one last sacrifice
you will be free
fly far away

Truth is
I feel so heavy
Lost
Depressed
The feeling
Won't leave
Inside my head
I'm going in circles

Truth is
I'm depressed
And
I don't know what to do anymore

It's the sound of silence
That gives me comfort

That I will know your
Next move
Or someone coming

It's silence that
Keeps me safe

Even if it's scary
Not to hear nothing

I hugged a crying cloud
I caught a drop of rain in my hand
I killed the sun
put the earth's wind inside my hair
sorry
not sorry
I wait for my mistakes to catch up
for now
I
hug crying clouds
I **** the morning sun
I catch rain drops in my hands
guide the wind into my hair
I wait
for my mistakes to paint a portrait of me
committing the worst of crimes
against myself
the only love I grew up on
was destruction
self-destruction was my way of self-love
self-harm is my way of caring for myself
with broken hopes
my mistakes painted a dreary portrait
there
a cloud hugged me crying
the sun killed me sleeping
rain caught me falling
the wind whispered love into my head
some days
I'm sorry for everything

My demons tell me to close my mouth
or else they'll come out

I haven't spoken a word
writing down everything is much safer

I've seen people question my existence
telling me if I lie everyday
Who's the real me

What's your name

I have multiple versions of myself
I'm always someone else
depending who you are

What's your name

I don't have a age
Its just my soul

I'm only a ghost

I'm the monster under your bed

The real me lies inside my head
She watches tv all day

I Plug in a charge to my wrist
for tomorrow's energy

I spit out fire when I'm angry

I tell my demons to be quiet or out
They'll have to move somewhere else

I've spoken almost about everything

Now everyone is scared to be my friend

She cried
But she was growing
She knew she would be home soon
The dark moments always come
And she would always cry
But soon she would be in someones arms
And she'll sleep good
Cause at home she would
Have the people
She loves most

I'm going to make you suffer

you deserve it

I like it

don't try and run away

the lies you fed me

easy to pick apart

when you broke my heart

I knew better

pulled myself together

I'm going to pretend

just like you did

shadows follow you

haunting your dreams

revenge is all I need

In my arms
I hold the sun

The one and only
you look up to in the mornings

I've disappeared
leaving you in a shadow

I hear it in my sleep
the distant drips and drops

I dream of an understanding

A universal language
between the stars and I

I hear it in my daydreams

I should have a good day tomorrow
I say as I fall asleep
I should be productive
I think as I lay in bed in the morning

Nothing really gets to me
I'm also dissatisfied
Nothing is interesting
I crave everyone's attention

I say things that I'll never do
I try and be someone better
It just never works out

The desire
to live
in the night
unholy
shadows
hidden whispers

Where do you hide

so far away
clouds cover the moon

/ distant  //

moonlight
cover me

fly away
with the clouds
can I see you in the morning

I can't dream
with no visions

I can't dream without
a friend

dreams

that's all I have

dreams

it's everything I want

dream

the life you desire

dream

I miss the silence
now that I don't have it

Snaking through the slender grass
I'll cry tears of sugar with the ants

November
is my old friend
whos hands I shake
coldly she always behaves
she comes in a mourning time
the moon cries in vain
November
she whispers goodnight
to the trees
navigates her way down south
with the golden butterflies
running for their lives
kisses me gently
I only see her once a year
the bitterness
in her heart
stays with me
all winter long
calling my name
I shiver

ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗᶦᵐᵉˢ ᴵ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵗᶦⁿʸ ˡᵉᵗᵗᵉʳˢ ʰᵒᵖᶦⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘ ʷᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᴵ'ᵐ ʷʳᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ
ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʸᵒᵘ'ˡˡ ᵍᵉᵗ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵍˡᵃˢˢᵉˢ
ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᑫᵘᶦⁿᵗ
ᵗᵒ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿᵉᵈ

ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ ˢᵒᵐᵉʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ʸᵉᵃʳ
ᴵ ᶜᵒᵐᵖˡᵉᵗᵉˡʸ ᶜʰᵃⁿᵍᵉᵈ
ᴵ ˡᶦᵛᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵃ ˢᵗʳᵃⁿᵍᵉʳ'ˢ ˢᵏᶦⁿ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵉᵃᵈ

ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗᶦᵐᵉˢ ᴵ ˡᶦᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵃʸ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵍˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿᵉᵈ
ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵈᶦᵈ
ᶦᶠ ᴵ ᵗʳʸ ᵛᵉʳʸ ʰᵃʳᵈ ᴵ'ˡˡ ᵈʳᵉᵃᵐ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᶦᵗ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᴵ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖ
ᵗʰᵉⁿ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᶦᵗ ᵃˢ ᶦᶠ ᶦᵗ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ᵈᶦᵈ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿ

ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵈᵃʸˢ
ᴵ'ᵐ ᵗʰᵉ ᵒˡᵈ ᵐᵉ
ᴵ'ᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ˢᵘʳᵉ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵐᵉᵃⁿˢ

ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ᶜᵒᵐᶠᵒʳᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ
ᶦⁿ ᵐʸ ᵒʷⁿ ᵇᵒᵈʸ
ˢᵒᵐᵉʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ᵈᵃʸ
ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵉ ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ ᵃᵍᵃᶦⁿ

