a flower
no
I'm the weeds
you pull out
throw out
I die out

maybe no one knows how to love

me
me
me

you don't know how to love me

I blame myself for being

the weeds

can't be your flower

I live in the wrong place
the wrong time

undesirable

I only blame myself

do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it
do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it do I deserve it


Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I
Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I
Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I                                       Do I Do I Do I

Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I Do I

tell me

Do I deserve anything

No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No
No

I don't

Love
And
Hate
I don't know
I wish I knew

your love is grey
it doesn't feel cold
I never feel warm

your love is grey
I don't feel it
sometimes I only want to see it

your heart is broken
I swim deep waters
to reach the missing pieces

I cut my wings
to keep you warm

why is your love so grey?
never get a smile
or expression of pain

not a sound of love
or sight of hate

Turn off the lights
Are you a vampire ??
close the curtains
no one is looking inside
I hate your laugh
I hate your voice

I want to jump out the window

Everything you do makes me go
You give me eye rolls

What's this game you play
No one will ever love you this way

You're so uptight
I can't breathe beside you

Let me steal your brain
Give yourself a break

Turn off the lights
I didn't ask

You make me so angry
I only wish to never see or hear you again

she said
people always run away
people never stay
I'm alone
happy you're coming along

where did she go
I wasn't looking

can't take care of you
I wish
it hurts a little

why are we here

want to stay
and be your somebody

are you with someone else

Can't trust me or you
Because I am a liar

happy stay
why are you crying
why are you crying
you don't love
you don't know
why are you crying
you can't hold on
hide
keep on hiding
why are you crying
you are going to die alone
you can't be with somebody
you don't love your body
why are you crying
can't hold me
you don't know
how to love me

feed me false fantasies
I know nothing is ever going to happen
fairy tales aren't real
I'm still looking after you

our love is temporary
everything with you is an ending
all I want
is for you to give me a reason
to begin

leave that room
leave that house
leave that virulent love

I love you
I love you

you can't love me good

I look for meaning in everything
except myself

I live on the road
All this open space

Feels like I never get a break

Think I broke my head
sleeping at dawn

She's always got a frown
tells me I don't need to punish myself
searching for my soul

I sold it at a crossroad
I had it all
selling my organs
I want it all back
I want more

I'm a lost spirit
my dreams whisper confusion

Everyone says why

I ask why

The answer is why

I love hearing the cries of a child
quiet down
hold them close
I'll never see them this vulnerable again

breathing demons
angel cutting
humans take advantage of God

I'm scared
I'm afraid
Petrified
Terrified
Of everything and everyone
Mostly fear towards
myself

Hiding underneath my softest blanket
turning off all the sounds of the world
covering up lights

Unprepared
I can't live inside my body

You only love God
when you're all alone

Let me see your shadow move
I want you to glow in the dark
touch me so lightly
I'll never know
My heart beats slow
waiting for the moment I can give it to you
Let me hear your breath dance with mine
Tangle up our sight
I only want to see for the rest of my life

Do you come alive
under the night sky

Do you wonder of infinite possibilities

Talk to the constellations
They miss you
They love you

Let me see your shadow move
Are you alive
in this unholy night

I love you too
I miss you too

I twinkle
I sparkle and ponder

Offline
You must like it
now I'm gone

Come
say goodbye

I wish I could love myself
I need to hold my hand before anyone else

Mama behave
you treat me like a friend
I never learned to stay still

My thoughts run into the streets
crashing between bodies and cars

Offline
Give me my common sense
I can't live without the internet
don't say
don't tell my friends

