I hope you know all
that I don't at all anymore
I think it's for sure

Fullfilled
ghosts in the room
suns blowing inside
I know you love me more when I say nothing

So I don't speak
not a word

I think
not one thought

I come and go
You don't even know
You'll see me either in the morning or afternoon

I love him
I hate him
too much

My tears dry quicker than the water going down the drain

You don't see the stains
the sobbing

I love us all to much

I don't want to touch
distance keeping us so close

Blood is dripping out your mouth
my cheeks are wet and face red

Lying to my face

I speak not one word
Nor think

I love this house to much

letting the feelings sit
I can't rip them in half
like I did to your note

I'll let them stay
till they rot
in the back room

never will settle
you've got to tell me
to go
before I do it myself

so unbalanced
uneven picture frame
of us in my mind

I wish I could just erase
all the precious moments
I can't get back

unsatisfied
or glorfied
there's no peace
with you

if you could say sorry
would you?
bury me if I asked you to?

I don't want to live here anymore
killing myself slowly

I don't think I love you anymore
You're pulling me down

I believed
we were everything
you and I
were everything

believing
you loved me

stop lying
losing your faith in me

did you see me
for who I am

turning around

I don't want to be here anymore
I believed
You loved me

I'm always running away
from the liars

you lost your face
for a while

No one really likes me
I'm a mess
Spilled ink
On a white dress
The stain on your shirt
That never goes away
A broken window
invisible star
So I stay away

Keeping distance

Worlds within a room
I have to resist

They'll never know
How much love I hold
I could give

I'm a new moon
Standing behind
The shadows

I don't shine
I only reflect

I'm just here
I don't know why

No really likes me


I do

miss I can't understand
I can't hear between the lines

it's fair
I'm giving you nothing

I'm the villain
stabbing you in the back

I walk in and out
I crawl ups and downs

no
you're not in love
you don't know me

please return your feelings
I can't accept them

I'm not hard to find
you will meet someone else

like me
there's plenty

you love me in my dreams

I knew it wasn't true

you stood tall
I won't forget

I didn't trust you in my dream

I try to escape
the feelings of the seeing you again

your name echos in my dreams
it's been four years

you still exist in my dreams

You're all so gloomy
You make me pessimistic

yellow rose petals
falling to the ground

I'll have to wait till Monday
to talk to you again
I haven't earned your trust

Everyone wants
to smoke my cigarettes
by this point I let them do what they want

I told you
I don't want him
I want her

I'll bet he's on your mind

I tried drinking
realized
it won't help

You're all so gloomy
it's bringing me down

I know
I also fall
into a blue state of mind

yellow rose petals
falling
what happens when it falls apart?

I know you won't love me for long
when the day comes
I'll be ready for when
you **** me

do you believe forever is real

every time I see your name
I'm convinced
forever is a lie

I didn't cryy
I can't process your lies

you gave me a good day
now all my nights are ruined

you won't hear me say a word
you won't find a happy ending

I am wrong
I don't care
I won't take the blame

sorry
I have no apologies

every bad thing you said about yourself
was true

She told herself mulitple
Times
She was getting out of that
Cursed house
Live a different life
Get a career
& Find love

Too bad everything fell to fast

Let's stop talking
I love it when we stay quiet

Mm
love silence

Let's keep quiet
there's nothing to discuss
dismiss all these problems

Mm
I love our silence

I'm never understood
I'm always writing
I have things to say

I stay silent
I'm always watching

I can't say what I want to say

No one ever cares
anyways

We just loving talking
filled with empty words

let's stop talking
I want to hear nothing

You were in my nature
Destroyed to soon

Got a heart I don't even use
When will I admit it

Staying away from
Conversations
About me

Sleepovers
In my bed
Why can't you
Just lay closer
To me

It's like you know
That when I see you go

I'll be left torn

Not gonna stop
You from leaving the next day

I just fell
Somewhere
I fell for
You
At night

Don't know how
Or why

Maybe it was when I felt
Your arms around me

Don't make me rot in my
Head

Make my thoughts
Happy again

Picking away
the skin
on my fingers

I can't sleep
so I talk with strangers

My family is a big disaster
I want to change my name
and forget about my father

My fingers start to bleed
I got a cut on my toe
it's hard to breathe

sometimes
when everyone
expects the best of me

There's no better me

Hard to imagine
me ever changing
drastically

god is always cruel
selfish
jealous
self centered
god is a man

what's it like to forgive and forget
you seem to do that often

it's all talk
never fulfilled promises
lousy and poorly at best

I start to hate every tuesday and wednesday
I hope thrusday and friday last a little longer too

