lately
I need to squint

closer the closer I get
I should go

I'm starting to see all my flaws
so I take my glasses off

I've been up and down
you pull me back
I'm trying to leave

lately
I'm start to realize
everything that's wrong
will I change or stay the same

I know we were friends
this distance is killing me
I have no patience to wait for you

I liked him
he was so transparent
could never hide away
I would always find him

all these pretty faces
I can't fake it
if I give you my name
will you take it

lately
in my timeless bedroom
the silence feels peaceful
I'm alone I'm okay

I don't want to wake up alone
for the rest of my life

if someone could hold me

there's things I want to say
will you listen

will anyone listen

my hands and feet are cold
open me up
I want you to see my bones

sadly I just wanted to be your friend
nothing more
but we are less

I wish I wish
all my wishes would come true

I could have you
you can have me too

how long can you try
before all of it
becomes a goodbye

open and closed
I should go
I should go

I torture myself a little more

is it a little better or worse
you were never mine

how many more days will pass till you ask me
if I'm okay

I'll pretend
everything is perfectly fine

I should stay
I should stay

he was right
the silence is loud

all the loud noises
I took for granted

the time we called
at 6 am
is too far away to remember now

I love too quiet
when I love
I tiptoe
I don't want your heart to know

one day
I'll be loud
one day I'll say it

invisible love

tell me you have invisible love for me

I'm asking for a miracle

I really liked you

I have the worst luck ever

forget about me
please remember me
there's no in between

I'm selfish
I want you all to myself

you were everything I had
I'm hearing all your favorite songs

I know I'm losing you
losing every chance

it's all my fault

no matter what happens
I never want to let you go
you're forever mine now

sometimes I let the demons write
for me

they take countless pages
I don't remember anything they said

that wasn't me
that wasn't me

out of proportion
to an extreme

have they corrupted
my entire mind

the pen is fading
when did I start to cry

I WON'T RUIN THIS MOMENT
NO MATTER HOW BADLY
I WANT TO CALL YOU
I DON'T WANT TO SHARE THIS MOMENT
WITH YOU
NO MATTER HOW MUCH
I WANT TO REACH OUT
I LET MYSELF SLIP AWAY
I RUN FROM YOUR EMBRACE
IT'S TERRIFYING KNOWING
YOU COULD BE IT
YOU COULD BE THE END
I WON'T LET US BEGIN

I believed
I could have you forever

I was asking for too much
I can't have that

I wanted to call you
in love

I wanted to say
I love you

too many bandaids
for all the cuts you left on my heart

I'm bleeding
all over again

missing you
missing you is the worst pain
I didn't want to experience


say you miss me too
say you love me too
say you think about me too

ease my mind
I haven't heard your voice in so long