Hey mama
I don't love you like one
You must hate me now
I'm gone


I don't say goodbye

Why don't you ever hold my hand
Hey
Hey

Don't you know
can't you think

Notice
I've been feeling offline

Turn me off
I can't wake up
I don't see the sun
the stars don't sparkle

You painted me into a frame
I can't come out of

Inside my head
You'll never know
Kills you
You don't have the answer

can we die
can we die
I promise
it's only tonight

tomorrow
I see you
again
you're not inside my head
kills me
I miss you

I don't know how to answer

The desire
to live
in the night
unholy
shadows
hidden whispers

Where do you hide

asleep I'm so numb
unfolded rosebud
love
no eyes passing by

I die
when I fall asleep
wake me up inside a dream

oh satan I think I love you
love you more

I hope you love me
love me
when I'm the real me

love me
when I'm broken
bleeding into everyone I touch

love me
even if I'm happy

love me
when I don't need you anymore

love me
if I don't love myself

I know you're going to hurt me
give me mercy
I know you're going to hurt me

you'll **** me

love me while you can

you bore me
now I am dead

Thursday
come closer
stay
sunday morning

My angel
beautiful saint

why did you fall
in love

a devil
hungry for my heart

eat my soul
eternity
beside you

don't make me wait forever

sweet love
you love me like an angel

sweet darling
I see the devil in your eyes

Do you love me now?
I'm everything you ever wanted

I saw you die
I saw your skin melt away
into snow
on the side of the road
are you a moon dog now
I saw your breath
your life
float away into
a distant plane

I miss the silence
now that I don't have it

a quiet night
I feel it
Can't hear it
soundless

yeah I know
I'm not so important now

so I keep on looking

where I'll feel validated

sent you a letter every day
I had you in front of my mind
I gave you everything
even if it was mine

doesn't matter now
let's forget
the love

I was someone you depended on
now
I'm nothing
I'm feeling lost

emotional
and alone

I'm not so important now
it's because I don't have the world
I have nothing left to give

I wish I didn't have to see your face
swallowing the ******* tears and pain

I'm not important
I know

If you despise me
go away

if you are disenchanted
look away

say I sin
call my love forbidden

love the sinner I am
I feel like a god
my veins
almost closing in

this love is all I need

Am I
your doll?

Do you think
you can drag me anywhere you want

drop me
wherever you like

every time
I break

you expect to see me in perfect conditions

Am I
your doll?

give me your sadness
give me your flaws
I'll swallow them down
I'll hate myself
drinking down my tears
I can't take this

your flaws
my sadness
goodbye
I'm not fine
it's okay
I'm so fine
I lie
our love is a lie

so easy to hate you
never a time to love you

I have nothing in life
I got nothing for life

you ruined my name
I'll live in your shadow
no one knows me
they know me for you

life gives me pain
life punishes me

you ruined my name
I can't be my own person
I'll live in your reflection

it hurts
it hurts
I can't tell nobody
I can't be someone else

I'm climbing trees
I'm losing life

I'm petrified of becoming the person I hate

Inside
And
Outside

I asked for rain
I have it all
I left everyone
I never wanted to be left alone

Still the night doesn't seem too forgiving

Everything I've done this week
haunts me

I've done nothing

I'll hold your hand
If you let go of mine

I'm not doing fine
stop messaging me why

the lucky sound in your voice
brought me down
when I woke up

Tiny sound
Don't think about it now

Haunts me
Night and mornings

White noise
I hate

not so much
now

Trying to drown out the sound

I wonder in this unknown city
I wonder if it's right
I wonder inside its dim corners
I wonder where the end leads
lost in New York
waiting for it to call my name
don't take me home
take a car
let's drive for a long while
lost for a week
waiting to go home
I wonder where
It's 7 PM
in New York
where's home
I don't recognize
I can't see the lights
buildings cover my shadow
I've got no place called home
all alone
I'm wandering around New York

I'm everything I didn't want to be
I'm everything you hate of me
can I take off this mask
can I let my tears fall
I wonder what's it like to leave you
I wonder what it's like to leave and never come back

I took your hand
thinking we could swim away
paradise ahead
you pulled me down
I'm running out of breath
please let me go
I'm trying to find my surface
I'm drowning
inside me
inside you

we're so cold
we're so cold
we don't love each other enough
to save ourselves
I can't achieve anything
while she brings me down
this place brings me down
I bring myself down

If you love me
I hate you

even if I leave
I'll always come back

dear my blues listen
you're not fine, it's not okay
you'll run out of breath

Tonight it rains again
the weeks run like a river
take me away

The city feels melancholy
or is it just me in bed

I'm sick
I can't move
I can't speak

My brain is filled with insecurities
no one can cure me

Tonight it rains
the full moon hidden away

Taken away
I want to swim up the clouds
to see the worm moon

The city cries
I rest away

Wake me up
when the pink moon rises