hurt you
don't lie

honesty sounds like criticism
they're not sensitive
they just don't want to change

hiding inside a wall
you can hear us all

hate me
love me

I don't care
I'm getting there

alone
with or without you

I'll get there

Can we be friends
Can't we just talk

So many clouds
no rain at all

I haven't seen the sun in days

My heart feels like plastic
I hate summer
I don't want it to end

She's angry
She's still talking happy

Asking about your plants
yes their still alive
I look over them
time to time

I hear the rain
miles away

I carry the wind
whispering inside

Run away
I'm not going to fight

Can we be friends

terrified
Of
opening my heart to you

Something might go wrong

It always does

trying to get closer to you

I'm waiting for the rain

I see the clouds

Not one
single drop
has fallen

you're a sudden thunderstorm
lightning out of nowhere

the lights go out
I question the rain

where have you been
my dear

I thought I'd miss you forever
I never wanted to hate you but I did
I thought I'd love you forever

why's it have to be like that
we broke away so quietly

I didn't notice you leaving
waiting for you to come back
months passed
spring
summer
autumn will be the end

you're that dark cloud
looming over my apartment
while the sun shines on the other side

give it up
I don't miss you
I don't hate you
I don't love you
anymore

the storm will pass

even though I'm not living happily
I'm living to feel it again

Should I remind you
I'm a broken mess
can't be fixed

All I want to do is go
I won't sleep
No goodnight for you

Please stop crying
don't ever worry

We all want understanding
what about empathy

Where's the love

I'm not the type
to open my heart

I only open it
to myself

Full moon soon
endings comfort me

letting the feelings sit
I can't rip them in half
like I did to your note

I'll let them stay
till they rot
in the back room

never will settle
you've got to tell me
to go
before I do it myself

so unbalanced
uneven picture frame
of us in my mind

I wish I could just erase
all the precious moments
I can't get back

unsatisfied
or glorfied
there's no peace
with you

if you could say sorry
would you?
bury me if I asked you to?

do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it
do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it


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tell me

Do I deserve anything

No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No

I don't

Sometimes birds look like black stars
In the morning sky

die a little
think about old memories
faster and faster

is this how we drift away

again
here we go again

will we lose each other
again
and again

how many times do I have reach out

we're slipping away

they're pulling away

we're making other friends
everyone is moving on

I can't find the words to make them stay anymore

can we make this work

am I selfish
when I say
god won't save you

Falling and falling
I think my favorite
Thing is
I think I love you
Once I think about it
I don't
Safe
So alone
The walls are my friends
All they do is scream
Jumped and jumped
I didn't know you spoke
French until now
I'm sick of all this noise
I preferred to hear silence
Then the constant static
In my ear
It's all I ever listen to
When I sleep
And wake up too

I wish I had the heart to love you
the way you deserve to be loved
I can't comprehend

there's no ending
I reach into the void
no one ever reaches the abyss

I wish I had the brain to understand you
the way you deserve to be listened to
I can't love

living in the void
there's no beginning to this ending

Snaking through the slender grass
I'll cry tears of sugar with the ants

She has a beautiful glow
To bad with a small blow
She'll fly away

I've met an angel
she said my name

I love her now

always away

never the one to stay

should've known an angel
would never be mine

I'm an honest person
If you can take it

Sometimes I read poems on here
and think
How did you make it?

people go through a pain
people then hold their hands
caring is often important in
friendship
but not in mine

no one holds my hand

I'm not sad

I just know
how to get my way around
being alone

It's the sound of silence
That gives me comfort

That I will know your
Next move
Or someone coming

It's silence that
Keeps me safe

Even if it's scary
Not to hear nothing

sitting on a used bed
your presence disappeared into the pillow sheets

opened a journal
like a treasure map

running around
trying to get me back

hiding inside a box
without a lock

almost died
I cried
bled
felt the end of the world

everyone knows me
that's not the truth

pages
I spilled myself on

under a lake

asking myself
why does my heart
feel so heavy

can't hold a pen

I hear odd sounds
as if I lived underwater

presents
a book filled with empty pages
standing in front of me

I should know

I'm running away
from myself

I know myself
that's not the truth

////
don't come looking around for someone who doesn't exist
don't go loving someone who doesn't feel the same
\\

i never knew
that i had
everything
until now
that i have
nothing

Hey clouds
I'm feeling down
I wish I had the sky to myself

in this house without a roof
I lay in bed

letting go
missing myself
I can't go

I want to feel

a tear

Hey cloud
I once rained
till I became nothing

It's okay to let go
Don't lose yourself

finally it's spring
the trees are coming back to life
so am I

I found a little green leaf today
I feel life all around me

more flowers
and dandelions along the sidewalks

there's no wishes for me
to wish for

I stay hopeful
for anything anywhere

can't reach high enough
even when I felt so down

I live in such a blue world
the living and dead
so cold

Insanity is keeping me
from ever having a straight face

Held my favorite song
Wrapped it around myself
Like a soft blanket

Now I'm hearing it
As if it's my pillow
Laying down

I know there's bugs outside
Wanting to be inside
I'm scared I'll be sleeping

I don't think
I love you anymore

It's disappearing
Evaporating
Into the clouds

You want to
walk into the sunshine
Wearing all black
You'll sob

I caught myself
Skipping your song

You've become someone else
I have no words
Just a bowl of thoughts

You've never been real
Since day one
I remember the days
where I would try to impress you
nothing would work

I never seem to think about you anymore
only when mentioned

I hope to not see you soon
I don't want your face
Printed in my head

You weren't significant

Lucky me
I don't see you in my dreams

you take me back
you remind me of all the good feelings

I feel frustrated
I'm so sick of this weather

I wish I could call you at midnight
the magical hour when my heart opens
I'd spill out my secrets I'd tell you everything you don't know

I'm giving up
I'm letting go
I'm holding on
I'm off and on

I've been feeling like a lost cause
please stay up
I need to see your voice

so I've let my hair grow
you know
it's I don't know
soft
wavy
curly
sparkling
under the sun

I remember he told
I can spot you from a crowd
with your gorgeous hair

so I've let my hair grow
you don't know
it just means
a lot
right now