Dreaming alone
with no one to hold
I feel refreshed moving clouds floating west
There's nothing to worry about right now
Tomorrow my millions of worries
slowly creep inside my body
for when I wake up
I'll brush my teeth
I've not noticed
the sun is missing

today I didn't love myself
and today I gave up

prince charming

will come and save me

because that's how the story goes

I was made to suffer
and for him to be the hero

I wait in my tower
full of despair
rotting away

prince charming
will find me soon
or so they tell me

but I know
prince charming is far from home
he's somewhere playing with someone's heart

I suffer and
wait for my savior

let me die in my bed
waiting for true love's kiss

prince charming
can't you come over
are you busy or did you give up

I'm tired
of this sick
twisted love story

know it's
unfair

god punished me
and made me a girl

with this heavy heart of misery
oh prince charming
please come and **** me

change the story
and end my life

save me
and become the villain

just this once

Pathetic and bad
Knowing that you haven't caught up

Yes it's a good day
But I let tears out
And I didn't mean for you
To see me that way

Sometimes no one sees
The real me
The one who
Writes poetry

The one who stopped
Cutting
Just so I can be "happy"

The one who doesn't know
How to act in school
Quiet or mean
Sad or fake happy

I , the one who
Stays and sees the fights
But stays quiet
And isn't on a side

But who do they think I am ?
The myriam who just
Makes them laugh
And does favors
Like lightning fast

Or the mariym
Who suffers
Just by over thinking
At night ..

the only reason people stay is
for my pretty eyes
they like how I make them laugh
all that matters is my body
even my smile is a real catcher
the way I walk
I'm Lost

no love
all about the physical side

what happened to our heartbeat
and feelings

no love
love is dust

want to know all my secrets
I run the streets
in the pouring rain
june isn't what I expected

faced my seasonal depression
it's welcomed inside my room

now I dream every day
of a strange day
I can't remember

fresh music
new songs

inspiration in each lyric

poetry
pounds around in my head

I get tired of writing
disposable feelings

I'm the only ghost in this house
trying to find heaven
from the windows

New years
New times
New memories in time
All you see is the same
But all you have to do is change
Different people
Different things
It's not the same day
Not  always yesterday
We will see it's 2016
And those who live
Are lucky
And those who die
May rest in peace
We shall move in a good direction
And go up only

Happy holidays
Happy dreams
Live your days  happy

feed me false fantasies
I know nothing is ever going to happen
fairy tales aren't real
I'm still looking after you

our love is temporary
everything with you is an ending
all I want
is for you to give me a reason
to begin

leave that room
leave that house
leave that virulent love

I love you
I love you

you can't love me good

it's fine if I cry underwater
if I let my tears fall
they won't notice
mixed with salt

I was at the window
She was at the door

I smiled
She waved

What a beautiful day

you didn't even tell your real name
what a shame
I have to leave

crawling inside your bones
I have no where else to go

tear drops
on your hands

it's nice to see you're still alive
will you ever let me hold you

die alone
I won't die with you

thinking about confessing my sins
find a pure soul

I'll leave
if you tell me to go

there's nothing more
you only told me sad stories

let me read
when you were young and happy

you swallow so many pills
all for a goodnight sleep

do the ghosts
still keep you awake

the only words I can ever say
goodnight
goodnight
goodnight

never gave me the chance to say
good morning

you never do

it's late
why do we only talk
when you're running away

the only words I can say
you give me no chances

goodnight
goodnight
goodnight

do you have to go
to a different place
you're dimensions away

you're in my dreams
quiet mornings trying to forget

Blue rain
we were stuck in a daze
once out
we forgot all about it

Grey rain
the loved we carried
evaporated
it'll always be living

Pink rain
when I first saw a new pair of eyes
I thought maybe this time

Orange rain
it fell apart
landed at my feet
thousands of possibilities
draining

Green rain
this evil sensation
is different
it's my turn to destroy
someone

white rain
my feet reach the end of his bed
his innocence is slowly leaving
out the door

black rain
it's a shame
several colors
gone to waste
wait another year
another blue moon

red rain will fall soon

I was thinking of you at 11 PM

Do you still play the violin

What music do you hear these days

I'm sorry
I let our friendship go to waste

I distance myself from the people I miss

You've never appeared in my dreams
I cherish our memories

I love you so much
for all the days we spent together

If you have forgotten about me
It's okay

I hope I see you in my dreams
so I can say goodbye

I want to sleep with music on

dark summer nights
all I did was feel the cold air on my skin
sleeping late

humid air
mattress outside
I saw him smoke in the middle of the night

pounding on the walls
I want to fall down

drowning in my skin

now it's different

drowning in your sadness
inside your head

lost in my loneliness

I was hoping I could be the one to save me
dreaming
save me
stepping inside mirrors
save me

I was hoping
I could
be the one

Can we go to nor heaven or hell
If we want to ?

