He said meet me outside
Wearing a disguise
Knew it was  a trap
Should've stayed inside
Next time i won't reply back
Don't let them ******* over
Take all that wasted power
Swore she had neon eyes
And grey skin
Just my imagination

She said to stay inside
Should've ran
While i had it
Now I'm answering to
Everything
Swore he was
A second sun
So blinding

Falling for every one

Send me hope
And dead roses

Wake me up when the sun is rising
and never let me sleep alone

We use to be static sounds
I'm so happy we came around

All I heard was white noise
draining down the plastic feeling

Told me you knew how I was feeling

I want to be your friend first
I want to hear your truth
Melt away the lies

I'll give you love letters
and a smile

I'll give you my head for a while

Should I remind you
I'm a broken mess
can't be fixed

All I want to do is go
I won't sleep
No goodnight for you

Please stop crying
don't ever worry

We all want understanding
what about empathy

Where's the love

I'm not the type
to open my heart

I only open it
to myself

Full moon soon
endings comfort me

Feels like I'll love you forever

It's always all about me //
                                         It's never because of you

I'm not mad it's not me
I'm sad
I know it will never be me
with anyone at all

go on and be happy
with someone else

we're not friends
since our ending

I was so confused
when I saw the picture

the necklace around her neck

heart stopped beating
I guess it will never be me

not with you
never with anyone

I think I'll stay in bed
longer today

go on
go as a dream

drifting away
so swiftly
when I wake up

you're lucky
and I just feel empty
like always

this is what is supposed to be

how are you
how are you

are you okay
are you okay

i miss you right now

repeating things in my head
where did it all go wrong

i'm so forgettable
everyone throws me away

i wish we never met
but im happy we did

im a bad friend
i only know
once they hate me

I'm falling asleep
I love it
I love this

my dreams feel like I'm living another life
I'm inside different worlds
parallel universe

I love it
help me fall asleep

let me breathe

I just want to live inside these dreams

every time it rains
I'm reminded
I need an umbrella

i'm so brainwashed
with the toxic smell
of chlorine

i am floating
in my swimming pool
all day

you don't like me so much

skin and hair wet
you say my eyes look red

well dear that's because
i've been writing

underwater poetry

all day

he wants to rewind

whisper into a wall

she wants to rewind

count all the stars before she dies

I want to rewind

miss my old bed

can't undo all the mistakes
nothing I can change

Am I
avoiding you
I don't know where you are
now I'm lost
in lost beliefs
It's hurting me too
are you trying to reach me
too far away
wandering
searching for someone
the same
It doesn't feel okay
read about an order
feels so wrong
I'm avoiding you
I don't know what to say
I always disappoint
draw the line
I'm no better alone
waiting for you to hold my hand
when I fall asleep

I dream the same moon
over and over

Lightning behind wicked clouds
I'm running the streets
pitch dark

It's raining
but I'll find myself

Everyone is asleep
I'm on the edge of feeling alive

I'm running
lights flashing above

The rain can't touch me

I know I'm close

When the night falls
I become myself

Looking for my other half

I remember

I'm running

Am I out of the light
Am I in the dark yet

come alive

this is our last life

you meet me halfway

standing at the end

I count all my steps

I forget where I'm walking to

who did I talk to

was I with you yesterday

did you come to me

where did I go

I lose my head

left in the past

I'm staring behind me

time melts around me

I don't where I'll go

leaving dead

this must be my first life

I was flustered at the way you stared at me

you don't go away
not in my dreams

you stand so close
you can't even see

put my favorite song
dedicated to me

you had so many chances
you never proved anything

I took the words out of your mouth
guess you'll never know what I expected

my expectations are low for you
you dug yourself a hole

I will always come back
even if you don't

so many opportunities
it doesn't go through me

cross my heart
hope it breaks

I want all the love I have for you to go away

Can't trust me or you
Because I am a liar

I'm living my mistakes

no one knows the cost
I threw away all my second chances

doors closed
I think I'm forever trapped inside

rest in peace
my last piece of sanity
jumped out the window

sleepless soul
I'll never leave this house

I'm living my regrets

no one knows the rest
walking backwards into my grave

sleepless so

clementine she's like me
he pinches my cheeks I pout
still not over you

thinking of the days
why did you leave far away
he thinks just like me

daydreaming beside you
where everyone knows my name
they will stay with me

tired of loving you
you pressed me like a flower
still growing
I'm still breathing
what are you thinking
I can't move
tear me apart
I'll find my roots
find myself far away from you

You want to leave
let's fight
let's talk
things over

I don't want to play your games no more
I can't get any help
I'm going in circles
someone help

let's fight
talk things over
play nice
start the game
I never win

I don't want to play this game no more
can someone help

can I get any more
lonely

why don't you talk to me

are you always pretending

somebody help me

Staring into the moon
I'm drawn to you

Breaking my heart
Slowly ripping myself apart
It no longer hurts

I sleep and dream in paradise

Are you mad?

