clementine she's like me
he pinches my cheeks I pout
still not over you

thinking of the days
why did you leave far away
he thinks just like me

daydreaming beside you
where everyone knows my name
they will stay with me

how are you
how are you

are you okay
are you okay

i miss you right now

repeating things in my head
where did it all go wrong

i'm so forgettable
everyone throws me away

i wish we never met
but im happy we did

im a bad friend
i only know
once they hate me

getting caught in the dangerous wind
i knew you weren't safe
but your tornado was flying away
and the thunder was quiet all day
we played in the rain all day
and we had fun
until the lighting  struck between the trees
the little puddles were nice
and we jumped
in the rivers
the dirt in our faces
was a mess
but your eyes
cleared up the way
we tied our hands together
and you put your arms
around my waist
and there was a storm all day
but you kissed me like if it was the end

every time it rains
I'm reminded
I need an umbrella

you painted a starry sky
on your nails
and the reflection in your eyes
says everything you hide

not sure what to do
I wish I could be with you

be well
sometimes listening to your heart
can break you apart

and if you think it's love
it may not feel like love

open your sad eyes

the world is waiting for you

i'm so brainwashed
with the toxic smell
of chlorine

i am floating
in my swimming pool
all day

you don't like me so much

skin and hair wet
you say my eyes look red

well dear that's because
i've been writing

underwater poetry

all day

trying to let my eyes tear away
oh shush
keep it down

I just want us alone
with nobody

tell me when you'll come again
I'll make sure to leave an impression

wearing a pink shirt
I hate

oh shush
don't talk now

I don't want anyone around
just us

will you hear me out
come out
where are you hiding

I want him
but only part of him

oh shush

want no one around

stay for a while longer

I'm not scared of your darker side
please come out

I love the mysterious

My shadow runs into the smoke

Does it matter now

How much pain I went through

All the nights I cried

so far away

It doesn't matter

so why bother
give me sympathy
it's too late now

Maybe if we go back to the days
when I slept with pain
if only you could tell that girl
Your worries

Not me now

I'm your sunshine

You don't realize
I'm standing in the dark

Hiding my real face

Feels so long
Since I've felt depressed

It doesn't matter anymore

I sleep it off

Can't trust me or you
Because I am a liar

I'm falling asleep
I love it
I love this

my dreams feel like I'm living another life
I'm inside different worlds
parallel universe

I love it
help me fall asleep

let me breathe

I just want to live inside these dreams

prince charming

will come and save me

because that's how the story goes

I was made to suffer
and for him to be the hero

I wait in my tower
full of despair
rotting away

prince charming
will find me soon
or so they tell me

but I know
prince charming is far from home
he's somewhere playing with someone's heart

I suffer and
wait for my savior

let me die in my bed
waiting for true love's kiss

prince charming
can't you come over
are you busy or did you give up

I'm tired
of this sick
twisted love story

know it's
unfair

god punished me
and made me a girl

with this heavy heart of misery
oh prince charming
please come and **** me

change the story
and end my life

save me
and become the villain

just this once

tired of loving you
you pressed me like a flower
still growing
I'm still breathing
what are you thinking
I can't move
tear me apart
I'll find my roots
find myself far away from you

all I ever said
was for you
for you
all for you
everything for you

never did I think
and me?
and for myself?
nothing
I have nothing now

Everything is embarrassing

i don't know where i am going
i don't have a direction anymore
i am tired of walking
if only i could fly
maybe i should just swim or
drown and say goodbye

Staring into the moon
I'm drawn to you

Breaking my heart
Slowly ripping myself apart
It no longer hurts

I sleep and dream in paradise

Are you mad?

