She's feeling dead inside
her heart beat frozen

so strange
How she writes of only heartbreak

Talking of love with an empty feeling

It was only a cloudy day
you don't have to be so sad

It won't rain soon

The sun will shine

Love only hits you
when it wants to

so stop crying if he doesn't love you
You can always love someone else
who will accept your heart

It doesn't always have to be about
broken hearts
and lost feelings

You can live life
without falling in love

loving yourself

It's a Christmas spirit
But I've lost my soul

Can you find it
Can you find it
can you


Figures at the window

She's a compulsive liar
Passive pessimist

There's no hope
When she's keeps
Shutting out the light
In her room

_

Merry Christmas
I hope you're feeling happy
Enjoy being with somebody

I've seen so many beautiful things
that my tongue seems to freeze
I'm lost and have no way to speak

See beauty in everything
from a fallen leaf
and a simple word

I've haven't really heard
how I seem to people
or what I'm like

I seem to have my eyes open
as I sleep
I tend to hear everything

We must make ourselves believe
that the moon is more than a moon
That the sun is only the sun

Art is scary
I see it everyday
Now even in real life

I wish I could stand up for something
I believe in nothing

she writes
out flowers
throws and picks out
the petals
everyone loves her

not me
I let them die
in between pages
no one really cares

you are beautiful
you're insane
you are the most broken person I've met

a hurricane
a violent rain

I'm cursed to stay by your side
all the bad in my life
starts inside you

you're a disaster
chaotic
painful

two faced
liar
I can never trust you

you play mind games
I believed I loved you
now it feels fake

the knives you carry on your back
are yours

I made a mistake
I stepped into your life
now trapped inside your reflection
I've become your shadow

you're horrific
a piece of art

from a distance
I can admire you

you are
you are
you are

all

Looking for you
In this field
Of dead flowers
I could never find you
If you were here with me
I would probably leave

If only you could see

It doesn't matter

Yellow flowers with bees

Your such a sting

It doesn't matter I'm just dead weeds

Growing within my lungs

I planted seeds

Waiting for them to bloom

I'll grow into a tree

So I can look for you
Because no matter
What happened
Or happens
I still miss
And love you

I hate you

thank you for making me smile today

I love you too

I want to go back to the past
Where I would walk around numb

Where I would be in silence
Hearing a song

When I didn't care for no one
But me
When I didn't have no feelings

The old days the old days
I would chase them if I could
But they runaway

When I could get cold
Without getting something
Warm

When I was full of hate
And no one knew

the blood on my hands
I'll never be pure again

hiding inside dressing rooms
I know that I'm not supposed to

My friends
his friends
the smell of beer
music blasting
in our ears
I'm hiding in the bathtub
spilling out my tears
I shouldn't
But I still do it

My father is outside
my bedroom
dim lights
in the corner of my closet
I don't know

Everytime time I close my eyes
I find paradise

They want to find me
I'm in plain sight

I was there when our world fell apart

I'm here now
as mine falls to my feet

I can't even see

Hiding inside my head

I still do it

My house
Your house
Their house

I have no house
Sleeping under a sky
Clouds flying by

Have no walls
I see it all

Stormy nights
Endless days

My house is their house
I have no house

There's no floor
Trying to hold steady
Feeling so heavy

Breathing in the fog
I don't want to lose sight
What's mine
Is yours

No longer mine anymore

I know
You're there for me to hug at night

But when you fall to the floor
I wake up
and cry

I'm going crazy trying to find the light
Holding the same line
That electrocutes my mind

Down the rabbit hole
One last time

Instead of wonderland
I end up
In the nothingness
Of my head

I'm tired of seeking
The wrong things
That mess up my whole day

I sleep so ready for tomorrow
The morning comes
I feel like I'm repeating a cycle