I hide out in my room
I get the feeling
I don't belong in your life anymore

pushing me out
slowly
replaced and I start to feel lonely

time to grow up
think this is the end of the line

I already miss you
standing next to you

there's no way to prepare myself
to let you go

I'm too ashamed
and filled with regret
to say
I miss you

It's too late to say
sorry
too late to say goodbye

everything I wish I had said
eats me up at night

I can't say it
I'm so disappointed in myself

but I must admit
I miss you a little
just a tiny bit

I'm sorry if I mess up
I can't keep my mouth shut

and I've considered cutting off my tongue

I say all the wrong things
more than I've said good things

I want to turn away
and runaway

from all the hurtful words I've spilled
to you
and myself

I won't be able to stay

I want to go away

please stop calling me

I only make things worse
I'm always at a distance

in silence, I give my best advice

I want to turn away
go away

I never stay

holding all the things I want to say

writing letters
I can never give

if I could so easily
say the words to you

would you run far away
or come closer

I try to remember everything about you
everything we did
remind myself you exist outside my dreams

when I met you
it felt like we knew the ending before the start

this friendship
is a disguise

all the feelings I can't admit
three words together make no sense

think I'll always forgive you
sorry if I do
again and again

maybe not this time
maybe not

I wonder where
you disappeared to

so far away I can't reach you

I
can't be yours forever

deep down
I'll forgive you

even if it's not okay

I wrote it in tiny letters so you wouldn't see it
the piano and violin playing
from the other room
I thought you were sleeping

the night made from darkness
collapsed on us
frightened

my heart somewhere next to you
will I see you tomorrow
probably no
I hope so

everywhere I look
I try to find you

no messages
saying hello

my heart was tired
cigarette ashes on my shirt

I play angry
the song so melancholy

everyone telling me
who hurt you

my heart dying

supine
you told me lies

God doesn't love me
I know
because they told me

grieve alone
love alone
they responded that I was deserving
of all this crippling pain inside my brain

they kissed my cheek
and vanished within a late dream

I had an angel
he took away

I'm alone
they said
I won't ever see their home

God doesn't love me
I saw a figure
standing at the end of my bed
imprisoned me with
a  shadow

It all makes sense now

if I lied for you
tried my best for you

it never amounts to anything
you call me

you don't even use my name
you call me hers

you stabbed me deep
I tried to hide the pain

the blood is spilling out faster
as you keep talking

you got a million friends
but I'm not one of them

I see you're at your worst
but I can't hold on any longer

I can't stand it
falling to the ground

hope you never call me
might give you the chance to hurt me

this love
broken affection
never ends

My heart aches
For your forgiveness

She saw him cry
His princess was *****
And a liar
He made a big mistake

She ran to catch up
To her understanding
And then was happy

She saw him and grabbed his hand
Saying he would be fine

She stayed
And he notice more things

I see you from the storm
you're in the clear

I no longer love you like I use to

You've never listened to a word I've said


what makes me happy
makes me smile and laugh

You breathe with anger and envy

You'll never be happy like me

I was thinking of you at 11 PM

Do you still play the violin

What music do you hear these days

I'm sorry
I let our friendship go to waste

I distance myself from the people I miss

You've never appeared in my dreams
I cherish our memories

I love you so much
for all the days we spent together

If you have forgotten about me
It's okay

I hope I see you in my dreams
so I can say goodbye

cutting my fingers off

I want to befriend the birds
that land by my window
in the morning

the cat that almost
came inside my kitchen
the same morning

cutting out my eyes

I want to leave my home
take a one-way ticket to the moon

foot on the gas
passing all the red lights
I'm ready to go

twisting my skin
turning into dust

passing all the stop signs
I'm ready to go

swallow my tongue

I've gone insane
in a few days

the flesh on my body
melting away

I'm eating up clouds
but I still feel so hollow

I know my heart will always stay shallow

It doesn't matter when I push myself into the darkness

It hurts the most when you're the one to push me

you hurt me in many ways
reflect all your anger on me
I was convinced it wasn't my fault

the damage is done
you planted the idea
my head soaks it up

you push me into the dark
hurts a billion times more
than
pushing myself

I look at your name
but no motivation

i know you're sad
but what can I do

now
we created a distance

feels so unsafe

when you're broken down
you hide from me

I'm torn apart
you can't share your pain with me

I'll be sad with you

anything to be close by
don't leave

how long will you stay alone
miserable

I can't save you

I can't watch you destroy yourself

everything feels pointless

I got lost
in the music

instead of their voices

your love is so cheap
feels like plastic

you know
you're so heartless

so why do you care
if I care less

do you get mad
when you're lonely

do you get mad
when you have no one

you act like you didn't have it coming

I once liked a boy
he killed me
bore me to death

There's still
The sound in ear

And no one
Is concerned to let me be healed

And I'm thinking of
all the things i regret

I'll probably go insane
So i go to sleep instead

When i wake up
Everyone watches my every move
Cause I'm the superstar

I make all them laugh

My family is full of hypocrites
I might be the biggest
One yet

And when they want me
Quiet i am
But then they say I'm to silent
And i could be more
Happy
I just don't get it

They ask me if I'm
Okay
And when i spill
All my problems
They just push them away
And that they'll help me
But really they just hurt me
Even more

I'm trying to sleep
Okay

But the sound in my ear
Is getting louder
  Getting louder

It won't be long
the light inside
will shine so bright

It feels to dark here
candles burning out

You've made it this far
the sun coming up
going down

If it weren't for you
the moon wouldn't hang around

It won't be long till the stars come out
and play

whispering stay
stay

If you leave
all we'll see is a black sky
You're the only star I want to see in the daylight


It won't be long
Please hold on

You'll come back again

One thousand eyes searching in the sky

Is there a drop of rain

On the other side
there's a hurricane

we hate the sun
we hate a storm

Beneath the creek
lay my lost bones


I'm floating around

I need to sleep for a while
wake me up in three years