If so what is this place called
Can I go now ..

do you miss me too
I can't sleep here / I'll leave soon
do you want me to

Shining summertime
A heavy, living cloud swims
into the flower

Fullfilled
ghosts in the room
suns blowing inside
I know you love me more when I say nothing

So I don't speak
not a word

I think
not one thought

I come and go
You don't even know
You'll see me either in the morning or afternoon

I love him
I hate him
too much

My tears dry quicker than the water going down the drain

You don't see the stains
the sobbing

I love us all to much

I don't want to touch
distance keeping us so close

Blood is dripping out your mouth
my cheeks are wet and face red

Lying to my face

I speak not one word
Nor think

I love this house to much

I know you won't love me for long
when the day comes
I'll be ready for when
you **** me

I embrace ａｌｌ your
s i n s
will you do the s̲a̲m̲e̲

For that yesterday is the past
Tomorrow i will last

Well he comes and goes
without a heart
everyone knows

The smile you broke
I can't find the pieces to it
now I'm broke

He's old
gotta say it

But his mind
is never playing

He writes without a saying
yet he says what everyone is thinking

It's not 2015 anymore
I'm not so small
and torn

Sharp like thorn

He comes and goes

When the tree's leaves fall
I'll remember
our lost days

When you painted them white

Christmas never felt so warm
I'll always remember

do you believe forever is real

every time I see your name
I'm convinced
forever is a lie

I didn't cryy
I can't process your lies

you gave me a good day
now all my nights are ruined

you won't hear me say a word
you won't find a happy ending

I am wrong
I don't care
I won't take the blame

sorry
I have no apologies

every bad thing you said about yourself
was true

is it so
crazy
to ask
someone
please
love me
even if
it's
a lie
my
lowest
place
I'm just
seeking
company
it feels
like I
live
with a
ghost
I see her
do everything
while I
sit back and
watch
waiting for
someone
this can't
be right
there
must
be
someone

love me
I beg
is it
too
much
to ask
don't
leave me
here
don't
let
me go
I'll turn
off my
morning
alarms
stay with me
is it a
possibility
I'll be loved
in this
lifetime
or am I
destined
to be
lonely
and miserable
every monday
starting the week
wishing for
silly romance

pathetic
it seems
I let pride
get the best of me
if I keeping
saying one day
maybe I'll
just forget
about today
trying
to forget
another
wasted
valentines day
I hope
you're not
reading this
go on
be happy
I bet you
have someone
to be so
lonely
like me
I wouldn't
wish it
on my
enemies
no more
crying
for me
I take
my tiny
heart
with
no hope
it will
survive
it's last
breath
on
the
lost love
I'll never have

I invite the cold inside my room
this november rain
missing you hurts

come into my world
let's stay in wonderland

my hands are falling off
I can't hear the sound
thinking about you is the worst

leaving first
you won't stay
loving you hurts

yellow roses
in my coffee

thinking of you
if I call you back
I'll keep dreaming

I don't want to be in love with you
for so long

I know that the feelings never last forever

water so cold
by the morning so warm

I don't want to know if you love me or not

there are clouds in my
glass of milk

dreamy little star

White
Is too pure
For my kind

I am too broken
But I am caring

Red was everything to me
Because it was everything
I would see

And lastly

Blue because
I wanted  to drown
In an ocean
Of depression

Don't defend me

I feel the shame
from miles away

I know I'm guilty
but you made me feel so afraid

I can't be happy in my own skin
I can't look at my face

Ever since you saw my flaws
I know I can't be enough

Chew me up
Swallow your lies
You turn your face to side

Walk away when you lie
You can't help
   never answer back

Cut me up
throw me around

Now I'm gone

I kinda miss
the way
You never loved me

The way you made me feel
so less

A lovely
lonely feeling

Inside me chest
whenever I'm with you

My
Mr lonely

I spent valentines day alone
you didn't say happy birthday till she said so

you didn't ask about my purple hair
I know you don't care

I've been thinking about you
spinning in my head
dizzy in a waltz

my dreams are all about loving you
then I wake up to loathe you

forcing my eyes open
cover the hole in my heart with a band aid

hurts more to know
you don't want to let me go
kills me to know you don't want me at all