My cold heart
Is melting

I wish you never met me

I wish you never touched me

I'm falling
For you

my lies run far

fitting in

cheating

what will my brain say

I avoid the truth

can't be honest

but I hate liars

like myself

don't know what to say
need a signal to stay

we keep driving each other away
it hurts to love

the heavy feeling
in my heart

signs
that aren't mine

should I leave tonight
wonder if we ruined another day

feels like a burden
I can hear your hurting

smoke another cigarette
close enough

don't you know
this isn't love

I want to feel the energy
of the universe

I want to be a star
I want to be a light

feel so warm
feeling so full

all my tears will become shooting stars
dancing in the sky

this flesh and blood
means nothing

give me back my soul

this emptiness
so lonely

I want to connect to your heart
I'm a stranger to everyone I know

give me my soul
let me be conscious of the world

I want to feel everything and everyone around me
like the day I was born

I hope you think of me
at four in the morning

I'd like to tell you
good morning

will you turn around
smile for me

I hope
I'm inside your head somedays

so quiet
you don't notice

Come and save us
before we destroy ourselves

I'm laying on a naked mattress
you keep posting pictures saying
you wish you had someone to talk with

grace
your pretty face
no words come out
no one understands what you try to say

surfing on a cloud
you send one message
ignore the rest

it's people like you
I hate

reasons why you're lonely
I could make a list
it would never end

flying with the wind

I distantly hear you cry

I'm determined to not bother with it

I hope your soul gets rest

fingertips bleeding

barely breathing

now I turn in my sleep

wearing all black

twisting my back

piece all the words

probably hurt

avoiding the blur

closing my eyes

losing sight

my neck still burns

he made me crumble and fall

he ruined my life

why did he touch me without my permission

I can't erase it from my head

I can't sleep

I can't eat

why did he ruin everything

my skin still burns

how much longer
when can I wash this disgusting feeling away

why did he do this to me

I almost convinced myself it was my fault

turned everything into anger
I wish I could **** him

I hope I ruin his life

the damage is done

he haunts me now

I'm so scared  

to feel this weak and broken

liar
liar
your blood seems lighter

telling me I can't reach your age
let's fight

call you once
now twice
maybe one more time

saying the young
can't reach your mind

look who's beside you
her eyes filled with youth

you like younger girls

little unfair

you play a ***** game
let's fight

calling me once
now two times
maybe one more time

you can tear the story apart
you can burn my words away
you can twist my lines

I know everything
who's the real villain

hidden in plain sight

they burned all the bridges
I won't lie

the truth hurts
choose wisely
what you will say

you can throw me away
you can disown me
you can judge

it will always sadden me
how you will never be free

be careful
I've got nothing to lose

I'm in my right mind
are you in yours

you can't compete
don't think you can forget me

I'm waiting for you to be with me
Running high
Falling low
I can't let you go

A cold kiss
I miss the most
You left
I was sitting on the porch

Remember the morning sunrise glow
Birds singing
I didn't listen to a word

I miss you the most
A cold kiss
Lost in the snow

Tears turned into ice
Waiting for you outside

I would be lying
If I didn't want you back

The street's are covered in darkness
and the clouds are partly visible

The sky looks grey

I'm afraid
I live in a ghost town

Where no one knows their name
or where to go

We can't find home

And money is little

An orange hue
is glowing from far away

The storm's remains are dripping from the ceiling

I've realized it's only my street
without light

I'm hoping the stars come out soon
It's midnight

The silence is almost chilling

I wish I could remember my name


It's washed away
somewhere inside a puddle

you want to go slow
I'll move slow
if you want to

so slow
I want to
wait for you

I'll wait
till you're at my feet

