i'm sorry if i think of him
a little bit
when i'm with you

he
crosses my mind
at random times

little things
reminding me
he exists

it's not the best of days
I want to drown again

best we get away from each other

best I go back underwater

so I don't have to hear all the noise

I just want to be alone

I just want money to appear in my bank account

how many more lessons do I have to learn

till I die
of all this hurt

everything is so hard

I can't find the strength to wake up anymore

remember you said i was special
you said there was something special about me
you didn't know
it was something dark
something you can't see
but you know
something you can hold
so heavy you fall through the earth
i miss the days
you thought i was the sun
i'm just a black hole
i'm everyone's bad luck charm
i can't seem to bring anything good to my life
or anyone else's
all i do is ruin
i attract broken people
because i'm broken

it hasn't rained in so long
I miss you but now you're gone

I never thought I'd need anyone
till I met you

I cry so hard
my body shakes

I haven't felt the rain hit my body
I miss you I miss you

dare I say
I love you

all these hidden feelings
all this wasted thinking

hurts to let you go
hurts that you let me go so easily

wish I could hurt you
I hope you're a tiny bit miserable like me

maybe I wasn't the best for you
that I know

but you were
all I wanted

I want to love you
but now you're gone

everything I want
I'll have without you

scared to say anything
are you going to hurt me

does anything I say matter

I trusted you so easily
my mistake

now I feel you're never coming back

I should let you go
you don't want me anymore

you'll never be mine again

I know
I know
I know