you keeping looking at me
like I'm someone else

you're going blind
let go of my hand

I dream
impressive dreams on your couch

slept a 5 am
didn't hear you coming in

feels like I'm the chosen one
I hear the earth cry
the trees are falling asleep

am I the only thing on fire
in this freezing winter

We all have
Our depressing
Poems

That makes us
Feel awesome

My demons tell me to close my mouth
or else they'll come out

I haven't spoken a word
writing down everything is much safer

I've seen people question my existence
telling me if I lie everyday
Who's the real me

What's your name

I have multiple versions of myself
I'm always someone else
depending who you are

What's your name

I don't have a age
Its just my soul

I'm only a ghost

I'm the monster under your bed

The real me lies inside my head
She watches tv all day

I Plug in a charge to my wrist
for tomorrow's energy

I spit out fire when I'm angry

I tell my demons to be quiet or out
They'll have to move somewhere else

I've spoken almost about everything

Now everyone is scared to be my friend

I'm scared
I'm afraid
Petrified
Terrified
Of everything and everyone
Mostly fear towards
myself

Hiding underneath my softest blanket
turning off all the sounds of the world
covering up lights

Unprepared
I can't live inside my body

Truth is
I feel so heavy
Lost
Depressed
The feeling
Won't leave
Inside my head
I'm going in circles

Truth is
I'm depressed
And
I don't know what to do anymore

She had her perfumes
She loved them too
I always asked
But never did she give
She never let them go
Her memories
In a bottle
It was the only the thing she had
She treasured them
She would remember
The stories never ended
Instead of buying
She's selling
Smells them
And reminds her of
*Flowers

what do you think about love
real love

do you want real love
are you feeling love drunk

focus on me
let's talk about love

are you lovesick
playing hide and seek

you're a loveholic
romance is everything
it's always love first

let me hold you together
I want to see you grow
let me see you fall apart

I'm your lonely bird
be my lovely bird

let me see you fly
I cut off my wings for you
let me see you cry

my lover
you have your world
come and see mine

don't run away
you are my universe

I've been thinking about
now answer
what do you think about love

is this how we drift away

again
here we go again

will we lose each other
again
and again

how many times do I have reach out

we're slipping away

they're pulling away

we're making other friends
everyone is moving on

I can't find the words to make them stay anymore

can we make this work

can't get a break
from all the things I hate

I'm going to make you suffer

you deserve it

I like it

don't try and run away

the lies you fed me

easy to pick apart

when you broke my heart

I knew better

pulled myself together

I'm going to pretend

just like you did

shadows follow you

haunting your dreams

revenge is all I need

I miss the silence
now that I don't have it

If it's about you
I don't care
sorry

all I want is
it to be about me

I want to talk about me
but I hate your response to everything I say

I want the attention on me
so if I die
will you love me

set myself on fire
**** a bird
I haven't matured

consideration
call out my real name

if no one is looking at me
I feel so gone

There's always a perfect world I imagine
That doesn't have me inside it

all my friends are online
I stay outside

all these empty rooms
generation of fools

we're to busy looking ahead
let's look back
back
back

there's not a better time

the time we didn't exist
earth slept peacefully

the sun dies down
stars come out to play
let my tears flood the bedroom
a field of flowers talking for hours

I've not met a darkness
darker than my own

I won't change for me
I won't change for you

you're so cold
like Neptune

yes
no

I don't trust you
wish you were a little more honest

so
hopeless

you turn everything against you
when everyone is on your side

I can't lie
I wish I didn't have to keep you high

you paint me blue
my new favorite color

everything I do is for you
it's all for you everything I do

in rotation
so slow

you're so beautiful
so cool

all I want to be
hiding in darkness

I let the wind sweep my unspoken words away

I hear the children laugh and play
I can't remember a day I was like them

I let the clouds hang heavy above me
rain somewhere my regrets can't touch me

I kept them close
we fell backwards
the closer I believed
further away we pushed ourselves

I taste the lost sleep on my lips
I carry my youth in a coin bag

the winter hides the pain
we fall with the autumn leaves
let the wind carry my being

so far away
clouds cover the moon

/ distant  //

moonlight
cover me

fly away
with the clouds
can I see you in the morning

I can't dream
with no visions

I can't dream without
a friend

dreams

that's all I have

dreams

it's everything I want

dream

the life you desire

dream

What you want is
Someone

What you need is
Love

To bad these days
It's so hard to trust

Well you told me
Do you wanna stay

I'm so sorry
It was all game

Can we go back to the cold drive
And the comfortable silence
Inside

Well he told that
He loves me
That's so disappointing

I wanted to hold hands
And drive away
With nothing in our hearts
Just like friends

And he told me
That if I loved him

Well I'm sorry

I don't want to

I dont1 want to

It's the sound of silence
That gives me comfort

That I will know your
Next move
Or someone coming

It's silence that
Keeps me safe

Even if it's scary
Not to hear nothing

you can't have me
you can't ever be mine

you're in my head
you're in my daydreams

I know I don't cross your mind
you're in all my thoughts

are you so numb
you can't feel my love

trying to separate
not too close

I don't want to get hurt

are you scared I'll break your heart
give me a chance

I'll prove myself

don't make me confused

I don't want to wait forever

lost alone in life
          I'm drifting away from you
                                      cold water cold rain
                                         
