November
is my old friend
whos hands I shake
coldly she always behaves
she comes in a mourning time
the moon cries in vain
November
she whispers goodnight
to the trees
navigates her way down south
with the golden butterflies
running for their lives
kisses me gently
I only see her once a year
the bitterness
in her heart
stays with me
all winter long
calling my name
I shiver

Love
And
Hate
I don't know
I wish I knew

Cool eyes
Cold like ice
It's cliché
He spoke in a way
that made him a little older
a little wiser
I still remember the beginning
the day we lost him
I cried
and I couldn't hear anyone around me
The moon turned blue
Aqua
I won't be able to see him
I still forget
I try and call his number

I send him letters
wish him goodnight

I see him in the warm light
of the mornings

And in the pale moonlight
reflecting

I remember the beginning
now I'm living in his dream

My demons tell me to close my mouth
or else they'll come out

I haven't spoken a word
writing down everything is much safer

I've seen people question my existence
telling me if I lie everyday
Who's the real me

What's your name

I have multiple versions of myself
I'm always someone else
depending who you are

What's your name

I don't have a age
Its just my soul

I'm only a ghost

I'm the monster under your bed

The real me lies inside my head
She watches tv all day

I Plug in a charge to my wrist
for tomorrow's energy

I spit out fire when I'm angry

I tell my demons to be quiet or out
They'll have to move somewhere else

I've spoken almost about everything

Now everyone is scared to be my friend

out and about
sometimes the people we love the most
hurt us until we're left broken

off and high
feelings blue
I look for places that accept my head
I'm in between two cultures
I can't speak with two tongues

we all have the same colored blood
we all breathe through our lungs
someone sits upon a throne thinking they deserve it more than me

someday
I will find the courage to say hello
if not in a dream first

I'm going to make you suffer

you deserve it

I like it

don't try and run away

the lies you fed me

easy to pick apart

when you broke my heart

I knew better

pulled myself together

I'm going to pretend

just like you did

shadows follow you

haunting your dreams

revenge is all I need

is that the truth

when times are rough
I pull you up

I comfort you
out of sympathy

I can't feel anything for you

you pushed me down
you always get my hopes high

lie to me
that's all you ever do for me

you're that bad influence
the hidden poison

I'll never know
if it's the truth

There's always a perfect world I imagine
That doesn't have me inside it

we wear the feelings
then take them off

now you're gone
gone

fading
fading
letting go
so you'll be forgettable

game over
you destroyed me

now you're leaving

wearing off
the feeling is gone

not again
it's happening

I have to pretend
it's okay

I should have a good day tomorrow
I say as I fall asleep
I should be productive
I think as I lay in bed in the morning

Nothing really gets to me
I'm also dissatisfied
Nothing is interesting
I crave everyone's attention

I say things that I'll never do
I try and be someone better
It just never works out

put on a show
everyone is watching now
I feel their stares tickle down my legs

smile in vain
looking at him
quick to respond
I've never felt this fond but I'm over the moon now

all these bad sounds
I hear your stare the loudest

roses die
violets aren't blue
I guess we lie
a little too much for our own good

february
slow down

everything is coming back to life
all I see is green
trees flourishing

petals fall
the sky is blue
I tell the truth
even when I lie

Being positive doesn't help
because you are depressed and suicidal
no one listens
every time you try and speak
your tongue
curls up
it swims down
your stomach
lays there
till you fall asleep
it comes back to you in a dream

lost alone in life
          I'm drifting away from you
                                      cold water cold rain
                                         
                                                     /

                                         lost alone with you
                             everyone drifts away now
                    warm lights warm faces
                                                           ­          \
                                                               ­                           forever in this
                                                            ­                      everlasting ending love
                                                            ­                           missing you and I

There's a brief moment
of love at first sight
the moon can kiss the sun

cold rushed to my head

All seemed so fine
the shortest day
messed up my head

I smiled
sun down
I smiled
Moon rise

what do you think about love
real love

do you want real love
are you feeling love drunk

focus on me
let's talk about love

are you lovesick
playing hide and seek

you're a loveholic
romance is everything
it's always love first

let me hold you together
I want to see you grow
let me see you fall apart

I'm your lonely bird
be my lovely bird

let me see you fly
I cut off my wings for you
let me see you cry

my lover
you have your world
come and see mine

don't run away
you are my universe

I've been thinking about
now answer
what do you think about love

can't get a break
from all the things I hate

I come and go
doesn't feel so good
the guilt washes away
summertime
I have to drown my mind
living underwater
no one can see me now
I'm here and there
I want to stay
I want to go
leave all by myself
leave me all alone

