Where is this God
who everyone speaks of?

On vacation
Or in a eternal sleep

Maybe it's just a dead end
We'll die from global warming

And where is this devil
everyone is scared of

He doesn't seem to influnce us
It's those who are in power

Where is your guardian angel

Are we really corrupted
by demons and evil beings

Could it just be your head

Where is this God

Who'll punish all

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I still pray for the end of times

I follow all the young women
writing down their pain
to relate

I follow all the young girls
trying to write out a piece of true love

I follow those who dream of perfection

Who want something more
than what is given

true love
It's only a myth
A soulmate you wish for
doesn't exist

I only ever follow the girls
who know the disappointments

the women who are well with heart breaks

all so I can say
yes I feel the same

I write when the world is asleep

Nothing matters me to

It doesn't matter what you say

I'm sick of repeated conversations

trying to wash off the stress

I think that I can't get a moment alone

Let me breathe
to walk on the sunset
today

I was on fire
I was an angel
I had the power

It won't matter if you love me in the end

I can find new love
wherever I walk

When I can't sleep
my mind wonders
of us

love your smile
time with you
is all I think about now

Every where I go
You're on speed dial

so warmed up
I can't hang up

I hug the streetlight
in hopes that you'll see me

Lighting up

what a blue summer
counting down the days
that seem so far away

Lately I want to break everything
I want to break each glass dish
and break a window

Throw the tv down the stairs


What a blue summer
I feel it every year

the chlorine
sun waves
and sunburned

the water gets warmer
and the day is longer

I can't find the right time
to see the stars

Probably die
with you on my mind

I can't go back in time

I think you don't love me anymore

I miss our moments
that have passed away

I became numb
ever since you left me

I wished I was dead
I'm sorry


Overdosed on pain
take me home
back when you had my back

I dream of us together
I know you do too

Wish I hadn't left
leaving us dead

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I can't apologize
I never took the blame

Laying in my grave

I'll save us another time
in another life

fresh music
new songs

inspiration in each lyric

poetry
pounds around in my head

I get tired of writing
disposable feelings

I'm the only ghost in this house
trying to find heaven
from the windows

blowing breeze
June is passing away

I didn't notice the stars leaving
or the sky changing

I wanted to buy strawberries today
only to see one in the night sky

I see your face
It's either you or the clouds moving

Soon I won't be able to see you
but for now

I see you setting high into the sky

you begin to minimize


covered with glowing clouds

I'll see you around

I've been walking around
trying to figure it out

I can't reach out to myself

I'm trying to hide away
the bad parts

the parts you'll never know

I'm building walls
and I can't reach you anymore
closing everyone off

I'm falling down
hiding away the bad parts

slipping away
picking out the bad parts

I'll leave the good parts
you'll love me

Holding myself close

I'm starting to grow old

Please stay around me
don't want to see you disappear
like everyone I know

Your comforting hold
I hope you never let go

My heavy head
on your shoulder
I lay

I'll be what you expect
as long we feel like the stars
so close but far away

I'll never let this go

Come hold me heartbreaker
there's no love the same
I eat up all your lies

like the ocean
so deep
without end

Overwhelming
I can't lie to you
but I can let you down

Empty houses
with lost souls
intertwine with mine

You were looking for something


all around me
is running shadows
even my own

Come hold me in your cold arms
We'll never move on

Drinking milk
white as the moon

I've stopped asking
where you go

no matter how far away
whatever time

I'll fill the blank pages
to our lost stories

no matter if you're gone
if you'll never come back

I won't stop loving

hard to accept
I still can't sleep early

where you stay
I'll always look forward to the morning

I'll treasure our moments
I'll fill the blank pages

You're intertwined
now in my heart

But you always come close
I'm trying to let go
maybe god does hear me talk
hearing rainfall
late at night

When I'm with you
I get the feeling
everything will be fine

You've never answered my question
and I've died

Going online
hope to stay connected
to the people
who've forgotten me

I dream of the day
When all of this goes away

Today I looked at the sky
I noticed it was blue

A blue I've never seen before

With a tree so high
I bet it touches the clouds

They keep building walls
around me
I no longer see the street lights

everything crumbles around me
falling apart

Love is just a memory

I don't remember if the sky was always this beautiful

I can't see you anymore
I can't feel you around

but I hoped you would show up
miracles don't exist
in my lifetime

waiting for love

I know she'll come soon

I missed you last month
last week
last Saturday
and Sunday
today
and tomorrow
maybe forever

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but I do not miss you
I miss the moments we spent together
and wish to live them again