Are you mad
I'm over the moon

I'm so far away
Flying over the moon

I thought I told you
I can't fix you

You are
Who you are

I can buy you bandaids
It'll never heal your broken veins


When we're together I can't hear you breathe

Are you mad

I'm not here
Beside you

On the moon
Looking down on you

You want to leave
let's fight
let's talk
things over

I don't want to play your games no more
I can't get any help
I'm going in circles
someone help

let's fight
talk things over
play nice
start the game
I never win

I don't want to play this game no more
can someone help

can I get any more
lonely

why don't you talk to me

are you always pretending

somebody help me

I've got a big heart
why does it feel empty

why am I not loving
why am I not loved

am I unlovable?
I feel so lovesick for a stranger

it hurts to
loveless

love
is it worth it?

love
can't find it

love
I'm in misery

forgive me
all the ways you love me
I can't accept

I fail to realize
you can't love the same way I do

keep a lock on my heart
I don't want to be heartbroken

Can we be friends
Can't we just talk

So many clouds
no rain at all

I haven't seen the sun in days

My heart feels like plastic
I hate summer
I don't want it to end

She's angry
She's still talking happy

Asking about your plants
yes their still alive
I look over them
time to time

I hear the rain
miles away

I carry the wind
whispering inside

Run away
I'm not going to fight

Can we be friends

terrified
Of
opening my heart to you

Something might go wrong

It always does

trying to get closer to you

I'm waiting for the rain

I see the clouds

Not one
single drop
has fallen

Am I
avoiding you
I don't know where you are
now I'm lost
in lost beliefs
It's hurting me too
are you trying to reach me
too far away
wandering
searching for someone
the same
It doesn't feel okay
read about an order
feels so wrong
I'm avoiding you
I don't know what to say
I always disappoint
draw the line
I'm no better alone
waiting for you to hold my hand
when I fall asleep

broken down
small town
sleeping on the phone
do you even hear him
He can't hear you
growing my nails
I'm out of control
winter faded away
stuck between wet cold clouds
full of warm water

oh god
I hate all of this

oh god
you don't exist

oh god
I'm alone

there's no one to look for in the dark

oh god
I'm coming to an end

oh god
it's the coming of age

you take me back
you remind me of all the good feelings

I feel frustrated
I'm so sick of this weather

I wish I could call you at midnight
the magical hour when my heart opens
I'd spill out my secrets I'd tell you everything you don't know

I'm giving up
I'm letting go
I'm holding on
I'm off and on

I've been feeling like a lost cause
please stay up
I need to see your voice

come alive

this is our last life

you meet me halfway

standing at the end

I count all my steps

I forget where I'm walking to

who did I talk to

was I with you yesterday

did you come to me

where did I go

I lose my head

left in the past

I'm staring behind me

time melts around me

I don't where I'll go

leaving dead

this must be my first life

is it time to go
I felt like an unknown guest
mourning with the clouds

I dream the same moon
over and over

Lightning behind wicked clouds
I'm running the streets
pitch dark

It's raining
but I'll find myself

Everyone is asleep
I'm on the edge of feeling alive

I'm running
lights flashing above

The rain can't touch me

I know I'm close

When the night falls
I become myself

Looking for my other half

I remember

I'm running

Am I out of the light
Am I in the dark yet

It's still cold
Fingers going numb
Maybe my heart too
Flowers aren't blooming
Trees aren't growing
It's snowing

Sun down
Hide out

I'm freezing
Walking around

I got a palace in me
A palace of memories
In the center of my heart
Telling me I'm their queen
They're bowing down
Telling me i should go back
I don't know how
And they talk about sacrifice

I'm getting confused
All my administrators
Tell me I'm fine

I should hurry up
Before it's too late
The memories can sometimes
Fade away
Moving on

