My demons tell me to close my mouth
or else they'll come out

I haven't spoken a word
writing down everything is much safer

I've seen people question my existence
telling me if I lie everyday
Who's the real me

What's your name

I have multiple versions of myself
I'm always someone else
depending who you are

What's your name

I don't have a age
Its just my soul

I'm only a ghost

I'm the monster under your bed

The real me lies inside my head
She watches tv all day

I Plug in a charge to my wrist
for tomorrow's energy

I spit out fire when I'm angry

I tell my demons to be quiet or out
They'll have to move somewhere else

I've spoken almost about everything

Now everyone is scared to be my friend

can't get a break
from all the things I hate

I let the wind sweep my unspoken words away

I hear the children laugh and play
I can't remember a day I was like them

I let the clouds hang heavy above me
rain somewhere my regrets can't touch me

I kept them close
we fell backwards
the closer I believed
further away we pushed ourselves

I taste the lost sleep on my lips
I carry my youth in a coin bag

the winter hides the pain
we fall with the autumn leaves
let the wind carry my being

If it's about you
I don't care
sorry

all I want is
it to be about me

I want to talk about me
but I hate your response to everything I say

I want the attention on me
so if I die
will you love me

set myself on fire
**** a bird
I haven't matured

consideration
call out my real name

if no one is looking at me
I feel so gone

Truth is
I feel so heavy
Lost
Depressed
The feeling
Won't leave
Inside my head
I'm going in circles

Truth is
I'm depressed
And
I don't know what to do anymore

What you want is
Someone

What you need is
Love

To bad these days
It's so hard to trust

There's always a perfect world I imagine
That doesn't have me inside it

all my friends are online
I stay outside

all these empty rooms
generation of fools

we're to busy looking ahead
let's look back
back
back

there's not a better time

the time we didn't exist
earth slept peacefully

the sun dies down
stars come out to play
let my tears flood the bedroom
a field of flowers talking for hours

I've not met a darkness
darker than my own

I won't change for me
I won't change for you

so far away
clouds cover the moon

/ distant  //

moonlight
cover me

fly away
with the clouds
can I see you in the morning

I can't dream
with no visions

I can't dream without
a friend

dreams

that's all I have

dreams

it's everything I want

dream

the life you desire

dream

Looks like our days
Are over

ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗᶦᵐᵉˢ ᴵ ʷʳᶦᵗᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵗᶦⁿʸ ˡᵉᵗᵗᵉʳˢ ʰᵒᵖᶦⁿᵍ ʸᵒᵘ ʷᵒⁿ'ᵗ ʳᵉᵃᵈ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᴵ'ᵐ ʷʳᶦᵗᶦⁿᵍ
ᵇᵘᵗ ᴵ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʸᵒᵘ'ˡˡ ᵍᵉᵗ ʸᵒᵘʳ ᵍˡᵃˢˢᵉˢ
ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᑫᵘᶦⁿᵗ
ᵗᵒ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿᵉᵈ

ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ ˢᵒᵐᵉʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ʸᵉᵃʳ
ᴵ ᶜᵒᵐᵖˡᵉᵗᵉˡʸ ᶜʰᵃⁿᵍᵉᵈ
ᴵ ˡᶦᵛᵉ ᶦⁿ ᵃ ˢᵗʳᵃⁿᵍᵉʳ'ˢ ˢᵏᶦⁿ ᵃⁿᵈ ʰᵉᵃᵈ

ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗᶦᵐᵉˢ ᴵ ˡᶦᵉ ᵃⁿᵈ ˢᵃʸ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵍˢ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿᵉᵈ
ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ˡᶦᵏᵉ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵈᶦᵈ
ᶦᶠ ᴵ ᵗʳʸ ᵛᵉʳʸ ʰᵃʳᵈ ᴵ'ˡˡ ᵈʳᵉᵃᵐ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᶦᵗ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᴵ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖ
ᵗʰᵉⁿ ᵗᵃᵏᵉ ᶦᵗ ᵃˢ ᶦᶠ ᶦᵗ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ᵈᶦᵈ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿ

ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᵈᵃʸˢ
ᴵ'ᵐ ᵗʰᵉ ᵒˡᵈ ᵐᵉ
ᴵ'ᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ˢᵘʳᵉ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵐᵉᵃⁿˢ

ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ ᶜᵒᵐᶠᵒʳᵗᵃᵇˡᵉ
ᶦⁿ ᵐʸ ᵒʷⁿ ᵇᵒᵈʸ
ˢᵒᵐᵉʷʰᵉʳᵉ ᵗʰʳᵒᵘᵍʰᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ᵈᵃʸ
ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵉ ᵐʸˢᵉˡᶠ ᵃᵍᵃᶦⁿ

It's the sound of silence
That gives me comfort

That I will know your
Next move
Or someone coming

It's silence that
Keeps me safe

Even if it's scary
Not to hear nothing

I miss the silence
now that I don't have it

The desire
to live
in the night
unholy
shadows
hidden whispers

Where do you hide

She cried
But she was growing
She knew she would be home soon
The dark moments always come
And she would always cry
But soon she would be in someones arms
And she'll sleep good
Cause at home she would
Have the people
She loves most

you're so cold
like Neptune

yes
no

I don't trust you
wish you were a little more honest

so
hopeless

you turn everything against you
when everyone is on your side

I can't lie
I wish I didn't have to keep you high

you paint me blue
my new favorite color

everything I do is for you
it's all for you everything I do

in rotation
so slow

you're so beautiful
so cool

all I want to be
hiding in darkness

Snaking through the slender grass
I'll cry tears of sugar with the ants

lost alone in life
          I'm drifting away from you
                                      cold water cold rain
                                         
