black box
with a lock

thrown at the bottom of a lake

tell me where my soul lays

If this is love
I hate you
If this is hate
I love you

I want to be a ghost
I cursed my shadow

I want to whisper in your ear
feel you shiver

I want to be a ghost

knock on locked
closed doors

on open windows

If this is hate
I love you so
If this is love
I hate you so

Where's my soul

locked
in a
black box

Better to have the darkness contained
overflowing
would make a mess

I love you
I hate you

I don't want to scare you off
but
I've sold my soul
to a high class demon

I asked
for flowers
that live forever
a sky of rain that stays forever
the moon must shine at daytime
the sun will live at nighttime
I asked
to be invisible

feathers
dripping white blood

have I lost everything about myself
have I gained everything I wanted to be

let it rain
I want to feel rage

all I see is red

you say I'm winter
distant
bitter
icy

hands so cold
snowflakes in my belly
when you touch me

you pull my milky white hair
feels so sweet

show me no mercy

you want to drown
even if I pull you down

I almost called you summer
baby
you're spring
planting flowers
each footstep you take

trying to escape
the sound
of your voice

I wish I never met you
I wish I couldn't see your face
you run inside my mind

every time you kiss me
the sun comes out

I must turn away
or I'll melt into your arms

**** me
hurt me
every time you kiss me

will you buy me a million dollar house
even though I already bought one myself

throw money high into the sky
you burned some to keep me warm
I'm not selfish
I hope

you only love me
when I give you gold coins
spoiled

inside a pretty mansion
you'll find
glasses
prescriptions
too many pills
on the floor
blood on the rug

chandeliers
and candles
I sleep on the couch

even if I have several bedrooms

From yellow fields
To city traffic
I couldn't catch it

Sleeping with my head underwater
So don't bother

Losing patience
Concentration

I could only dream
Of chasing it

you got the kiss of death
I was dying before you left

now I'm just a ghost
following my living body
I can still hear people talking

the spirit to ****
fell down a hill
pushed me from the top
I would have never thought

now everything is dark
the sky is white like heavy snow
the stars look like bubbles

now I'm just wandering around
following an empty body
that used to be me