come find me
I'll let you go
I can finish us off

can I see the moon again
or
should I see the stars today

I just want to take them home
with me

and put one on the ceiling

I'm too greedy
taking your love for granted

I use you to feel better
about myself

can I have the moon
and put it outside
for me

I just want the sky for me

not for anyone else

The clouds touch the moon
Please come out soon

So strange to see you
Hours later
You were covered in red

Feels like I'm in wonderland
with you tonight

No lights

Gives me butterflies
This is my kind of wonderland

Out in the sand
Moon waves

Come out
Come out

Stay out of the clouds

You were in my nature
Destroyed to soon

Got a heart I don't even use
When will I admit it

Staying away from
Conversations
About me

Sleepovers
In my bed
Why can't you
Just lay closer
To me

It's like you know
That when I see you go

I'll be left torn

Not gonna stop
You from leaving the next day

I just fell
Somewhere
I fell for
You
At night

Don't know how
Or why

Maybe it was when I felt
Your arms around me

dₑₐᵣ ℓ,
ᵢ wₒₙdₑᵣ wₕₑₙ wₐₛ ₜₕₑ fᵢᵣₛₜ ₜᵢₘₑ yₒᵤ ᵢₙₕₐₗₑd ₚₒᵢₛₒₙ ᵤₚ yₒᵤᵣ ₕₑₐd

ᵢ wₐᵢₜₑd fₒᵣ yₒᵤ ᵢₙ ₜₕₑ dₐᵣₖ ₐₗₗₑy
ₑᵥₑₙ wₕₑₙ ᵢ ₖₙₑw yₒᵤ wₑᵣₑₙ'ₜ cₒₘᵢₙg

ᵢ ⱼᵤₛₜ wₐₙₜₑd ₜₒ dₐₙcₑ ₛₒₘₑwₕₑᵣₑ ₐₗₒₙₑ
fₒᵣ yₒᵤ ₜₒ ₕₒₗd ₘₑ cₗₒₛₑ

ᵢ ₛₐw yₒᵤ ₖᵢₛₛ ₘy fᵣᵢₑₙdₛ
ᵢ fₑₗₜ ₐ ₚₐᵢₙ ᵢₙ ₘy cₕₑₛₜ
ₗᵤₙgₛ ₜᵢgₕₜₑₙₑd wᵢₜₕ ᵣₑgᵣₑₜ

ℓ,
wₕₐₜ ₜᵢₘₑ dᵢd yₒᵤ ₛwₐₗₗₒw ₜₕₒₛₑ ₜᵢₙy ₚᵢₗₗₛ
dᵢd yₒᵤ ₜₕᵢₙₖ yₒᵤ'ₗₗ ₙₑᵥₑᵣ fₐₗₗ ᵢₗₗ

ₜᵣy ₕₐᵣdₑᵣ
yₒᵤᵣ ₙₒₛₑ ᵢₛ bₗₑₑdᵢₙg
ₐₛ yₒᵤ'ᵣₑ ₗₐᵤgₕᵢₙg

ᵢ ⱼᵤₛₜ wₐₙₜ ₜₒ ₖₙₒw wₕₑₙ ᵢₜ ₐₗₗ ₕₐₚₚₑₙₑd

I put my pain inside a bottle
Drink it up
another swallow

I'm night
You're day

Stuck sharing the same day

Wishful sleep

Sleep away the sleepiness
sleep away the heartache

I felt that this love could be permanent

Waste of space
Worthless bones

A little to curious of the afterlife

I wouldn't want to come back

me sigues en mis sueños

me tocas el corazon

I'm okay

te quiero

si no me quieres

está bien

te veo en mis sueños

no dejas mi corazón

It's 23:11
I know we all feel lonely
And depressed

I've never asked anyone to hold me
I let the stress drown inside me

It's almost midnight
I know we don't feel right

I write for me

I'll show you
the worst of me

Give me the best of you


It's 23:12

No more wishes
no more empty dreams

There's a hole in my heart
I have to fill

We're all lonely

It's never a loving feeling

I hope you know all
that I don't at all anymore
I think it's for sure

you can break my heart
if I can break yours

back to back
we don't see eye to eye

if God hates me
I hate him too

angel boy your wings are suffocating
I can't breathe

you can see inside
don't reach out

I can see you falling
will you ignore me now

find my soul
give it a home

we won't survive
the burden

your guilty conscious
is killing us all

I was hoping
it'd stay

don't fade away
can I do it again

life is pretty
people starve
people ****
people run
people suffer
life is beautiful
people rob
people hate
people discriminate
people die

what's a day in your life
some can't live with their minds
some are looking for a life

this is life

cutting my fingers off

I want to befriend the birds
that land by my window
in the morning

the cat that almost
came inside my kitchen
the same morning

cutting out my eyes

I want to leave my home
take a one-way ticket to the moon

foot on the gas
passing all the red lights
I'm ready to go

twisting my skin
turning into dust

passing all the stop signs
I'm ready to go

swallow my tongue

I've gone insane
in a few days

the flesh on my body
melting away

I'm eating up clouds
but I still feel so hollow

I know my heart will always stay shallow