                                                     /

                                         lost alone with you
                             everyone drifts away now
                    warm lights warm faces
                                                           ­          \
                                                               ­                           forever in this
                                                            ­                      everlasting ending love
                                                            ­                           missing you and I

Looks like our days
Are over

ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗᶦᵐᵉˢ ᴵ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵗᶦⁿʸ ˡᵉᵗᵗᵉʳˢ ʰᵒᵖᶦⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘ ʷᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᴵ'ᵐ ʷʳᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ
ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʸᵒᵘ'ˡˡ ᵍᵉᵗ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵍˡᵃˢˢᵉˢ
ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᑫᵘᶦⁿᵗ
ᵗᵒ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿᵉᵈ

ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ ˢᵒᵐᵉʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ʸᵉᵃʳ
ᴵ ᶜᵒᵐᵖˡᵉᵗᵉˡʸ ᶜʰᵃⁿᵍᵉᵈ
ᴵ ˡᶦᵛᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵃ ˢᵗʳᵃⁿᵍᵉʳ'ˢ ˢᵏᶦⁿ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵉᵃᵈ

ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗᶦᵐᵉˢ ᴵ ˡᶦᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵃʸ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵍˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿᵉᵈ
ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵈᶦᵈ
ᶦᶠ ᴵ ᵗʳʸ ᵛᵉʳʸ ʰᵃʳᵈ ᴵ'ˡˡ ᵈʳᵉᵃᵐ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᶦᵗ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᴵ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖ
ᵗʰᵉⁿ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᶦᵗ ᵃˢ ᶦᶠ ᶦᵗ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ᵈᶦᵈ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿ

ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵈᵃʸˢ
ᴵ'ᵐ ᵗʰᵉ ᵒˡᵈ ᵐᵉ
ᴵ'ᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ˢᵘʳᵉ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵐᵉᵃⁿˢ

ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ᶜᵒᵐᶠᵒʳᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ
ᶦⁿ ᵐʸ ᵒʷⁿ ᵇᵒᵈʸ
ˢᵒᵐᵉʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ᵈᵃʸ
ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵉ ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ ᵃᵍᵃᶦⁿ

November
is my old friend
whos hands I shake
coldly she always behaves
she comes in a mourning time
the moon cries in vain
November
she whispers goodnight
to the trees
navigates her way down south
with the golden butterflies
running for their lives
kisses me gently
I only see her once a year
the bitterness
in her heart
stays with me
all winter long
calling my name
I shiver

he says
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you


why did you go and sleep with someone else

The desire
to live
in the night
unholy
shadows
hidden whispers

Where do you hide

bleeding into the day
whispering to the sky
hug me to sleep

let me be my own
let me embrace myself
I want to shine like a rainbow
teardrops only make me grow
flowers bloom inside my veins

I want to find my home
discover the untold secrets
that this city holds

running
in the rain
in this heat
I want to go
somewhere no one knows

She cried
But she was growing
She knew she would be home soon
The dark moments always come
And she would always cry
But soon she would be in someones arms
And she'll sleep good
Cause at home she would
Have the people
She loves most

I'm feeling crazy
I miss you
where have you been

dear my friend
I think I'm feeling some way
I think I'm avoiding it
I swallow the feelings down

but
the butterflies I keep coughing up
they keep coming out

I don't feel safe
dear my friend
I hate you
this is all my fault
why do I love you so much
when did I love you this much

where are you now
are you okay
tell me is there anything you can say
I feel worse when you don't

I just want to sleep
I want to dream of you in my arms

dear my friend
this is my fault
don't ever come back

I've become nothing

The colors I see
Aren't so charming
Like they use to be

I'm nothing

I don't understand anything

Snaking through the slender grass
I'll cry tears of sugar with the ants

you should try being happy sometimes
you were always sad
never heard you laugh
or see you smile

miserable and lonely
I didn't want to be an ear

something good can work
unfortunately we didn't

you told me a story
I didn't listen to the last part

I've been thinking
was I too mean
to leave
was it too impulsive

I gave you a song
you will keep it forever

you gave me a song
I kept it to myself

it's a bittersweet ending
but I'm happy

please stop saying goodnight
then I know you're gone

you never come back

please come back

make it last

I'm tired of losing
tired of missing

I want more of you
am I greedy

I have no world
let me inside yours

roses die
violets aren't blue
I guess we lie
a little too much for our own good

february
slow down

everything is coming back to life
all I see is green
trees flourishing

petals fall
the sky is blue
I tell the truth
even when I lie

I'll give you all my money
my heart
I'll buy you socks
candy and whatever you want

will that make us best friends
feels like we're almost lovers again

but you're talking
with somebody else

felt like we could become
everything

as we laid in your bed
2 am

falling asleep on my shoulder

I turned into dust

morning came
I didn't remember where I'd been

suddenly the feeling went away

we are distant as ever

whatever I thought we had
didn't last forever

You'll never care now
I realized years ago
These blue days come back

Still wish you did care
Want to give a little bit
Time I think it's time

Sad songs in the dark
I'll throw my dreams drain myself
You don't see my heart

I come and go
doesn't feel so good
the guilt washes away
summertime
I have to drown my mind
living underwater
no one can see me now
I'm here and there
I want to stay
I want to go
leave all by myself
leave me all alone

see new places
new faces

how much more of my life can I throw away