Feels like I never left
I know that at the end of the street lights
You get closer

believe me
I need help
believe me
I don't need you
I'm okay
I run away
letting go
hold you closer
my voice
blows like the wind
can't you feel it
don't you hear it
believe me
everything is okay
I need you
I'm not okay
I don't want help
I run away

straight lines
that unwind you

doesn't really mean that I love you

I have flowers on my desk
and kitchen
in every other room
you could put them in

what happens when they die
will you buy more
smells so pleasing

all these empty faces
going to lost places
falling stars
****** scars
holding his trembling hands
painting our nails for fun

his smiles are cryptically
insane

you got the sky on your shoulders
do you want me to hold the
moon in one hand and
the stars in the other

he says
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you


why did you go and sleep with someone else

Everyone is gone
fearful of the cold
stay home
where you're warm

I don't dare trespass
into your space

but I really want to be with you

I'll give you a few more days

I really like you

If I write you a book
would you believe me then..

I heard their laugh
bouncing off the high clouds

shining
glowing
from afar

do you know it's me

I want to **** the sun
though
without it
how will I call the moon
when the sun dies

someone find a way

I can't go see her in
the heavenly
black pit

I wish I could stand up for something
I believe in nothing

she writes
out flowers
throws and picks out
the petals
everyone loves her

not me
I let them die
in between pages
no one really cares

In your embrace
your shirt smells weird
I know you were drinking beer

let's not talk about it
and keep cuddling

haven't spoken a word
you want to fight
it's like there's a void
every night

you said

that you are tired

of me living underwater



and that you want to drain

my swimming pool again



that i have to be cleansed

and renew



i'll swim far far away from you

i breathe in chlorine water now

Blue lights

Will you ever fall for me

I'm changing
I've lost myself before

Will you look for my love

I'm growing up

I'm accepting things
I don't want to

It's peaceful
the moment you fall asleep

Worries disappear

A beautiful white dream


I'm dreaming

A dream of dreams that dreaming children have

if I ever leave

there's a million others
thinking about you

I'm not one

I am nothing

I accept it

I feel like everything

imagine a dream scenerio

where I can hear the waves

the wind picks up my spirit

I have it all

My words aren't so deep
They only reach a river's depth

Yet when you write
It's like I'm out by the sea
Your words are layers
Under the earth's soil

I only achieve to describe a tree's leaf
You'll write out the roots

I'm your porcelain doll
Hoping I won't fall

Being with you is like
Dreaming in a dream

You couldn't get any better to me

I don't want to come down from your love

Heart stops

Let me fall

Sad girl
no control
why my dreams don't come true

you left a bitter taste in my head

all the birthday gifts I bought you
meant nothing

you're another mistake on my list

why did I tell you all my secrets and dreams

you left a crack on the walls I built

but I never let you inside

now it's feels so good

it was too good to be true

where did all our delusional dreams go

I'll find someone new

you don't deserve me

throw me away

I think you'll regret all of your decisions

I say

was anything

everything we did

does it have any worth

now all I feel is worthless

all the minutes seconds and hours we spent together feel like a waste of time

i miss the sound of your voice

i saw you in my dreams last night
i can't tell you
what i did

i'll stay
till you tell me to go

i don't think you will
you don't know how to let go

i love the version of you
i created in my head

don't talk
you'll ruin everything

i want you to be
who i want you to be

why can't you be
the perfect boy i imagined

obsessions
i'm summoning you in my dreams
before i go to sleep

i hope you don't care about me anymore

i follow you
around like a fool

i like the feeling
of losing you

heard your voice from far away
I hope you quiet down so I can sleep

one drop
two drops
five
it's drizzling outside

drinking a cup of cold cold milk in the rain
teaching myself how to breathe again

catch a falling cloud
sitting around

learning how to breathe
drinking a cup of cold milk in the rain

I'm afraid
you answer the call
I send a cold message

I'm a big baby
please don't raise your voice at me
I look away
far from the rage in your eyes

I'm happysad
happy you've reached the possibilities
sad you're doing nothing

cold messages
excessive tears
I'd give you all my thoughts
know how I feel

calling
calling
don't tell me

cross the invisible line
my ghost follows behind

no one wants to talk to me
that's fine with me

but what will everyone do
when they want someone to listen

I'm turning away
no one wants to talk to me

crawling back so soon
they all know I'm so useful

I'm a little manipulative
they think they're using me

I know what I'm doing
what I'm saying

everything I plan ahead

I don't want to talk to anybody

tell me what your feelin
tell me how to cope with it

call on u
calling me out too
forward in the sun
the wind blowing
in our faces
waves are still crashing
back home

tell me
lack of communication
no motivation
complications

sleeping in hotel rooms
you won't find me there

why won't you tell me

tell me
keeping me close

coming down
the guitar strums

eyes gently closed

we'll become ourselves
through each other

I'm dizzy
trace you onto me

you twist with my emotions
I'm innocent
you noticed

I'm quiet
you realize

I'm shy
I'm not naive

you don't know that

give me the bottle
giggles tangled in the loud music
my body feels lucid

you have a liar's love
I found myself
dizzy in your hands

I lost myself in your eyes
I'm still trying to come back

I don't trust you one bit
still
I want your touch

agree to disagree

If this isn't my life
I hope I find it another time

If I don't find the place
the perfect minute
I'll live

Who stops me
from destroying myself?

Take off my head
Take my breath
Spill the toxic chemicals that **** my brain
the demons in my body
have no home

Hair of stars
They're falling out
Looking for younger life

I'm dying out
all the light
I once illuminated
****** into my own black hole

I'm stuck inside today
so I don't try tomorrow
so I don't love myself
so I keep giving up

Who keeps me awake

What keeps me from living the life
I wanted

I hope
I don't

The broken mirror
I went inside
Stuck inside today
I can't reach tomorrow

Vacant
Faith

can we play hide and seek
forget about everything
can we play
this game never ends
I'm so lonely
I see no stars
nothing to wish upon

She says
she feels a burst of emotions
within colors and shapes

Am I blind
did I not hear her words right

I feel like I'm from another planet

She reads art

I told her I felt a fire inside me
within the words and their meanings

Is she blind
did she not hear me right

I feel like she's from another planet

The way art transcends into our souls differently
is fascinating

Hey
Have you forgotten about me

// so soon

No
I won't let that happen

I'm never going to leave

When you don't want to hear from me

I'll be there
to
say something


Forget I exist
I'll see you next spring

the flowers bloom
in my presence

The trees are finally breathing

You can't forget me

I am the sun you wake up to
and the moon that disppears
when you want it to

I don't feel real

call me by my name
forgot the sound
when it leaves someones lips

pennies
and coins
don't make noise

sit a little closer
I can't see
your face

turned away

rain
clouds
you

all I think
is

you
   you  
        you

I know
you won't

I see you
and
I forget the concept of words
and
I lose my tongue

well
thank
you
for charming me
I  
know
it
wasn't
you intention

sit closer
can you see my eyes

well
apples
and
pears

you
        you
                  you


are right here