I wanted to carry on

my hands
hurt

it's hot but negative zero
outside
I'll still turn the fan on

you don't want to say it
should I

I've been thinking
about saying everything

I want to scream it
out loud

you were my best friend
I was so happy in a world alone

you left me
there's nobody who will listen

you can throw the flowers out

you don't want to admit it
I'll ignore everything

my old best friend
I want to disappear but I don't want to let you go

it's going to hurt
if I leave

I'll stay for a while longer
just a little more suffering
a little more pain

to see my smile fade away

I'm all dressed up
hair messed up
lipstick fading

strangers in my home
I never remember meeting

I never agreed to this absurd birthday party

all I wanted was to be left alone
in bed
tonight go stargazing

I feel like they're all using me

I'm not mad it's not me
I'm sad
I know it will never be me
with anyone at all

go on and be happy
with someone else

we're not friends
since our ending

I was so confused
when I saw the picture

the necklace around her neck

heart stopped beating
I guess it will never be me

not with you
never with anyone

I think I'll stay in bed
longer today

go on
go as a dream

drifting away
so swiftly
when I wake up

you're lucky
and I just feel empty
like always

this is what is supposed to be

I can't believe you don't love me

do you think you're better than me

if I turn around
look into your eyes
I won't catch you
I'd love to see you fall

losing sleeping over me
dreaming sweet dreams of me

rejecting your calls
ignoring your touch

I can't believe it
you don't love me!

I laugh
and I cry

I can't believe I love you

I think we aren't meant to be

falling in and out of love
this is not real love
but I loved you simply because

it's not enough
to burn myself for you

it's not enough
to lose my mind and body

it's the missed details
all of the unseen marks

I can't wake up today
so close my door if you decide to stay

I'll hate myself again
when I realize I can only write in pain

here it starts
this is where it begins

from the top to the bottom
of a page

it's not enough
to be addicted

it's not enough
to lose my reality

when all I want to do
is sink further into
a suffocating abyss

this one is different than the rest
it's a different type of darkness

even if it hurts and kills me
just as the others did

none of my friends care about what I want to say
about what I have to say

now I'm overthinking
I don't want to be annoying

pushed away
or do I keep pulling

I'm kinda sick
but that doesn't matter

we don't ask eachother

are we doing okay
we're just standing around

waiting to see who makes the first sound


it kinda hurts

this is the best we can be

this is so so close


ask me what time I went to sleep


I saw you awake
hearing your favorite song

hey poetry
why do you follow me

obsessed with me
you take control

poetic dreams

I write everything I see

sometimes I see a lie

the truth is blind

hey poetry

why
are you so close to me

stop following me

let me breathe
find a moment to speak

// What will you say now that I'm dead \

I killed myself
I'm lifeless
no one sees me
everyone is crying
yet I don't see their frowns
walk away
hurry up

I died
only to save me

I'm dead
I killed myself
where's all the love
I assumed they loved me

no one feels sorry
no one sees my bare body

my vacant eyes
drained of life

now I feel betrayed

six feet under

Follow me
follow me

I'll show you my dreams

I write
and say I can't feel

I write
when I'm empty
swimming in space

Follow me inside
the black hole
in my head


Feel the pressure within

I'm dying
to find out

Where this life goes

I even predicted my own death
for tomorrow

I'm grateful
to view the moon
and it's beauty
let its light touch my body

To see the sunset
the magical  
time of day
where the sun goes off
to shine other parts of the earth
see the sunrise
coming up again to
light up my day

I'm waiting for spring
to see the flowers bloom
the trees living
butterflies flying

I'm waiting to live again
be connected with everything around me

you swallow so many pills
all for a goodnight sleep

do the ghosts
still keep you awake

the only words I can ever say
goodnight
goodnight
goodnight

never gave me the chance to say
good morning

you never do

it's late
why do we only talk
when you're running away

the only words I can say
you give me no chances

goodnight
goodnight
goodnight

do you have to go
to a different place
you're dimensions away

you're in my dreams
quiet mornings trying to forget

you make me go to sleep
I can't believe
I hate that you know
where I sleep
I want to tear away
the skin of my face
break my bones
I'm so wrong
to keep wanting
to let everything go
now everyone sees
what I see
It gets harder to breathe
my veins feel weaker
as I move
I don't speak my pain
so where does it go
the pit of my stomach
or the far end of my throat

asking myself
what do I live for
who do I live for

I love my bed
I love your smile
and the scent of your perfume

We will fade

I know time moves past us
You will fade

Like clouds after a storm

And when the world sleeps

I will fade

Leaving me behind

I've never met anyone
walk by my side

We fade
into the smoke
of our pain

Dust in the wind
I can hear you go

I don't want it
I've sacrificed my life


I'm fading

As long as I see you smile
I'll be okay