Are you mad
I'm over the moon

I'm so far away
Flying over the moon

I thought I told you
I can't fix you

You are
Who you are

I can buy you bandaids
It'll never heal your broken veins


When we're together I can't hear you breathe

Are you mad

I'm not here
Beside you

On the moon
Looking down on you

you take me back
you remind me of all the good feelings

I feel frustrated
I'm so sick of this weather

I wish I could call you at midnight
the magical hour when my heart opens
I'd spill out my secrets I'd tell you everything you don't know

I'm giving up
I'm letting go
I'm holding on
I'm off and on

I've been feeling like a lost cause
please stay up
I need to see your voice

I'm not scared of your darker side
please come out

I love the mysterious

My shadow runs into the smoke

Does it matter now

How much pain I went through

All the nights I cried

so far away

It doesn't matter

so why bother
give me sympathy
it's too late now

Maybe if we go back to the days
when I slept with pain
if only you could tell that girl
Your worries

Not me now

I'm your sunshine

You don't realize
I'm standing in the dark

Hiding my real face

Feels so long
Since I've felt depressed

It doesn't matter anymore

I sleep it off

Can we be friends
Can't we just talk

So many clouds
no rain at all

I haven't seen the sun in days

My heart feels like plastic
I hate summer
I don't want it to end

She's angry
She's still talking happy

Asking about your plants
yes their still alive
I look over them
time to time

I hear the rain
miles away

I carry the wind
whispering inside

Run away
I'm not going to fight

Can we be friends

terrified
Of
opening my heart to you

Something might go wrong

It always does

trying to get closer to you

I'm waiting for the rain

I see the clouds

Not one
single drop
has fallen

getting caught in the dangerous wind
i knew you weren't safe
but your tornado was flying away
and the thunder was quiet all day
we played in the rain all day
and we had fun
until the lighting  struck between the trees
the little puddles were nice
and we jumped
in the rivers
the dirt in our faces
was a mess
but your eyes
cleared up the way
we tied our hands together
and you put your arms
around my waist
and there was a storm all day
but you kissed me like if it was the end

trying to let my eyes tear away
oh shush
keep it down

I just want us alone
with nobody

tell me when you'll come again
I'll make sure to leave an impression

wearing a pink shirt
I hate

oh shush
don't talk now

I don't want anyone around
just us

will you hear me out
come out
where are you hiding

I want him
but only part of him

oh shush

want no one around

stay for a while longer

It's a new day
Doesn't change who i am

Or all the songs I've been listening
To

Everyone has woken up
And they still look the same

We prepare for a change
Instead of taking action

Hoping tomorrow never happens

Everything is embarrassing

I've got a big heart
why does it feel empty

why am I not loving
why am I not loved

am I unlovable?
I feel so lovesick for a stranger

it hurts to
loveless

love
is it worth it?

love
can't find it

love
I'm in misery

forgive me
all the ways you love me
I can't accept

I fail to realize
you can't love the same way I do

keep a lock on my heart
I don't want to be heartbroken

I'm all dressed up
hair messed up
lipstick fading

strangers in my home
I never remember meeting

I never agreed to this absurd birthday party

all I wanted was to be left alone
in bed
tonight go stargazing

I feel like they're all using me

It's been a sentimental month
filled with sweat, tears, and fake smiles
Impulsive actions
sleeping early in the morning
Sixteen years have gone by
She's getting sentimental again
this month has been a raging storm
much like the one in Jupiter

Sixteen years have passed
She's sentimental

City walks
under the street lights
uneasy
quiet feelings

driving in the rain
waiting to get there

///////////the/////////////////////////////////////////////
///////sun//////////////////////////////////////////////////
////////////will//////////////////////////rise/////////////
///////in///////////delight///////////////////////////////

I know the world is inside a dark time
the moon lies silent
the sun isn't singing

There will come a time
soon
We'll have a moment of peace

The earth will take a deep breath

The moon will start dancing
and the sun will sing its lullaby

It's still cold
Fingers going numb
Maybe my heart too
Flowers aren't blooming
Trees aren't growing
It's snowing

Sun down
Hide out

I'm freezing
Walking around

I can't believe you don't love me

do you think you're better than me

if I turn around
look into your eyes
I won't catch you
I'd love to see you fall

losing sleeping over me
dreaming sweet dreams of me

rejecting your calls
ignoring your touch

I can't believe it
you don't love me!

I laugh
and I cry

I can't believe I love you

I think we aren't meant to be

is it time to go
I felt like an unknown guest
mourning with the clouds

broken down
small town
sleeping on the phone
do you even hear him
He can't hear you
growing my nails
I'm out of control
winter faded away
stuck between wet cold clouds
full of warm water

oh god
I hate all of this

oh god
you don't exist

oh god
I'm alone

there's no one to look for in the dark

oh god
I'm coming to an end

oh god
it's the coming of age

i don't know where i am going
i don't have a direction anymore
i am tired of walking
if only i could fly
maybe i should just swim or
drown and say goodbye

it's not all about me
                                //      it's all because of you

what's on your mind
I can't tell you what's on mine

disconnected
are we still best friends

I can be isolating
you're away in unknown places

trying to find new love
even if you cross my mind

tempted
and delusional

hoping we find our way back together
I can't find someone better

you're the worst of all
no one hurts me like you

you're so unloving
leave me wanting more

more and more till
I crumble apart

keep to myself
don't ever give up

crack my heart open
I have to leave you
you'll love me after I go

I got a palace in me
A palace of memories
In the center of my heart
Telling me I'm their queen
They're bowing down
Telling me i should go back
I don't know how
And they talk about sacrifice

I'm getting confused
All my administrators
Tell me I'm fine

I should hurry up
Before it's too late
The memories can sometimes
Fade away
Moving on

I wanted to carry on