hoping I can calm down
since your around
looking around

so nervous to exist around you

swear to god your so beautiful
made from heaven

your blood and veins so royal

time is running off
I have to catch up

now it's all switched around

it was meant for you all along

I said I wasn't going to write
but now I'm sad
and lost

the silk thread we have tied
on our hands
is on tight
pulling us around

we haven't let go
I've had enough

I've never heard silence this loud
it makes me want to crawl
into a hole and hide

I want to forget

I also want to forgive

don't know which you deserve best

finally at my moon
it's mine
I took it

I'm turning one number older too
but that doesn't change who I am

I just want to skip
into December
wearing my sweaters

not hearing all the nonsense
in my ears

Now that we are broken up
don't delete all the kisses
I sent you of love

don't delete all the memories
of the mornings
we spent in love

what if it isn't made for me?
loving

I hope we both aren't too forgotten

that's just
that's just

how you are
with love

can't keep it
can't see it
doesn't feel it

leaving
after a broken heart

maybe I'll give you another chance
in some other world

Snowflakes
White snow
Cold breeze
Red nose
Blue winter blue
I was dead before I met you

Brown leaves
Golden keys
You don't see what I see

Sun's out
No clouds
I found
Someone else

It's the seasonal change
That makes my soul
Into waves
Vibrating
Into your chest

The love I once felt
Was a pattern of heartbeats

That now beats
Differently

I want it all
I want it all
but you give me none
saying I'm an addict
could you make me quit it
you know I love it

staring at the ceiling
I need it more than anything
I want it more than anything

now all you do is feel pity
bones and flesh are so weak
nothing matters
if you don't have thoughts
and a brain

now I'm embarrassed
can you tell
did you notice

sitting in silence
hiding away the poison

I was up in the charts
everyone said I had a spark
why am I alone

been giving you the side of my face too much
no eyes

I was up in the clouds
everyone saw me fly
so why am I falling

I've been too silent
not helping

I was deep inside dark chambers
everyone told me I was lost
I was feeling numb

isolation
the solitude I had
was insane talking to walls

I was in hell where I saw fires grow
and everyone told me to go
the smoke became too heavy I couldn't breathe anymore

destruction seems to get us all
I'm somewhere else
lungs so intoxicated deep down

I've been to places
down and in heaven,
if only I could feel it
in the moment