Well you told me
Do you wanna stay

I'm so sorry
It was all game

Can we go back to the cold drive
And the comfortable silence
Inside

Well he told that
He loves me
That's so disappointing

I wanted to hold hands
And drive away
With nothing in our hearts
Just like friends

And he told me
That if I loved him

Well I'm sorry

I don't want to

I dont1 want to

There's always a perfect world I imagine
That doesn't have me inside it

can't get a break
from all the things I hate

what do you think about love
real love

do you want real love
are you feeling love drunk

focus on me
let's talk about love

are you lovesick
playing hide and seek

you're a loveholic
romance is everything
it's always love first

let me hold you together
I want to see you grow
let me see you fall apart

I'm your lonely bird
be my lovely bird

let me see you fly
I cut off my wings for you
let me see you cry

my lover
you have your world
come and see mine

don't run away
you are my universe

I've been thinking about
now answer
what do you think about love

roses die
violets aren't blue
I guess we lie
a little too much for our own good

february
slow down

everything is coming back to life
all I see is green
trees flourishing

petals fall
the sky is blue
I tell the truth
even when I lie

lost alone in life
          I'm drifting away from you
                                      cold water cold rain
                                         
                                                     /

                                         lost alone with you
                             everyone drifts away now
                    warm lights warm faces
                                                           ­          \
                                                               ­                           forever in this
                                                            ­                      everlasting ending love
                                                            ­                           missing you and I

is this how we drift away

again
here we go again

will we lose each other
again
and again

how many times do I have reach out

we're slipping away

they're pulling away

we're making other friends
everyone is moving on

I can't find the words to make them stay anymore

can we make this work

You'll never care now
I realized years ago
These blue days come back

Still wish you did care
Want to give a little bit
Time I think it's time

Sad songs in the dark
I'll throw my dreams drain myself
You don't see my heart

bleeding into the day
whispering to the sky
hug me to sleep

let me be my own
let me embrace myself
I want to shine like a rainbow
teardrops only make me grow
flowers bloom inside my veins

I want to find my home
discover the untold secrets
that this city holds

running
in the rain
in this heat
I want to go
somewhere no one knows

you're so cold
like Neptune

yes
no

I don't trust you
wish you were a little more honest

so
hopeless

you turn everything against you
when everyone is on your side

I can't lie
I wish I didn't have to keep you high

you paint me blue
my new favorite color

everything I do is for you
it's all for you everything I do

in rotation
so slow

you're so beautiful
so cool

all I want to be
hiding in darkness

is that the truth

when times are rough
I pull you up

I comfort you
out of sympathy

I can't feel anything for you

you pushed me down
you always get my hopes high

lie to me
that's all you ever do for me

you're that bad influence
the hidden poison

I'll never know
if it's the truth

don't go too far down
don't go
check
and see
what is unwanted
of me

stay a little higher
then blink away

don't go far away  
you'll lose your breath
it's cryptic
it's deeper
darker

don't find my buried bones
don't go finding a skull
you might not like what you see

blink away
stay a little higher
up ground

where I don't seem like a lonely weeping monster

you should try being happy sometimes
you were always sad
never heard you laugh
or see you smile

miserable and lonely
I didn't want to be an ear

something good can work
unfortunately we didn't

you told me a story
I didn't listen to the last part

I've been thinking
was I too mean
to leave
was it too impulsive

I gave you a song
you will keep it forever

you gave me a song
I kept it to myself

it's a bittersweet ending
but I'm happy

he says
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you


why did you go and sleep with someone else

I'll give you all my money
my heart
I'll buy you socks
candy and whatever you want

will that make us best friends
feels like we're almost lovers again

but you're talking
with somebody else

felt like we could become
everything

as we laid in your bed
2 am

falling asleep on my shoulder

I turned into dust

morning came
I didn't remember where I'd been

suddenly the feeling went away

we are distant as ever

whatever I thought we had
didn't last forever

ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴅᴏᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴋʏ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴘɪɴᴋ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ
ꜱᴇʀᴇɴᴅɪᴘɪᴛʏ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪʀᴅꜱ ꜱᴘᴇᴀᴋ
ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ
ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ
ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ
ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴍʏ ɴᴏꜱᴇ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ꜰʟʏ
ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴄᴀʀʀʏ ᴍᴇ
ɪ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ

I think I found love
within the letters you type

forming words
I've read a thousand times

suddenly they feel so different

I'm trying to know

I'm confused
keeping a distance

no goodnight kiss
no good morning message

promise
me a
goodbye

I think I've fallen
into a toxic puddle
of unknown chemicals

my mistake

It's my mistake

I come and go
doesn't feel so good
the guilt washes away
summertime
I have to drown my mind
living underwater
no one can see me now
I'm here and there
I want to stay
I want to go
leave all by myself
leave me all alone

see new places
new faces

how much more of my life can I throw away

Being positive doesn't help
because you are depressed and suicidal
no one listens
every time you try and speak
your tongue
curls up
it swims down
your stomach
lays there
till you fall asleep
it comes back to you in a dream

Am I
your doll?

Do you think
you can drag me anywhere you want

drop me
wherever you like

every time
I break

you expect to see me in perfect conditions

Am I
your doll?