I wish I could meet you again for first time

so I can ask you everything
I can't ask now

it's too late
I know I'm falling for you

you're fading
driving far away
leaving me on the side of the road

I'm a sad valentine
without you

I want to change my face
my name
my voice
so I can stand in front of you
for the first time again

you will love me in this new body
the old one will rot outside in my garden

now I can ask
what are your dreams
your biggest fears

where do you go when you're all alone

we're all so worthless
you know it

you're everchanging
not so everlasting

throwing cigarettes on your bedroom floor
you're so numb you can't feel the cold

where's the ceiling
always falling to the floor

there's just something
special about you

can't figure it out
I get chills

I want to look like you
move like you do

visions and side effects
I know you will break my heart first
but I can break it twice

I want to hold the sky in my hands

forever in your eyes

you stopped counting at nineteen
now you're twenty

the earth is dying
so am I

you can break my heart
if I can break yours

back to back
we don't see eye to eye

if God hates me
I hate him too

angel boy your wings are suffocating
I can't breathe

you can see inside
don't reach out

I can see you falling
will you ignore me now

find my soul
give it a home

we won't survive
the burden

your guilty conscious
is killing us all

I know he'll never really like me
I'm bad news

he knows it's not worth the risk
there's nothing to lose

this friendship is dying its weak
he knows nothing about me
I can't learn nothing about him

I know I'm distant and cold
he's out of tune
too far to catch

I can't move mountains
or half the sea knowing
he doesn't want to see me

this is obessesion
infatuation
all leading to nowhere

if we're still friends in five years
I hope we've grown together

my wish is to see your face soon
I won't ask you

I know he'll never really like me because he knows I'm bad news

he knows it's not worth the risk even if there's nothing to lose

I know I'm distant and cold
he's out of tune
too far to catch

he knows nothing about me
and I can't learn nothing about him

I can't move mountains
or split the sea knowing
he doesn't want to see me

this is obessesion
infatuation
all leading to nowhere

I want you to myself like a selfish man

my wish is to see your face soon
but I won't ask you

deeply afraid of rejection
I'll stay hidden

I know it can be so simple

but it never is

not with me

tell me
how do I make you love me

valentine cards
flowers but no hearts

I want to push you
so you can fall for me

how do I make you want me

boy it can be simple

it never is

not with you

you're in front of me

tempted

you're so forbidden

I only want you more

lust clouds my judgment

I can't have you if you don't want me