                                                     /

                                         lost alone with you
                             everyone drifts away now
                    warm lights warm faces
                                                           ­          \
                                                               ­                           forever in this
                                                            ­                      everlasting ending love
                                                            ­                           missing you and I

you can't have me
you can't ever be mine

you're in my head
you're in my daydreams

I know I don't cross your mind
you're in all my thoughts

are you so numb
you can't feel my love

trying to separate
not too close

I don't want to get hurt

are you scared I'll break your heart
give me a chance

I'll prove myself

don't make me confused

I don't want to wait forever

he says
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you


why did you go and sleep with someone else

you should try being happy sometimes
you were always sad
never heard you laugh
or see you smile

miserable and lonely
I didn't want to be an ear

something good can work
unfortunately we didn't

you told me a story
I didn't listen to the last part

I've been thinking
was I too mean
to leave
was it too impulsive

I gave you a song
you will keep it forever

you gave me a song
I kept it to myself

it's a bittersweet ending
but I'm happy

Well you told me
Do you wanna stay

I'm so sorry
It was all game

Can we go back to the cold drive
And the comfortable silence
Inside

Well he told that
He loves me
That's so disappointing

I wanted to hold hands
And drive away
With nothing in our hearts
Just like friends

And he told me
That if I loved him

Well I'm sorry

I don't want to

I dont1 want to

November
is my old friend
whos hands I shake
coldly she always behaves
she comes in a mourning time
the moon cries in vain
November
she whispers goodnight
to the trees
navigates her way down south
with the golden butterflies
running for their lives
kisses me gently
I only see her once a year
the bitterness
in her heart
stays with me
all winter long
calling my name
I shiver

is this how we drift away

again
here we go again

will we lose each other
again
and again

how many times do I have reach out

we're slipping away

they're pulling away

we're making other friends
everyone is moving on

I can't find the words to make them stay anymore

can we make this work

bleeding into the day
whispering to the sky
hug me to sleep

let me be my own
let me embrace myself
I want to shine like a rainbow
teardrops only make me grow
flowers bloom inside my veins

I want to find my home
discover the untold secrets
that this city holds

running
in the rain
in this heat
I want to go
somewhere no one knows

Empty stomach
crying your name
I wished upon a star
for a cloudy day

I lied
I lie
I never find the right moment

They expect the best
I have the worst inside me

The roses left behind

I never want to look back

please stop saying goodnight
then I know you're gone

you never come back

please come back

make it last

I'm tired of losing
tired of missing

I want more of you
am I greedy

I have no world
let me inside yours

don't go too far down
don't go
check
and see
what is unwanted
of me

stay a little higher
then blink away

don't go far away  
you'll lose your breath
it's cryptic
it's deeper
darker

don't find my buried bones
don't go finding a skull
you might not like what you see

blink away
stay a little higher
up ground

where I don't seem like a lonely weeping monster

roses die
violets aren't blue
I guess we lie
a little too much for our own good

february
slow down

everything is coming back to life
all I see is green
trees flourishing

petals fall
the sky is blue
I tell the truth
even when I lie

I've become nothing

The colors I see
Aren't so charming
Like they use to be

I'm nothing

I don't understand anything

ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴅᴏᴇꜱ ᴛʜᴇ ꜱᴋʏ ᴛᴜʀɴ ᴘɪɴᴋ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙᴇᴄᴏᴍᴇ
ꜱᴇʀᴇɴᴅɪᴘɪᴛʏ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʜᴇᴀʀ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪʀᴅꜱ ꜱᴘᴇᴀᴋ
ɪ'ᴍ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴀᴄʜɪɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ
ʙᴇᴄᴀᴜꜱᴇ
ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴛᴏᴜᴄʜ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ
ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴍʏ ɴᴏꜱᴇ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ꜰʟʏ
ʏᴏᴜ ꜱʜᴏᴜʟᴅɴ'ᴛ ᴄᴀʀʀʏ ᴍᴇ
ɪ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴠᴇ
ɪꜰ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ᴍʏꜱᴇʟꜰ
ᴡɪʟʟ ɪ ʟɪᴠᴇ

easily
you break me
and I fall
easily
I became everything you wanted
until I was not

I am the mother of God
I will plant nightmares in your reflections
I showed you all there is it to love, now I must take it all away

I'll give you all my money
my heart
I'll buy you socks
candy and whatever you want

will that make us best friends
feels like we're almost lovers again

but you're talking
with somebody else

felt like we could become
everything

as we laid in your bed
2 am

falling asleep on my shoulder

I turned into dust

morning came
I didn't remember where I'd been

suddenly the feeling went away

we are distant as ever

whatever I thought we had
didn't last forever

You'll never care now
I realized years ago
These blue days come back

Still wish you did care
Want to give a little bit
Time I think it's time

Sad songs in the dark
I'll throw my dreams drain myself
You don't see my heart

is that the truth

when times are rough
I pull you up

I comfort you
out of sympathy

I can't feel anything for you

you pushed me down
you always get my hopes high

lie to me
that's all you ever do for me

you're that bad influence
the hidden poison

I'll never know
if it's the truth