darling
my eyes have turned grey
from looking at a white screen all day

darling
I can't hear a sound
from the heavy music in my ears

and now I'm frozen
I can't move
only my arms

why did you leave
now your in a cage

stay on the line

maybe then

I've been
        I've been
                Thinking too too much
To know nothing
At all

I just
    I just
Don't don't
          Know
      What
  Life
Is
Anymore

feeling so sonder

I hope your soul gets rest

fingertips bleeding

barely breathing

now I turn in my sleep

wearing all black

twisting my back

piece all the words

probably hurt

avoiding the blur

closing my eyes

losing sight

should've never fallen in love with a musician
he was going to leave
to tour the world
oh poor girl

I have to rewind
oh come on
take me back when I was seven
just gotta have it

throw all those cigarettes away
I want paradise
why can't I rewind

no matter how hard I try

Mhm
She says
Loves the white lines
On the table
And now it's up her head

She can't get enough
Loving the effects
Separating white lines
Now she's upside down

Can't hear the reason
The sirens
Eyes all the way up
And head down
Her head isn't working

she likes it
So she's doing it
On the weekdays

Maybe even on Saturday's

You showed me
True love
Pure blood
Oh I gave you a hug
But now
Were apart

The full moon is coming through
The window
I'll never learn to love you

Songs got me thinking of the summer
If only i could remember

No money
Now your always crying
Saying you can help me
You cannot

I guess you wasted all of it
Being a saint
People don't remember your name
After weeks
Disappearing in the city

The green turns brown
Not in our town

You got me spilling over
All my feelings
On the floor
the early morning
Hearing noises
From our empty heads
I can feel it from the
Back of my neck

Things only get worse
Before
Something very bad
Then happens

So now
Were both crying

oh oh
hope you see now

got soap in my eyes
why is everything so bright

you were maimed
could it have been me
oh please

so much money
are you just going to throw
it up in the air

I miss it
miss hearing through both ears
sick
sick of it

woke up by an explosion
scared by my own heartbeat
realized I was only dreaming

out to attack
not to protect
got to take a break
all this hammering
will fade away

got to take a deep breath
so many things going on
I can't focus

inhale
to realize
you failed

exhale
why didn't you stay here

white dots
in the dark
I felt like improving myself

just a man
I do what I can

why don't you step up to me
call me out
playing you
it's so much fun to do
I'm only doing it on purpose
so I can get you to notice

got so many drafts
I can't complete
so transparent
I can see what your about to say
I can see it's going to rain
even though the sun is melting

we'll only last this century
by 2100
were gone

your tattoos sum you up
even the ones
that don't have meanings

confusion
with writing
distracting myself
with other things

you take pictures
to get accepted by others
feeling loved with
the many likes
they give you

reunion soon
nobody likes to call you
we probably won't meet
for a couple years

were the type
to sit in silence
with staring eyes
never know what
were feeling

smell your cigarette smoke from the second floor
from my window
you should stop buying them
they're so cheap
and you stink

Am i scared
I can't hear my heart beat

Only the thunder rumbling

It's been raining all week
Finally some inner peace

I see things from my peripheral vision
That aren't in front of me

Sleep late
Check
Wake up
Follow the same routine
Again

I don't know what to do
Other than think about you

When i wake up
And ask you how you've been
I expect you to let me in

All i do is think about you
We should be more than friends
I think about us in my head

We watch horror movies
And laugh till the end
I can't take a break

So sad
So mad
I can't hear the rain
Aganist my window

Why am i falling apart
The gods
They hate me now

Let's take a deep breath
Admit we don't feel the same

I'll live in a better city
Some day

Serenity when it's raining
But i can't hear the
Raindrops falling

The gods
Haunt me
Now

At least
I'm powerful

paper memories
I know what we felt back then wasn't loving
told you call me anytime
from midnight to dawn
I have all our notes
waiting to burn them up
we don't remember each other's names
you don't remember all the things we did
staring off into space
to the times you liked me
they separated you and I
I'll be fine
just have to get you off my mind

there you go again
worrying about the things you shouldn't
it's all talk talk
told her to stop
but we never will in
This merry go round

We hold on
for our dear life
things don't change
after days
it seems we're just
spinning into the past

my mouth closed
I have nothing to say
only talking in my head
no one can hear me then

my skin is rotting
don't feel like talking
All I do is scratch my skin till I bleed
listening to the songs you said were bad
I told all my friends that I don't like you anymore
but I lied
still meeting you tomorrow night
hope you don't see my
psychotic flaws
or my medication pills
I got my prescription filled
I tell myself act normal
before meeting up with you
it seems to be working
hope you don't notice
the marks
maybe I should get a tattoo
to cover it all up
I'm slowly drying into the ground
It hurts to breathe in deep
you'll still like me right
a little bit crazy
not too much