I'll wait till
you're crawling

I'll wait till
you're mine

patience
patience
I have all the time in the world

you're worth it

take your time
I'm not going anywhere

you're perfect
you're flawless

we can fall together

ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ᵈᵒ
ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵒ
ᶜᵒᵐᵉ ᶦⁿ ʷʰᵉʳᵉ
ᵗʰᵉ ˡᶦᵍʰᵗ ˢʰᶦⁿᵉˢ ᵇᵉˢᵗ
ᴵ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ʳᵉᵃˡˡʸ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵗᵒ
ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵒ
ᵈᵒᵉˢ ᶦᵗ ᵐᵃᵗᵗᵉʳ
ᴵ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᶦᵗ
ᴵ ᵐᵃᵈᵉ ᵃ ᵐᶦˢᵗᵃᵏᵉ
ⁿᵒʷ ᴵ'ᵐ ˡᶦᵛᶦⁿᵍ ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵒⁿˢᵉᑫᵘᵉⁿᶜᵉˢ
ᵇᵘᵗ ⁿᵒ ᵒⁿᵉ ˢᵉᵉˢ ᶦᵗ
ᴵ'ˡˡ ˢˡᵉᵉᵖ ˢᵒᵒⁿ
ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ʸᵒᵘ
ᴵ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵗᵒᵒ
ᴵ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵒ

things sometimes feel good
sometimes I feel like I love you
love the moment we're living inside

so I wish to never give it up
let's stay here

don't want to leave here
I want to be with you
inside this moment

we could hold hands virtually
I'll send you my heart through an email
I hope you never go
send me a message soon

I want to wake up to your notification
I want to sleep to your goodnight text

I'm right here for you
whenever you want
wherever you are

right here
right here
right here

Don't come and say
I am the heartbreaker

Because my heart
Is breaking too

We're falling apart
Love will ruin us
Babe

Let's break apart
This won't work
Not ever
Not today

Im not a poet anymore
I have grown out
If i have no feelings
What should i write about
My body was sleeping
And my mind was awake
There's another world to be found
I told myself if i got stuck
I would happily be in
My own dreamland

I write with my pain as my pen
blood into the page
& my mind won't leave me alone
not even when I'm on the phone
I talk
I speak
I'm in the ruins
I'm a destroyer

lost in a dream
running in the night

I'm scared to look at the sky
and forget how to breathe

I can't exist in your presence anymore

I don't belong anywhere

I feel like a curse

bad luck follows me everywhere I go

I ruin everyone I touch

I used to be a good person

ever since I lost my soul

I eat everyone else's

somedays
I need all the lights on
everytime I do wrong
+ + +
rest well
turn off the lights
I did my best

Am i scared
I can't hear my heart beat

Only the thunder rumbling

It's been raining all week
Finally some inner peace

I see things from my peripheral vision
That aren't in front of me

Sleep late
Check
Wake up
Follow the same routine
Again

somewhere
not here
it's raining

There's a storm
with lightning

not here
here it's one hundred and ten degrees (Fahrenheit)

My eyes are dripping with sweat

I hope that in somewhere
someone is beneath the rain

I wish I was somewhere
with someone

Pick a hole in the sky
you came by
I only said hi

afraid
didn't make any eye contact

Small drops
on my arm
falling asleep
you won't leave

The word you talk of
I don't believe

Is it my loss of faith
have I become hopeless
in this endless summer heat

I lay lower than my bed
I feel lower

losing sight of the sky

picking a hole
so it can rain tonight

I feel someone's love

Hm
Someone loves me

Can you feel the world spinning
No
Me neither

I can feel it

When
She comes around
And he sits down

Like if something's wrong

But with you

With you

Things feel different

I can feel

The love

Warm and gentle

are we really friends
or are we lying

lying to my face
this isn't friendly anymore

I regret not losing you
when I had the chance

all those times
why didn't I give up

it's the worst
you stay for someone
who doesn't deserve it

making me feel stupid
stayed for someone who's worthless
now we're the same

happy now

I'm chained to you

are we really friends
I think I'm starting to hate you

would you care if I left

I'll dream of leaving you

wake up in misery
you're still in my life

it hurts when you're all alone
you start to hear every little noise

something so quiet
or it's so loud

waiting for tomorrow to end
I feel like there's no beginning