I'll always miss you
even in my last breath

Your death
a surprise
I tried to deny

What am I suppose to feel
when bitter december comes

I was trying to hate you
so I wouldn't miss you
when you leave

but my plans never work out

I'm painting my nails black
the room filled with lavender air

You made me love you in a day

I'll wake up
with you gone

Don't know when you'll come back

I'll sleep tonight

Know you'll cry on your way outside

sleep tonight

I'll mourn over you
In the night

Feels like I'll love you forever

There's nothing more that hurts my heart

I can't go back to the months we spent together

And undo all the lies

Why don't you come back

The street's are covered in darkness
and the clouds are partly visible

The sky looks grey

I'm afraid
I live in a ghost town

Where no one knows their name
or where to go

We can't find home

And money is little

An orange hue
is glowing from far away

The storm's remains are dripping from the ceiling

I've realized it's only my street
without light

I'm hoping the stars come out soon
It's midnight

The silence is almost chilling

I wish I could remember my name


It's washed away
somewhere inside a puddle

I don't find interest in anything you have to say

I wish lightning were to strike me then

It's your presence
now I feel so sickened

asking myself when will the rain fall

don't want to hear you talk

to amazed by the sound of thunder

It's been you
You
You


Throwing out memories
inside my head
I can't see myself just you

I know we climb this mountain
to come down so often

I know this life isn't what we wanted

Separated
You and I

In another universe

We're still side by side

There is a reason I never return your calls

I don't have nothing to say
I wish I could forget about you
and all the memories we've made

There's a reason we only text

I can't hear your voice
I have no words to express my feelings
you don't make it easier

There's a reason I can't see you

I'm hurt
I don't want to cry or get mad
It can go both ways

I just don't want your face in my head
I don't want to see you in my dreams

I've been half lucid
half livid

feel like this is love
loving in the dark

with the electricity cut off
storm is off somewhere close

Lighting show

Feel the love
By your side

I was wondering if you are mine
or is it just in the night

I'm constantly changing
now everyday I'm dreaming

You lay by the sun
so I won't see you leave
I can't believe
I'm really nothing

today I feel like a speck of dust
against all these people
who have luck

I just want to go home
wherever that is

I want to give you all your lies and broken promises back

I want to turn back time
and tell myself to not trust you the way I did

now I'm sad because I always think you'll pick me over them

My heart is an open window
Breeze coming in
Sunlight shines
moonlight glows

I have been thinking of you

Now that you're leaving
I'm not prepared to be sad

My heart
is open
for you to stay

I'll close it soon
Won't you come inside

I've loved you so much

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It's all gone to waste

I don't want your empty love
Please go away

want to know all my secrets
I run the streets
in the pouring rain
june isn't what I expected

faced my seasonal depression
it's welcomed inside my room

now I dream every day
of a strange day
I can't remember

I'm the monster in your dreams
I destroy everything I touch

whenever someone loves me
It's just a ticking bomb

I don't care if it rains

the windows can shatter
the ceiling can fall

I just don't want to see the morning anymore

I love you
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I hope the day doesn't come
Where I don't love you enough

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I always wanted to be around you

now distance is all that's found

I use orbit around you

what happened to the chocolate bars you would buy me
lost in memories

I love you
I love the version of you I made up in my head

You'll never care now
I realized years ago
These blue days come back

Still wish you did care
Want to give a little bit
Time I think it's time

Sad songs in the dark
I'll throw my dreams drain myself
You don't see my heart

Hold a star in my hand
I'm hoping the moon takes a glance

Wish I could erase my love for you

Nothing will change my love for you

It's all for you to take
I'll give it all away

When the night ends
the star in hand will sleep

Sometimes I think of you with a sad look
playing a sad song
the clouds are grey
you can't see the sun today

I wonder why you were put in my life
I wish you had abandoned me
than to meet you

What a strange man I think
doesn't love his children
He must be heartless

Wish I was your stars
wish I was the moon

No not today
I can't be
not for a second

Can't give myself fully to you
I'm a half moon

I want to give myself to you
Don't take it personal
I'm a mess

I wish I was complete

Love the sun
Love the clouds

You can't love me
I'm a half moon

To the ocean
To the skies

I'm a half moon
I could never give myself fully to you

I hide away from you
We're becoming closer

I have things to hide
secrets tied

You wish you were in my dreams

I have to get away from you
I'm filled with lies

Just like a cigarette you let me in
I'll disappear into the wind

I turned myself into you
I hope you like me now

Do you watch the moon rise and fall

I'm waking up at dawn
to see the fog

I dreamed tonight
I wanna move
or fly

I dreamed last night
It felt like magic
I can't stop
sleeping

Dreaming of a paradise

Tomorrow isn't so exciting
I just want to sleep tonight

Dream a life I can't have

Shining summertime
A heavy, living cloud swims
into the flower

Trouble I'm no good
Loving myself what's the point
All I want is you