see new places
new faces

how much more of my life can I throw away

I have your back
Even though you judge me
Lightning fast

I don't laugh at
Your jokes
So you will look
Ridiculous

I will pay Our
Ice cream even though
You shouldn't have any

I will hug you
With my eyes
Wide open

And hate you tomorrow
Morning

We are always
Something
To
Nothing

In this storm
I realize
Lightning flashes are to fast
My eyes can't ever catch the light
I felt the thunder rumble inside my chest
It wasn't raining anymore
But I could still hear it falling
We don't feel the rain too often
We don't hear the sound close
The wind is blowing in my face
Lightning lights up the room
It almost feels like
The end of the world soon

In this storm I realize
I feel so safe

all around me
is a blue house
blue room
blue reflections
of myself
everything
I needed
is for you to take
I feel so safe
knowing it's
all going to end
I know you're cold
you're the ice
never did I see your face
warm
how many times
did I imagine
that your frozen
heart
was mine
Every word
you spoke
was only to burn me down

In this storm
I need to go

don't go too far down
don't go
check
and see
what is unwanted
of me

stay a little higher
then blink away

don't go far away  
you'll lose your breath
it's cryptic
it's deeper
darker

don't find my buried bones
don't go finding a skull
you might not like what you see

blink away
stay a little higher
up ground

where I don't seem like a lonely weeping monster

Am I
your doll?

Do you think
you can drag me anywhere you want

drop me
wherever you like

every time
I break

you expect to see me in perfect conditions

Am I
your doll?

You'll never care now
I realized years ago
These blue days come back

Still wish you did care
Want to give a little bit
Time I think it's time

Sad songs in the dark
I'll throw my dreams drain myself
You don't see my heart

I think I found love
within the letters you type

forming words
I've read a thousand times

suddenly they feel so different

I'm trying to know

I'm confused
keeping a distance

no goodnight kiss
no good morning message

promise
me a
goodbye

I think I've fallen
into a toxic puddle
of unknown chemicals

my mistake

It's my mistake

you should try being happy sometimes
you were always sad
never heard you laugh
or see you smile

miserable and lonely
I didn't want to be an ear

something good can work
unfortunately we didn't

you told me a story
I didn't listen to the last part

I've been thinking
was I too mean
to leave
was it too impulsive

I gave you a song
you will keep it forever

you gave me a song
I kept it to myself

it's a bittersweet ending
but I'm happy

bleeding into the day
whispering to the sky
hug me to sleep

let me be my own
let me embrace myself
I want to shine like a rainbow
teardrops only make me grow
flowers bloom inside my veins

I want to find my home
discover the untold secrets
that this city holds

running
in the rain
in this heat
I want to go
somewhere no one knows

He said meet me outside
Wearing a disguise
Knew it was  a trap
Should've stayed inside
Next time i won't reply back
Don't let them ******* over
Take all that wasted power
Swore she had neon eyes
And grey skin
Just my imagination

She said to stay inside
Should've ran
While i had it
Now I'm answering to
Everything
Swore he was
A second sun
So blinding

Falling for every one

apply pressure
feel pain one more time

before it rains
maybe we should
let in the sun

watch around your neck
you look so lovely

hit the walls
till I break

running
till I fall

apply pressure
hurting makes me feel awake

you're not my love

I wish for you too much

it's the wrong thing

real love will be present
and true

I'm always wishful and distant
with you

you're never around

I've been
dizzy in a cursed spell

I couldn't see anyone but you

sitting at the bottom of the wishing well

I was hoping you'd come by today

or tomorrow

or next week

maybe never

I'm drowning in my wishes

all for you

do you not wish me for me even a little

not even when you blow on a candle

or those pretty little flowers

do you not sleep wishful

like I do

staring at the clock

11:11

staring right back at me

All I do is hide
waiting for you
hoping you'll find me
but I've disappeared

ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴅᴏᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴋʏ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴘɪɴᴋ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ
ꜱᴇʀᴇɴᴅɪᴘɪᴛʏ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪʀᴅꜱ ꜱᴘᴇᴀᴋ
ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ
ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ
ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ
ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴍʏ ɴᴏꜱᴇ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ꜰʟʏ
ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴄᴀʀʀʏ ᴍᴇ
ɪ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ

everyone

everyone

everyone lives on the moon

everyone dreams on the moon

everyone loves the name moon

everyone talks to the moon

field trips to the moon

everyone wants the moon

everyone loves the moon

everyone waits for the moon

everyone looks for the moon

everyone

everyone

he says
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you


why did you go and sleep with someone else